BInun.....

Kmrn dia zmz blg klo dia uda dlm bis ke UTAH... N ampe hr ini... Saat ak zmz dia... Dia br kse tao ak klo dia uda ampe... Pdhal ak disini uda khwtr bgtz ma dia... Tp knp dia ga mkr klo ak khwtr??!! Knp??!!! Apa bnr di hati dia... Di mata dia... Sama se x ga ada diriku??? Apa bnr ak emank sebgto ga pantes buat dicintaina?? Ak jg ga tao... Alasan dia ga kse kabar adalah dia uda cape bgtz n ketdran... Tp aneh na... Dia bs kse kabar ke org laen klo dia uda ampe UTAH... Apa bnr org laen lbh penting dibandingkan ak???!!! Ak jg ga tao... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Ak binun bgtz... Org2 blg... Biarla... Jlnin aja dolo hubungan ini... Ak emank mo trz jlnin hub ini... Tp mslhna muncul... Hatiku terasa skt bgtz tiap ak mkr bahwa kt ito lom ada status yg paste... Hatiku akit bgtz tiap ak tao aklah org terakhir yg tao smua hal dia... Knp dia haruz muncul dlm hidup ak??? Ato mgkn ak yg ga seharuzna muncul dlm hidup dia...??!! AK jg ga tao... Yg ak tao... Ak krg mse sayang bgtzz ma dia... Mgkn... Ak haruz tgg wktna sampe br ak bs pelan2 lepasin dia x yak... Ak jg ga tao... Prnh ak bahas tentang hubungan dia dgn ak... Dia blg smua keputusan ada di tangan ak... Keputusan apa yg haruz ak ambil??? Ak jg ga tao... Mao dia sbnrna apa??... Ak jg ga tao... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn ambil keputusan... Sejak dia pge... Smuana disini uda berubah... Ak jg ga tao napa Aliang jg ikut berubah... Krg dia menghindari ak... Ak jg ga tao napa bs kyk gto... Ak ngerasa smuana uda berubah... Apa yg haruz ak lakukan...??? Ak binun... Arghhhhhhhh... Lama2 ak bs gila... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Haruz paen... Uwaaaaa... Bnrn deh... Cape cape cape... Knp sich dia ga mo kse ak 1 kesempatan untuk masuk ke dalam hati dia??? Knp sich??? Tao ga sich ak sayang bgtz ma dia....????!!!! Ak ga tao apa ak bs trima hr2 tanpa kehadiran dia...!!! Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Ak takut... Ak bnrn takut keilangan dia lge... Krn ak takut perasaan sakit hati n keilangan ito muncul n menghantui ak lge... Ak takut bgtzz... Ak ga mao keilangan org yg ak sayangi untuk kedua x na... Ak ga mao... Ak ga bs trima smua ito... Ak takut... Tolong... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn lge... Tolong ak...

LifE...

Life... Full of happiness n sadness... Full of suprises... Full of shock... Full of things tat is unexpectedly... Its all depends on how we go for our life... Its all depends on how we look at our life... How we treat our life... How we actually want it to be... How do u want miracles to be happen in your life... How u want everything to be like what u want... How u want every moment to be the most precious moment in your life... Look at your life carefully... And u will found out actually your life is full of joy... Even sometimes tears falls out... But actually... Your life is even much more better than others... Treat your life ad it is your last day... And u can actually find out that life actually is really meaningful... No one can ever change your life... Life goes like what u wan it to go... It change only when u ask it to change... Your life is in your hand... U are the one who control your life... Me... Or him... We are just part of your life... Life is like a stage... U choose the role and u play your part... And we... We are just people that makes your scene become more interesting... Your life maybe isn't as wonderful as others... Not as beautiful as others... Not as romantic as others... Not as happy as others... But then... It is the life u choose... U are the one who choose to walk in it... So u cant even regret for what u have choose... What u can do... Is keep continue with what life u have chosen... So... Dont u ever choose a road that will make u regret... Cos after u choose the road, there will be no way for u to return back... Life is like this... U choose the role... Then u have to play it till it is over... No returning... No changing... No regret... Accept the life that u have chosen... And try to finish it...

SUprIseS...fRoM yAnk...

Hem... Mulai dr mn yak... Brp hr ini si Jisang zmzan ma ak... Dia suka muncul tiap ak lge sedih n butuh tmn... Haha... Makasi bgtz Sang... Kmrn si Denny jablay dtg... Dia mo peyuk ak gto... Buset deh... Akhirna ak hindar... Hahaha... Tao ga, kmrn mlm ayank epon... Duh duh duh... Suprise bgtz gto lho... Ak jd seneng bgtz... Dia tanya ak... : " Mo bo2 brg ga??? " Ak blg : " Blh aja... tp gmn bo2 na??? " Dia blg : " Ya, km dtg, masuk ke kmr trz kt bo2 brg deh... " Dengan ngmng ini ak uda tao ito dia... Tp ak tetep tanya sapa dia... Akhirna dia tanya ak : " Mank sapa lge yg brani ngajak km bo2 brg??? " Mrh gto... Hahaha... Ak blg cumen ayank ak... Hahaha... Akhirna ketaoan deh... Hahaha... Ak mah ga bs ngmng apa2... Hahaha... Trz kt ngobrol bntr... Ak kangen bgtz ma dia... Akhirna pas uda mo abiz wkt epon na, dia bnyk pesen... Buset deh... Hahaha... Bnrn deh tu anak... Saking khwtr ma ak... Pesenan na setumpuk... Hahaha... Trz pas dia mse lge pesen, ooopzzzz... Mati... Hahaha... Akhirna ak zmz... Biz ito dia suruh ak bo2... Dia blg dia emank mo kse ak suprise... Hehehe... Seneng bgtz deh... 1st time dia kse suprise... Hehe... Trz ak blg mank ak ga blh kangen... Trz dia blg : " Blh koq... Apa sich yg ga buat km..." Hehehe... Hahaha... Ga tao deh napa dia sweet bgtz... Hehehe... Ydah dolo yak... AK mo krj....

bOut aYank n SomEthinG maKE mE dAmn baD moOD...

Semlm papa n cc ayank dtg ke rmh... Ngasi barang titipan ayank... Trz ngobrol bentar ama kt... Papa na liatin ak molo... Ak jd malu gto... Hahaha... Trz cc na blg klo dizmz, dia ga blz... Tp aneh na, zmz ak diblz... Hahaha... Trz kmrn ayank ada ngobrol ama papa n cc na... Papa na ga mo ngmng lama2... Soalna atut nangis... Hahaha... Trz uda gto cc na ngobrol ma dia... Cc na blg knapa zmz na ga blz... Jwban na nomer na aneh... Hahaha... Trz cc na blg klo nomer wiwi ga aneh... Gto?? Trz dia ketawa2... Hahaha... Trz pas ak tny uda beli aqua ato blom, dia blg blom... Akhirna ak marahin... Haha... Cc na malah blg bgz... Trzin... Marahin aja... Hahaha... Trz pas uda mo tutup epon, yah... Seperti biasa... Paste say love u n miss u deh... Eh pas uda tutup epon, papa na godain ak... Dia blg : " Klo org dolo ga ada love u love u... Dolo mah I laop u... " Hahahaha... Kmrn papa na sbnrna mo dtg pas siang... Eh, kt malah ga di rmh... Akhirna papa na ga jd dtg... Mlm br dtg... Uda gto ak naek ke kmr... Ga ngantuk... Makana ak ga bo2 dolo... Ayank zmz ak... Yah... Akhirna kt zmzan deh... Bnyk bgtz... Dia tny soal email dia... Tny cara check mail... Maen friendster... Hahaha... Ayank skrg uda ga gaptek lge boo... Hahaha... Trz kmrn ak kan crita ke cc na ayank beli lap top... Mo blajar chatting... Eh, cc na n Ivana malah liatin ak... Gr2 ak gto ayank beli lap top... Hahaha... Trz ak pasang muka ga berslh... Hahaha... Jujur ayank sich berubah bnyk... Ga tao yak... Skrg uda mo pke internet... Tp... Ada tp na lho... Dia tetep aja cemburu klo ak chat ama org laen... Hahaha... Trz semlm zmzan ama ayank... Si Denny jablay malah epon... Bikin ak telat blz zmz ayank... Biz Si Jablay epon, dia zmz ak... Masa tu anak saking mabok na ampe blg dia sayang ma ak... Dia kangen ma ak... Dia pengin peyuk n tium ak... Ikh... Jijay bgtzzzz... Uwaaa... Oeeekkk... Mo muntah ak... Hahaha... Biz ito ak nonton... Nonton " The Art oF deAth... " Ga serem sich... Cumen jijay... Bnrn deh... Tp ga nonton abiz... Hahaha... Soalna ak ngantuk bgtz... Akhirna ak tutup... Ayank janji mo bgnin ak... Eh, bknna bgnin pke epon... Malah zmz doank... Akhirna ak telat bgn deh... N mama mrh2 deh... Trz ayank lge bikin bete... Dia kena pecat ama bos na... Trz dia krg plg ke LA... Tp dia mrh2 ke ak... Akhirna ak cumen bs diem... Trz berusaha buat dia ga bete... Berusaha buat dia seneng... Tenang... Biar ga emosi... Ak cape bgtz hrz kyk gini molo... Ak ga bs tahan... Lama2 bisa gila ak... Ak uda ga tao haruz gmn jagain anak org... apalge anak na lebih gede dr ak... Kyk ayank... Ga plg brp hari, papa na langsung cr ak... Trz Aliang... Aliang ga plg brp hr... Mama na jg cr ak... Skrg ayank uda di Amrik, papa na ga dpt kabar jg tetep cr ke ak... Trz si Ivana... Mama na ga trima zmz dr dia, ato hp na ga buka, mama na jg cr ak... Duh... Ak bisa gila dicriin ortu na org nich... Bnrn deh... Buset bgtz... Hem... But what can I do??? Uda ketetapan dr ATAS... Cumen bs trima... Ydah deh yak... Ga tao mo tulis apa lge... Pusing n binun... Bubye... Take care... Love u yank...