My SurgerY...

Today I am taking my surgery, my kidney surgery.. before I take my surgery, I read the blog that Krawx write about me.. I dun know that he will write that out.. when I first read it, I feel very happy and guess wad, I cry.. Because he is the 1st person who will write like that about me.. He seems to be know me very well even we juz know each other not long.. Now I am writing this blog while thinking of KRAWX.. Yesterday afternoon I play webcam wif Krawx, and we chat so much.. I took his pic from my com n our webcam.. Hehe... sound that we are crazy couple rite? But to tell the truth, I am really happy yesterday.. He even sms me to cheer me up.. Midnite, I cant even sleep.. Thinking of my surgery and bout something else.. I sms Krawx and he reply me n said he is writing a Blog about me.. Today when I look into his blog, i feel so happy and so grateful for wad he done for me.. He even curi curi take my pic thru cam.. hehe.. He is really a good friend.. A friend tat I really will appreciated.. Thats all for him...

Since I know everything bout my kidney, my life change.. I appreciated my life very much.. I treat every single day of my life as my last day, cos I duno anything bout my tomorrow.. Now, my life keep going.. Without knowing whether got tomorrow or not.. I am scare tat once I close my eyes, I cant open it anymore.. Tats y I owes appreciated my day.. No matter wad had happen to me, o wad will happen to me, I stil try my best to cheer myself up n cheer my friends up.. Not every one can b like me.. Cheerful to face every single of problems.. But I know, if I can do it, then for sure all of u oso can do it.. My life is so colourful after I know GOD n know how to appreciated everything n everyone tat ever past thru my life.. Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE if u believe tat u can do it.. Do wad ever u wan n can when u stil can do it.. Don wait anymore cos u duno when u will go away from tis world.. U won know wad will happen to u for the next second.. So, appreciated wad u have today.. appreciated wad u have now.. appreciated wad is infront of u.. Don wait till u lost them then u regret cos tat time when u regret, its too late to regret for it.. Don do anything tat u will regret it forever.. Chase who u like, do wad u wan, b who u r, Love who u wan to love cos u have the rite to do it.. So, KAMBATTE---

Me.. Now lets tok bout me myself.. I m a gal who owes cheerful no matter wad problems I am facing.. I oso won cry infront of my friends cos I don wan my friends to worry bout me.. N I don wan to see them sad because of me.. Cos I will be more sad if I see someone sad.. So, no matter how, I won cry o sad infront of myself.. Tats y whoever c me will say tat I m a happy go lucky gal.. I owes cheerful infront of them.. Even the sky fall down, I stil will smile to others n say, " dont worry, everything will be juz fine.. " I never want to make others sad.. Never wana c them sad.. Even I m facing many problems, I stil will help my friends tat really nid my help.. Will still cheer them up when they need me.. Cos for me, FRIENDS r owes 1st.. For me, FRIENDS r important.. For me, nothing can change the phrase of FRIENDS in my heart.. FRIENDS r owes everything for me cos I m from a broken family, I owes have energy to live longer.. The phrase FRIENDS is my only supportive thing so tat I can live.. Actually I have msg for Krawx..

Krawx, bear have read ur blog.. You said tat friend owes betray, friends r selfish, friends treat u as slave, friends owes refuse u n more.. but do u know tat not every single friend will do tat to u.. even only got 1 treat u as friend, u stil have to appreciated him/her.. Because one day, they will realize tat u r so important for them.. Help them when they nid u even they hurt u.. Do wad u should do.. Appreciated FRIENDS tat u have.. Even they hurt u deep, they r stil ur friend.. Mayb they did it not purposely.. So forgive wad others did to u n they will forgive wad u did to them oso.. Human owes did wrong.. No one r correct all da time.. Even one day u r hit by them, juz let it b.. Let them hit n forget it.. Do u ever heard a touching FRIENDSHIP story? Let bear tell u..

STORY START

Two friends are walking on a desert, because of some small problems, A slap B, n B just pick up a stick n write " today my friend slap me" on the sand. After tat they continue their journey. Suddenly B fell down into a deep hole, A quickly left out his hand n pull him out. When B is out from the hole, he pick up a small stone and carf some word sounds : " Today my friend save me." A felt weird so he ask B : " y u write it on sand when I slap u and now u write it on stone when I save u..??" B answered, " Because I dun wan to remember the sad things happen between us. I write it in place tat is easy to forget. The wind will b responsibility to erase wad had happen. " And after tat, A feel guilty for wad he did. He said sorry to B. And after tat they start their journey again.

STORY END

I dont know will u understand tis story o not..cos tis story really meaningful.. and as u know, tis story is told by a friend of mine who ever quarrel wif me for few weeks.. And now we r friend again.. I juz wan u to know tat, friends owes will make mistakes, but its depends on us whether we can forgive him/her o not.. So, forget every hurt tat friends gave u.. N try to forgive them even they dont know that they r wrong.. K la.. gtg.. wana go take some rest.. after surgery..

This is my 1st blog after my surgery.. I fail my surgery.. The kidney tat the doctor found stil oso damage.. So I didnt replace my kidney wif a healthy one.. My doctor said tat they stil need time to find a healthy kidney for me.. My health now is in bit problem but dont worry.. I will stil on9.. Because I stil want to see Krawx n listen to him hosting.. Krawx, thanks.. Because of your support, I dare to go in the surgery room n b strong while the doctor do the operation.. Its very painful.. Now I cant even sit straight.. So pain.. Its not worth because I din even change my kidney n I have to stand tis pain.. Really ridiculous.. But nvm la.. At least I don hav to stay in hospital.. But will owes go hospital to wash blood.. I dont know whether I dare to wash blood o not cos I know tat wash blood very pain de.. and very suffering.. Duno got energy go wash blood o not.. K la.. Take care guys.. Wana go rest liao.. Krawx, Thanks for everything.. But even I go thru my surgery today, I stil hav many days to suffer cos I stil hav to wash blood..