WaD LifE meAnT ??

Yesterday was my 1nd wash blood.. Really cant stand the pain.. OmG.. But no matter wad,I will stil stand it cos I oledi promiz 2 my didi ( DennIs).. I will owes stand it.. No matter wad happen.. How hurt it is, I stil will stand it.. Yesterday I got chat with my gorgor (AlaN chEw).. He asked me bout my operation.. OmG.. How he noe bout it??!! N he said tat he noe it from Krawx.. N he is angry tat i din tell him.. Haha.. I m sorry din tell u.. Hehe.. So Pai seh.. Not dun wan tell u.. Juz dun wan u to worry bout me too much.. Coz I oledi giv u too much trouble.. Dun wan it to happen again.. Tis few days I m so tired.. So sienz.. So sad.. Not only bcos of my sickness.. But also my bf!! I noe wad I did to him is wrong but does he noe tat I m tired of him for wad he did??!! He din even giv me any news bout him for at least 2 weeks.. OmG.. Dun wana tok bout him La... Sienz...TirEd.. Sumtimes really duno y GOD plan my life like tis.. Wad is my life really meant to b?? Y I cant b wif my love one?? Y I owes hav to separate wif my love one?? Y all of tis happen to me?? Y it is owes too late when I found out tat I love Him?? Y it is owes too late when I realize how much he meant to me?? Y it is owes too late for eveything?? Y?? Y?? Y??

Below is wad I wanna tell him...

If I had to live my life without u near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With u I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now, touch me now

I dont want to live without u

Nothing's gonna change my love for u

U ought to know by now how much I love u

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for u

U ought to know by now how much I love u

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for u

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead a way for us

Like a guiding star

I'll be there for u if u should need me

U dont have to change a thing

I love u just the way u are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help u see forever too

Hold me now, touch me now

I dont want to live without u

If really can, I hope I can tell him all of tis.. But I think it's all too late.. His fren even help me to think a solution so tat we can b together again.. I really hope we can b together again.. Haiz.. Duno wad else I can do.. I m really sad.. Really duno wad to do.. Really.. Haiz.. So sad.. Feel wanna cry all the time.. Anyway.. Cant write more liao.. Have to start working.. Bye all.. Remember, appreciated your life.. Do wad u can do before its too late.. Don owes regret for wad u did.. Think before u did so.. My prayer n support will owes b wif u.. No matter where u are n wad u did, I will owes b wif u.. Remember my words..