All ABouT m3 n My AtmospHerE...

28.02.2008 - for my hubby...

2008-02-28T02:17:00.000-08:00

Buat papi,

Hr ini adalah hr kamis... Semenjak 2 hr yg lalu, ak ditgl ama cwo ak... cwo ak akit... Huhuhuz... Cedih deh... Huhuhuz... Betapa sepi na hidup ku tanpa dia... Hemz... Cptan sembuh dunkz papi... Mami bnran uda kangen bgtz... Uda ga bisa chatting... Ga bs zmzan... Telponan juga cumen brp menit... Bisa2 mami bete bgtz n cr cwo laen nich... Wakakaka... Yah... papi, cptan sembuh... Nante mami selingkuh lho klo papi tglin mami lama2... Mami sedih nich... Huhuhu... Mami tiap hr diajak knalan ama cwo2 yg ga tao dr mana nongol na... N aneh2 deh... Semuana ngajak knalan... Mami pikir 1 - 2 org... Tp tiba2 nongol jd lebih dr 10 org... Cumen gara2 maen fanbox... Buset ga tuh..??!!! Speechless deh... 0 M g... = Oh mI goSh... wAkakaka... Ngakak deng... Hemzzz... Papi, cptan sembuh dunkz... Hr ini dd minta tlg yg ga jelaz ma ak... kata na mao ak apuz foto dia yg ada di fs ak... Krn ada temen dia yg bete ama dia mao buka fs br dgn foto dia n pake nama jablay... Salah dd sndr sapa suruh ganjen n kecentilan n suka bikin org bete... Wakakaka... mao ga tlg jg ga bs... Biz nante klo dia ngadu ke mama, bisa gawat ak... Wakakaka... Tp kasian jg si dd digtoin... Abiz... salah sendiri... Sapa suruh kecentilan n keganjenan... Uda punya cwo sndr tp ms aja suka TP... Yah... Setgh kayak mami deng... Wakakaka... Ngakak molo neeh... Blog mami bikin na berjam2 nich... gara2 di ganggu dd molo... Minta tlg na buannyaakkkk buangetzzzz... Capek dehhhhh... Tp mo ga mo ak harus tolongin... Sapa suruh ak jd cece na... capek deh... wakakak... SI mama brsan tlp... Mo kirim email lge deng... Pdhal br aja kirim ke rog yg sama td siang... Cape deh.... Wakakaka... Yg baca cape ga nich??? hahhaha... Ngakak lge neeh... Hemzz... Udahan dolo yak... Mo kirim email sblum lupa isi na... Semoga TUHAN memberkati papi... mami sayang papi... muah...

Love,

Mami

25.02.2008...Thanks for everyone...

2008-02-25T03:04:00.000-08:00

Hemzz... Bentar lge bulan Februari uda abis deh... N masuk deh ke bulan Maret... Hemzz... Cpt bgtz yak kt harus masuk ke bulan Maret... Bulan Februari... Juga bulan Valentine akan abis... Tp ak ga nyesel... Krn bnyk yg telah ak lakukan dalam bulan ini... Cumen ak takut bulan demi bulan cpt berlalu krn ak mase lom belajar apa yg akan jd ulangan ak pada bulan Juli nante... Hehehe... Skrg hidup ak... Hari2 ak... Penuh dgn kebahagiaan... Kebahagiaan krn cwo ak ditrima oleh mama ak... Kebahagiaan krn ak punya cwo baru yg bgto menyayangi diriku... Kebahagiaan krn ak ditrima di keluarga cwo ak... Kebahagiaan krn apa yg ak mao, akhirna terjadi jg... Saat ini, detik ini, ak merasakan kebahagiaan... Makasi TUHAN krn sudah memberi ak kebahagiaan ini... TUHAN, tolong jangan ambil kebahagiaan ini dari ak... Ak rela KAU memberi ak percobaan laen, tp tolong jgn ambil kebahagiaan ak ini dari ak... Terima kasih TUHAN... Brp hr yg lalu mama ak pulang Singkawang... N baru pulang hr ini... Selama brp hr ini, cwo ak dtg and temenin ak... Ak seneng bgtz... Ak ga tao bagaimana cara mengungkapkan kebahagiaan ak ini... Tapi, ak bnr2 bahagia bgtz... Ak tao ak ini manusia yg sering x membuat org2 disekeliling ak khawatir akan diriku... Tapi untuk skrg ini, hapuslah kekhawatiran kalian... Krn ak bgto baek... Ak bgto bahagia... Krn TUHAN telah memberikan kebahagiaan yg selama ini ak cari... Mungkin menurut kalian ini konyol... Tapi bnr, TUHAN yg memberikan kebahagiaan ini kepadaku... Makasi TUHAN...

Untuk TUHAN ku tercinta... Oh TUHAN, terima kasi krn KAU telah memberikan cinta kepada umat2MU ini... Sehingga umat2MU ini bs mencintai dan dicintai... Mengenal apa rasa cinta... Terima kasih TUHAN atas semua pemberian KAU kepadaku... Makasi krn menciptakan seorg ibu yg bgto menyayangi ak... Menciptakan seorg lelaki yg bgto menyayangi ak... Skrg, ak bnr2 merasakan kebahagiaan yg tiada habisnya... Terima kasih TUHAN atas semua ini... GOD, I do love YOU...

Untuk mama ak... Ma, makasi atas semua pelajaran yg telah kau berikan padaku... Semua hukuman2 yg telah kau berikan padaku agar ak tambah kuat dan dewasa... Ak ga pernah bnr2 membenci km... Krn ak tao, semua yg km lakukan ini adalah untuk kebaekan ak sndr... Makasi bgtz ma atas semua yg telah mama lakukan buat ak... Ak ga akan melupakan semua ini... Terima kasih...

Untuk mantan ak... Ak tetep sayang sama km... Tp sebagai temen... Bgto ak memikirkan mu, ak ngerasa sedih n kasian n bersalah... Sedih n kasian akan kondisi kesehatan km... Bersalah krn selingkuh di belakang km... Tp km bgto baek... Bahkan tidak membenci ak... Terima kasih... Ak akan doakan yg terbaek buat km...

Untuk cwo ak... Makasi krn uda hadir dalam hidup ak... Makasi krn memberi ak kesempatan untuk menjadi pasangan km... Makasi krn uda mao terima ak apa adanya... Makasi krn uda mao mencintai ak... Makasi krn uda mao menyayangi ak... Makasi krn uda mao berkorban untuk ak... Makasi krn smua yg kau berikan padaku adalah kebahagiaan buat ak... Makasi cinta...

Makasi semua temen2 ak atas semua dukungan yg telah kalian berikan padaku... Semua nasehat2 yg kalian tujukan padaku... Makasi... Ak sangat bersyukur krn mengenal kalian smua... GOD bless u all...

Love,

MAY

21.02.2008 - 1 month anniversary

2008-02-25T03:02:00.000-08:00

20.02.2008... Itz wednesday... On 19 - 20.02.2008, I quarrel again with my dear... Hemz... But then, on 20.02.2008 afternoon, we stop our quarrel... On that nite, he came to my house... Actually he wanna accompany me until 21.02.2008, 12am... Because it was our 1 month anniversary... Hemz... I am so happy... Last nite we do lots of silly things... First he checked on my friendster... Then we watched tv for a while... Then he started to be naughty and kissed me... OMG... We french kissed for... Ermzzz... Quite a long time... Until I cant breath... Hehehe... And until I pushed him but he was so strong until I cant have the energy to push him... Hehe... Then he let me go... We chit chat and took quite few photos with my new phone... Will put it in my fs later on... I love him so much... Yes, I really do... I cant even angry him for a long time... On 18.02.2008, he put on a ring on my finger and it was our unformal engage ring... I am his n he is mine... Today is our 1 month anniversary... Wah... So fast... I feel that we just start this relatinship for few weeks... But... It was 1 month old now... Hehehe... Dear, happy anniversary k?? I love u so much... Yesterday he wrote me letter too... To expressed how he feel... And how much he love me... And I was so touch... So happy... Yes, I do love u too my dear... And I promise that I wont leave u... I will always love u... And I will always by your side... Forever loving u... I dont know why, I feel wanna be with u everyday, every minute, every second... I love u so much... And only love can understand us... Let love and GOD lead our way... Our way to our future...
Hubby, I love u so so much... I will always love u... For now... And forever...

20.02.2008

2008-02-25T03:00:00.000-08:00

Hemz... Suddenly I feel wanna talk... Wanna write out everything I feel... For now, I feel sad, angry, mad, wanna cry... I dont know why... Last nite, he left me behind... He dont reply my zmz... That really hurt me... I dont know why he like that... Usually he can take jokes... But last nite, he was so so different... I cant said anything too... So I just let him like that... I didnt call him too... I thought this morning he will wake me up as usual... But he didnt... Usually even we are having quarrel, he will still wake me up... But not this morning... I dont know why, I feel like crying... But I dont let the tears to come out... Then I come in my office and start my computer... I sign into yahoo messenger... Waiting for him to online... As I wait, I always look into my hp... And I hope that he will msg me... BUt he doesnt... I am really dissapointed... And I really feel wanna cry... Oh GOD, please help me with this feeling... After that, I see him online... But he didnt find me... He just set up his status... And we chat thru status... I dont know why, I feel so hurt in my heart... Since valentine day until now, this is the 1st time we quarrel again... And I, I am so so sad... Why?? Why everytime I have to quarrel with him?? Why everytime I have to get hurt 1st then he will realize what I want?? Why everytime I have to roll down my tears then he will realize whats wrong?? I really dont know what should I do now... I am so so tired... But everytime when I listen to his voice, I cant stop... I cant stop loving him... Only with him I can be myself... Be a gal who is exhausted of love and care... But he... He doesnt realize that... He doesnt know that I am exhausted of love and care... I dont know what should I do... Hemz... GOD, please show me the way how to face all my problems... I really dont know what should I do... I realize that I do really love him... And I guess, so do he... But why?? Why sadness always comes to me after happiness?? He put on a ring on me... We have an unformal engagement... I am so so happy... A ring that curve our name and love on it... Tears... I hate tears... It always drop from my eyes... But then, without tears, I cant cry... What should I do now?? I am speechless... Why we always quarrel because of small matter?? I am so so sad... Oh GOD... Please help me... What should I do...?? Please lead me in this problems... GOD, now YOU are the only one who can change him... Change him to be a better man... Please guide him... Please look after him... Thanks GOD...

what happen with me within 1 month

2008-02-25T02:59:00.000-08:00

Hemz..Just wanna tell ya guys everything that happen to me with this 1 month... Something that make me think I am crazy... I am nuts and I am weird... Hahaha... On 21th January, I start my relationship with someone who I just know for erm...1 week maybe... Actually, for the first time, I just wanna play with him... But after I see him on 20th January, I feel that something wrong with me... Really... First, I feel that I like him... OMG... How can that be??!! Hemz... But thats the truth... We go to church... he came to my house and pick me up... After that we go have lunch with my sis who suddenly appear infront of us... Hahaha... After that, we go watch movie... Hemz... When we leave, we din said anything... Let me tell u where is the weird thing... The weird thing is, I never feel the feeling that appear in my mind and body... Hemz... When he said he likes me and want me be his gf on 21th January, I accept him directly... Cos I feel the same way he felt to me... Let me tell you our activities everyday... We sms everyday, everyhour, every minute... Only stop when we are chatting... We chat since 8am until 5.30 pm... After that we continue with playing sms... At night around 10pm something, he will call me... And we will talk on the phone until we fall asleep... After that on 6am or 7am, I will give him morning call... On 27th January last Sunday, he brought me back to his house to introduce me with his family... So happy... Hehe... That day actually we want to go TA... But we didnt go... Because I am lazy... I feel that his house is comfortable... I really like his house... Hehe... Hemz... And if I dont remember wrong date, on 29th January, he propose me... I accept him but I know we cant married now... I told I will marry him when I am 26... Hehe... After that, guess wad... I, me, who always angry ppl for weeks... Can just forget about my anger to him in minutes... Thats the most weird thing happen in me... And I can even contact with him without any boring feeling appears... Hahaha... I think, I really do love him so much... I really do... Thats all I wanna said for now... I love u dear hubby... Muachsss.....

regrEt

2008-01-14T00:45:00.001-08:00

Damn..!! I am really stupid to ask him once more time... Now... He hurt my heart again... I guess its time for me to really broke up with him... I cant stand... Damn!!! What he thinks he is??? He is nothing for me!!! Just a guy who dont have feeling and dont have heart!!! Sh*t!!! Just get rid of me... Dont come find me anymore... I will easily forget u...!!! I will !!! And I will show u that I can forget u!!!

LovE

2008-01-14T00:41:00.000-08:00

Hem... I am thinking... What is Life meant to be without LOVE?? WoW... Even lesbian and gay have love... Right?? What is the feeling when we are sad there's no one for us?? What is the feeling when we are happy and there's no one to enjoy with?? What is the feeling when u see all your friends are dating with their love one while u are left behind alone?? Oh... GOD... It's hurt and miserable... That is what I felt before... Few years ago before I got bf... Its been almost 6 years past since I first learn to love... So miss my first love... But then... itz all a past now... Now I got him... He who always love me... He who always care for me... He who always miss me... He who always make me happy... He who always can make me cry... He who always be there when I need him... I do love him... I will love him... And I always do... Maybe we do always quarrel... But then it doesnt change my love to him... But it makes my love stronger... Oh dear... I really crazy for u... I am crazy in love with u... U are everything for me... When the first time u said I love u, I am so happy... I really do... Please... Never let me go... Cos I will never let u go too... Dear, I love u... Muah...

my feeling to my hubby

2008-01-14T00:30:00.000-08:00

I just want to share my feeling right now in this blog... Where place that I can only expressed my feeling... Last night I cried for 2 and the half hours... I dont know how to stop crying... Until now, I am still struggling... I cant do anything... Last night I cry because my dear cant accompany me on this Christmas... Truely, it really hurt... Many thinking comes out to my mind... He want to visit his dead mom... And I know, how it means to him... But then, I also want to celebrate with him... I feel so sad... I dont know what to do... Once, he make me sad cause cant go Bali with me... And now, he cant celebrate Christmas with me... I am really hurt and sad... But I cant do anything... I hope I can see him faster... He promise he will be back on January... I hope this time he really keeps his promise to me... Cause... No matter what he promise me... I will always keep his promise... No matter how many times he had lie to me... How many times he had forget his promise... But I will still keep his promise... I know... And I believe that one day he will keep his promise... He will remember his promise... And another reason why I cant stop crying... Is... When he said that he got diseases... Anemia... I dont know whats that... I dont know... I just know I dont want to lost him... He is the one who can makes me happy... The one who can make me smile... The one who can let me love... The one who can make me sad... This is the 2nd time I falled in love... And I believe that my choice is not wrong... I dont want him to go away from my heart... From my days... I want him always in my side... No matter what happen to him, I will always love him... Always by his side... Even he become "plant man", I will still continue loving him... I wont stop... I wont change... We want to built our own family... Built our own house... Built our happiness... I believe he wont leave me... I believe he will built our happiness together with me... I believe that he wont make me sad... He wont make me unhappy anymore... I believe in me and him... And miracles... I believe there is miracles... GOD always give me miracles... I believe in GOD... I believe in him... I believe... Please GOD, dont make Gun leave me... Please make him my last lover... My only lover... I know, I always make him cry... I always make him sad... I always hurt him... I always make him angry... But... I will change... I really do... GOD, I am willing to change my health with his... I dont want to lost him... I remember he ever said we are going to dating for 5 years... And he will marry me... And we will live until 80 more years... I will keep his promise... It's hard for me to fall in love again... Once again I fall in love now, please dont take him away from me... GOD, I beg u... I dont have anyone except him... I dont want anything except him... I rather lost everything but I dont want to lost him... GOD, I dont have my own family... I want to built my family with him... Please, let this miracles happened... GOD, I believe in YOU... YOU will give me miracles right??? GOD, I believe in my choice... And I believe... YOU wont let him show up if YOU dont want let me love him... I am sure YOU will take care of him... I believe it... GOD, YOU ARE THE WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIFE... I believe YOU wont take him away from me...

my BelovEd huBBy...ThankS fOr uR loVe.....

2007-11-23T01:52:00.000-08:00

Erm... I want to talk about yesterday... Yesterday my hubby ask permission from me that he want to work until 4pm something... But he neva told me that his phone is out of batt and wanna left it at home to charge... HuH!!! And bcos of his fault, I felt sad... U know why??? Bcos at about 3pm something I zmz him and said : " I am so poor... Being left by my hubby... " And the hp reply this : " Who is ur hubby??? " And I stil thik its a joke... Then I said : " Ok... Not hubby... Just my lover... " And the hp reply : " Who is ur lover??? Do u know who am I?? I am Silvia... And who are u??? " I was so shocked... And I answer : " I am gun's lover... Who are u?? " And she replied : " I am his lover... We have been going this relationship for 3 years more... " And after that she turned off the hp... I was so shocked and hurt... And I dont know what to do... I thaught that he really back with his ex... And I zmz his bro asking who is Silvia... And his bro said that is his gf... And suddenly I think maybe my hubby just testing me... When he get home, he zmz me... But I replied him with no emotical... I cant said anything... I am so blank... So I take permission not to zmz... After that at night, I use my other hp to zmz him... Pretending that I am other ppl... That hp ever used to check on him and test him... last time I used that hp to say I am a gal who wanna be ur lover... But he rejected her... Hahaha... And now I used the same hp to say that I am a boy who likes May so much... And I used that hp to tell him everything that happened before he goes home... I oso treatened him that "alan" likes me... hahaha.... And my hubby become so moody... He ask his bro and his gf... And he scolded them... I am so scared... He is so emosional... Really... He never been like that to me before... He was so scared that I am hurt... Hehe... That make me love him more... I really do... Even when ppl said they likes me... I rejected them... Hehe... Hubby, thanks for your love... I love u...

cuRe a HeaRt tHat u'vE brokEn iT??nOt tAt eAsy...

2007-11-23T01:43:00.000-08:00

Last nite I zmz Feb when I am in big emosion... Oh ya... Let me introduce u... Feb is someone who ever be my bf... Maybe for a week... Or 2 weeks... hehe... N now he is in Pontianak... Erm... Broke with him because he hurt me too much... That makes me dislike him... But yet he is so pity... So I still be friend of him... Erm, last nire he told me that he still treat me as his gf... And he still sayang me... He oso even call me yayank all the time... That wads makes me think of our relation before... But then, I dont want to get hurt by him anymore... No way... I hate the way he treats me... huh...!!! Did he think that it's so easy to break then cure my heart???? No Way!!! It wont happen!!! Never happened!!! It's not that easy to cure a heart that u have broken it... Maybe... We can just continue as friend... That's wad it will be for now lor... I still cant forget how he hurt me... Sorry... Everything comes so fast... And it really hurt my heart... I am sorry... Sorry that I cant forget the way u treat me...

Sorry???!!! Its not that easy...

2007-11-22T00:02:00.002-08:00

Yesterday I receive a sms and msg from someone who actually I almost forget... After receiving her msg and sms, I bcome a bit moody... I dont know why its so easy for her to say sorry after what she had done to me and my family... She wanna said that it was becoz she is mad... But can she please think carefully who is she facing with???!!! In my "dictionary", there is no easy sorry... I cant forgive ppl easily after what I think they done to me make me very unhappy... Its not that easy if wan me to forgive her... Even she said sorry thousand times... Cos I am really hurt with wad she did... I neva said her bad things to others... I always believe her... I treat her as my own sister... N yet, she prefer to believe others... Believe boys that she just knew for few months... Remember before I taught her how to chat... And I really regret that I taught her how to chat... I duno wads in that boy until she prefer to choose him than me... I neva tell her wads in my heart... Now, I dont want to think so much... My hubby ask me to forgive her... But, sorry.... I still cant forget wad she did to me... I will neva forget... I will forgive her if one day I forget everything that she did to me... She always said tat she is not jealous when she see me get near wif her boy friends... But I know that she is... Bcos I can feel that... So, its hard for me to bcome friends wif them... They liked me... I do enjoy making friends with them... But yet, she always get jealous... I hate that... I dont know why she want to be jealous... Thats wad I hate... I really do hate that... I dont know what she wants... ShYt... Dont wanna talk bout her anymore... Just wanna say that, I dont like her... I still cant forgive her... I cant talk to her yet... And I cant forget what she done to me..

KesEdihAn dAN kEPeDIhaN

2007-11-22T00:02:00.001-08:00

Ak ga tao apa yg haruz ak lakukan... Ga nyangka hal ini bs terjadi... Kesedihan yg paling ak benci... Slama ini ak adalah org yg ga kenal sedih... Apa ito sedih?? Ga ada kata sedih dlm kamus ak... Krn ak benci ama kesedihan... Kesedihan hanya membuat kt ga kenal diri kt... Dan kt akan melakukan hal-hal yg ga pernah kt lakukan... Mgkn jg yg akan menyakiti diri kt sendiri... Makana... Ak benci bgtz ama kesedihan... Tp... Hr ini ak berhadapan dgn kesedihan... Kesedihan yg slama ini paling ak takuti... Kesedihan yg ga haruz na muncul dlm hidup ak... Kesedihan yg paling menakutkan... Apa yg hrz ak lakukan??? Tangisan hadir dlm setiap mlm ku... Sakit hati muncul lge tiap ak bgn tidur... Mimpi buruk muncul dlm tidurku... Ak bnran ga tao hrz buat apa... Ak cape bgtz hadapi kesedihan ini... Disaat ak trima dia, ak tao klo suatu saat nante ak akan hadapi kesedihan... Tp ak ga nyangka bgtz kesedihan ini ternyata bgto menyakitkan dan lebih menyakitkan dr apa yg ak bayangi... Krn, uda sekian taon ak ga ngerasakan kesedihan ini... Ternyata ini yg nama na sakit hati... Ini yg nama na patah hati... Ak br tao... Ak sekali lge merasakan ini... Hal yg paling ak benci... Hal yg paling ak takuti... Apa yg hrz ak lakukan??? Knapa sich dia tega bgtz melukai hatiku?? Pdhal ak bgto menyayangi dirinya... Pdhal ak bgto care dan perhatian ma dirinya... Tetapi smua kasih sayang, care dan perhatian yg ak berikan, dikembalikan dgn sakit hati dan kepedihan dan kesedihan ini... Ak benci bgtz... Benci benci benci... Knapa sich kesedihan dan kepedihan ini hrz ada pada ak?? Knapa hrz muncul lge pada ak?? Ak benci ama diri ak sendiri... Knapa ak hrz sayang ma dia?? Knapa ak hrz trima dia?? Knapa ak mao perhatian ma dia sedangkan ak uda tao ak bakalan sakit hati... Knapa ak bs percaya ama janji-janji dia??? Knapa??!! Knapa??!! Knapa??!! Smua hal ini knapa bs terjadi??? Ak cape bgtz... Bnran cape...

kEnaPA kM gA miKiriN pEraSaAn aK???

2007-11-22T00:01:00.000-08:00

Ak pikir ak bs mengubah dirinya... Ak pikir dia bnr2 sayang ma ak... Ak pikir dia bnr2 bakalan tglin cwe ito... Tp ternyata ak salah... Dia blg ke ak klo dia serius ma hubungan kt ini tp kenyataan na dia ga pernah mentingin perasaan ak... Dia ga pernah mikirin ak... Ga pernah tao apa yg ak mao... Ga pernah tao apa ak sakit hati ato ga... Dia blg dia uda ga ada hubungan ama cwe ito... Dia blg dia uda ga mao kontek ma cwe ito... Tp akhir na apa??!! Tetep aja pajang foto cwe ito... Tetep aja kontek... Tetep aja bikin ak sakit hati... Apa bnr ak ga pantes dpt kasih sayang yg tulus..?? Apa ak emank hrz kyk gini??? Hdp dlm kesedihan??? Knapa sich dia ga pernah mikirin perasaan ak??? Apa ak bnr bgto ga berharga buat dia??? Apa yg haruz ak lakukan??? Hatiku perih tiap ak melihat foto2 ito... Hatiku perih tiap ak inget ama janji2 dia... Apa yg ak kse tao, ga pernah masuk ke dalam otak na... Ak benci ama diriku yg ga bs apa2... Tiap hari... Tiap mlm ketika ak mengingat smua mslh ini... Ak cumen bs menangis sndr dlm kamar... Apa lge yg bs ak lakukan selaen menangis??? Kesabaran dan kepercayaan ito ada batas na... Ampe mana seseorg buat yg laen percaya ama dia... Ak ga tao mao lampiaskan kesedihan ku ke mana... Oleh krn ito ak menemukan tmn baek ak... Blog... Hanya dlm blog ak bs menulis smua kesedihan hatiku... Kata cc, cuekin aja... Biarkanlah smua berlaku dan kt tetep bersabar... Mgkn bnr, ak hrz bersabar... Ak ga akan ambil pusing lge...

PertEngKarAn dGn cwO rEsE

2007-11-21T23:58:00.000-08:00

hEmz... gA taO dEH... Ga taO kNapA dIa bS gTo aMa aK... Apa sAlAh aK kE dIa?? DoLo eManK kT sEmpEt jDiaN... tP itO uDa keJdiAn lAmA bGtz... n sKrG aK jG uDa aDa PcR bR... aPa sAlaH nA kT jD tMn?? kNapA haNyA kRn dIa uDa pNy pCr bR trUz dIa bGtO dIngIn tErhaDaP aK?? dOlo kT sTlAh pUtuS tEtEp jD tMn kOq... MalAhaN aK aMa dIa bS cuRhaT2aN... Tp kNaPa sKrG dIa malAh gTo aMa aK?? DiA sURuh aK jGn Zmz dIa lGe... sUruH aK jGn cR diA lGE... cUmeN krN dIa uDa puNya pCr bR... bNrn gA nYanGkA... Di mAna JanJi2 yG dIa jAnjI kE aK?? dI mAnA jAnjI yG meNgaTakAn bAhWa kM kAn sElaLu tEmEniN aK?? Di mAnA jAnJI yG mEngAtaKAn kLo aK bLh cArI kM kaPan aJa, dImaNa aJa, kLo aK lGe bUtUH tEmeN?? Di MaNa jAnJi yG kM bLg maO bUaT aK keTaWa tRuZ?? aK sEbEl aMa dIa... aK gA nyAnGkA bGTz dIa bS tEga SurUh aK jGn kOnteK dIa lGe... SurUh aK meNjauH dR diA... aPa siCh SaLaH nA tEtEp jD tMn wAlAupuN dIa uDa pUnyA pCr?? tOh cWe nA itO jG g kNaL... tOh aK jG uDa aDa pCr... jD aPa sAlAh nA aK amA dIa tEteP jD tMn?? aK gA ngErtI aMa dIa... n Jg gA ngErtI kNaPa dIa hAruZ nyAkiTi aK mOlo... dOlo pAs bR puTuS... sKrg pAs uDa jD tMn... sAma aJa... cWo bRengSeK... aK maSe bErpIkiR klO dIa bS jD seOrG tMn yG aK peRcaYa... TerNyatA aK sAlAh... mGkN emAnK uDa wKt nA dIa iLanG dR keIduPaN aK x Yak... uDa wKt nA uNtuK meLupAkAn dIa... aK aKan hApuS smUa kEnaNgaN aK aMa dIa... aK aKan anGGaP dIa gA pErnAh mUncUl dLm hIduP aK... dAn aK akAn bUaT dIa ilAng Dr kEidUpaN aK sLama Na...

mY mEmoRieS

2007-11-21T23:52:00.000-08:00

Disaat ak katakan kita putus,tao kah km betapa sakit hatiku??? Taokah km disaat ak mengatakan putus,hatiku sedang menangis??? Taokah km ak sangat menyayangi km??? Taokah km ak sangat merindukan dirimu??? Tapi semua ito sudah berlalu... Pada tanggal 20 July 2007, ak sudah memutuskan untuk putus dengan dirimu... Ak tao selama ini ak salah menyayangi org... Ak ga sehrzna menyayangi dirimu yg ga mgkn menyayangi diriku... Ak mse seperti org bego yg menunggu dan berharap km bisa menyayangi diriku... Tp akhirna ak sadar klo ak ito salah... Ak ga sehrzna menipu diriku untuk tetep sayang ma dia... Skrg... Walaupun ak uda jadian ama dia yg laen... Tp di hatiku mase ada dirinya... Dirinya yg pernah hadir untuk mewarnai hidupku... Gimana juga dia tetep bagian dr masa lalu ak yg pernah buat diriku bahagia... Makasi bgtz krn uda mo hadir dlm hidupku... Mewarnai hidupku... Menyayangi diriku... Membuat diriku bahagia... Menjadi bagian dr kenangan indahku... Makasi bgtz... Ak tetep kan sayang ma km... Tp dengan status yg berbeda... Krn di dlm hatiku sudah ada yg laen... Seseorg yg akan mengantikan dirimu... Ak kan berusaha untuk menyayangi dia sepenuh hatiku... Pokokna, makasi atas semuana... Semua yg kau berikan pada diriku... Terima kasih... Kau akan selalu dlm hatiku... Menjadi kenangan ku yg terindah...

VacatioN tO baLI

2007-10-26T18:30:00.000-07:00

So its been a long time I did not write my blog... Hehehe... I just back from my vacation few days ago... It was a nice trip to BaLi after all... I met up with my cousin and his wife... They were a sweet couple... And guess wad, I make frens with Germany... hehehe... So cute... They are so frenly... Guess, they like Indonesia cause of the gals... Hehehe... And there were more fun thingy... But most of all, what i like most is when I get out from the tour, the next day I went to NUSA 2 wif Ko Han2, ce Sa2 and Ko Nico... We play banana boat and jet ski... Now that I know playing jet ski was so fun after all... Hehehe... And playing wif Ko Han2 is much more cheaper than I follow the tour... Hehehe... After back from the vacation, I got sicked... But its worth it... Ok...Its enough for today....

HappY day

2007-08-29T02:26:00.001-07:00

Laz nite I scolded my mom and today I said sorry to her... And guess wad, I even told her about my boyfriend and she i agree with my decision... She said she also like him... Hemz... I guess it's should be like this... I'm sorry mom that I scolded you last nite... But then everything turns up to a good and nice endings... Thanks GOD cos I knew HE is always here for me whenever I need HIM... Now I really believe in miracles... Miracles do happened when we really believe that there are miracles... Like this miracles that GOD gave me... I neva know that my mom will accepted my boyfriend... But then... You see... She accepted him as my boyfriend... She even like her... And always stand for him... I really do love both of them... Muah... I love GOD... I love my mom and I love my boyboy too... Thanks GOD cos YOU makes everything so wonderful for me... I lvoe YOU GOD>..<

Ayank pUlang...( 15 Aug 2007 )

2007-08-15T04:12:00.000-07:00

Hey... Ho... Hemz... Td pagi ayank pulang Makasar... Sedih deh... Semlm ak nangis lho... 1 krn ayank mo pulang Makasar... Truz dia pge karaoke ama Sir... N hp na ga bisa dihub... Ak sebel bgtz... Akit hati bgtz... Truz ak kesel gto... Ga mao ak bls zmz dia... Truz ak semlman ga bo2 lge... Huh... Mao bo2 tp ga bs... Sebel deh... Uda gto ak jam 4an ada zmz dia... Pas dia uda mao pge, dia peyuk ak... Erat bgtz... Truz tium ak... Dia sedih bgtz muka na... Pas taksi dtg, ak anter ampe depan... Dia kykna ga mao pge gto... Truz dia lepasin tas, balik muka n tium ak lge br pge masukin tas... Pas mao masuk taksi, dia mase ga rela gto... Akhirna ak tutup pintu br dia mao pge... Truz kt zmzan bntr... Ak kesel bgtz ma dia... Jd nada ak mse kesel... Pas dia uda ampe, dia zmz ak... Trz dia blg slama perjalanan dr rumah ak ampe ke Makasar, dia nangis... Krn dia sedih liat ak sedih... Dia nuduh ak ga nangis... Ak langsung aja kse tao dia ak semlman ga bo2 krn nangis... Truz dia hr ini sibuk bgtz... Ampe jarang bls zmz ak... Huhuhu... Sedih bgtz... Pdhal kan ak kangen bgtz... Sebel deh... Huhuhu... Ampe ga napsu mao bikin apa2... Hemz... Dia... Jujur, ak takut dia berpaling hati... Tp ak akan tetap percaya ama dia... Ak berharap hub ak ama dia awet2 aja... Krn ak sayang ama dia... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Dia 1 1 na cwo yg ak pernah ada yg sifatna baek, sabar, pengertian, penyayang, perhatian, n paling penting... Dia setia... Walaupun sering tengkar, tp ak tetep sayang ama dia... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Iy... Ak yakin bgtz ak sayang ma dia... Hehe... Doain biar kt awet2 aja yak...

MemOr@bl3 dAy...

2007-08-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

Hemzzz... Sejak 20 Juli 2007 kmrn, ak mulai jadian ama 1 cwo yg baek, pengertian, perhatian, sabar, penuh dengan kasih sayang, imoet, lucu, dan gemesin... Dia dateng dr Makasar... Seseorg yg ak mulai sayang ma dia... Dia umur 23... Brp hari setelah kt jadian, dia kase ak kado... Kado jadian... 1 boneka babi... Lucu bgtz boneka na... Ak seneng bgtz... N ak jd malu... hehehe... Koq bisa ada seorg cwo yg segto romantis na... Hehehe... Semenjak 20 Juli 2007, ampe skrg, kt uda jadian sekitar 4 minggu ampe 5 minggu... Dalam jangka waktu ini, kita pernah tengkar... Tp, dia tiap x paste ngalah... N jujur, ak kadang jg akit hati... hehe... Tp, ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Dalam waktu2 ini, ak jd tao klo dia bnr2 sayang ma ak... N org na setia... Inget wkt ito tmn ak isengin dia minta knalan segala... Dia langsung blg dia uda punya cwe... N ga mo knalan ma cwe laen... N dia blg dia uda punya calon istri... Hehe... N dia jg kse tao ke ak soal ito... Setia kan dia??? hehehe... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Beneran... Dia baek bgtz... Cumen... Dia uda mo plg Makasar... Ak jd sedih... Oiya, lupa kse tao, papa na terima ak lho... Papa na lebih seneng ama ak drpd mantan dia... Keluarga na jg dukung hubungan kita... Ak seneng bgtz... Oiya, ak uda putus ama Will... Tp kt ampe skrg mse jd sohib lho... TTM gto deh... hehehe... N cwo ak jg uda tao soal ini... Pertama dia cemburu tp ak jelasin... Kt jg sempet gara2 ini jd tengkar... Hehehe... Will ampe skrg mse sayang ma ak... Jujur, ak jg sayang ma dia, tp smua ito uda berlalu... Kt cumen bs menjadikan smua yg telah berlaku sebagai 1 kenangan terindah yg pernah ada... Erm... Ak pernah crita kan ak tengkar ama seseorg... Krg kt uda baekan... N guess what, dia jadian ama temen ak... Ak br tao sich, tp gpp la... Ak ga knapa2... Cumen kesel aja... Ga tao mereka anggap ak apa... Temen ato apa... Krn mereka ga pernah crita ke ak... Ak sebel ama temen kyk gto... Ak ga suka temen kyk gto... Ak kesel bgtz... Tp tiap ak kesel, ayank muncul n bikin ak seneng... Pokokna kehadiran ayank membuat ak ngerasa nyaman n ngerasa bahagia... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Beneran... hehe... Yank... I miss u... I love u... Muah... Mudah2an kt bs selama na bersama... Oiya, lupa... Ak tanya ke ayank klo hub kt bakal brp lama... Dia blg 5 taon pacaran n kawin ampe 80 taon... Hehe... Romantis bgtz kan... Jd sayang bgtz ma dia ak... Muah...

hapUs sMua kEnaNgaN....

2007-07-12T18:57:00.000-07:00

BInun.....

2007-06-21T21:39:00.000-07:00

Kmrn dia zmz blg klo dia uda dlm bis ke UTAH... N ampe hr ini... Saat ak zmz dia... Dia br kse tao ak klo dia uda ampe... Pdhal ak disini uda khwtr bgtz ma dia... Tp knp dia ga mkr klo ak khwtr??!! Knp??!!! Apa bnr di hati dia... Di mata dia... Sama se x ga ada diriku??? Apa bnr ak emank sebgto ga pantes buat dicintaina?? Ak jg ga tao... Alasan dia ga kse kabar adalah dia uda cape bgtz n ketdran... Tp aneh na... Dia bs kse kabar ke org laen klo dia uda ampe UTAH... Apa bnr org laen lbh penting dibandingkan ak???!!! Ak jg ga tao... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Ak binun bgtz... Org2 blg... Biarla... Jlnin aja dolo hubungan ini... Ak emank mo trz jlnin hub ini... Tp mslhna muncul... Hatiku terasa skt bgtz tiap ak mkr bahwa kt ito lom ada status yg paste... Hatiku akit bgtz tiap ak tao aklah org terakhir yg tao smua hal dia... Knp dia haruz muncul dlm hidup ak??? Ato mgkn ak yg ga seharuzna muncul dlm hidup dia...??!! AK jg ga tao... Yg ak tao... Ak krg mse sayang bgtzz ma dia... Mgkn... Ak haruz tgg wktna sampe br ak bs pelan2 lepasin dia x yak... Ak jg ga tao... Prnh ak bahas tentang hubungan dia dgn ak... Dia blg smua keputusan ada di tangan ak... Keputusan apa yg haruz ak ambil??? Ak jg ga tao... Mao dia sbnrna apa??... Ak jg ga tao... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn ambil keputusan... Sejak dia pge... Smuana disini uda berubah... Ak jg ga tao napa Aliang jg ikut berubah... Krg dia menghindari ak... Ak jg ga tao napa bs kyk gto... Ak ngerasa smuana uda berubah... Apa yg haruz ak lakukan...??? Ak binun... Arghhhhhhhh... Lama2 ak bs gila... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Haruz paen... Uwaaaaa... Bnrn deh... Cape cape cape... Knp sich dia ga mo kse ak 1 kesempatan untuk masuk ke dalam hati dia??? Knp sich??? Tao ga sich ak sayang bgtz ma dia....????!!!! Ak ga tao apa ak bs trima hr2 tanpa kehadiran dia...!!! Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn... Ak takut... Ak bnrn takut keilangan dia lge... Krn ak takut perasaan sakit hati n keilangan ito muncul n menghantui ak lge... Ak takut bgtzz... Ak ga mao keilangan org yg ak sayangi untuk kedua x na... Ak ga mao... Ak ga bs trima smua ito... Ak takut... Tolong... Ak ga tao ak haruz gmn lge... Tolong ak...

LifE...

2007-06-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

Life... Full of happiness n sadness... Full of suprises... Full of shock... Full of things tat is unexpectedly... Its all depends on how we go for our life... Its all depends on how we look at our life... How we treat our life... How we actually want it to be... How do u want miracles to be happen in your life... How u want everything to be like what u want... How u want every moment to be the most precious moment in your life... Look at your life carefully... And u will found out actually your life is full of joy... Even sometimes tears falls out... But actually... Your life is even much more better than others... Treat your life ad it is your last day... And u can actually find out that life actually is really meaningful... No one can ever change your life... Life goes like what u wan it to go... It change only when u ask it to change... Your life is in your hand... U are the one who control your life... Me... Or him... We are just part of your life... Life is like a stage... U choose the role and u play your part... And we... We are just people that makes your scene become more interesting... Your life maybe isn't as wonderful as others... Not as beautiful as others... Not as romantic as others... Not as happy as others... But then... It is the life u choose... U are the one who choose to walk in it... So u cant even regret for what u have choose... What u can do... Is keep continue with what life u have chosen... So... Dont u ever choose a road that will make u regret... Cos after u choose the road, there will be no way for u to return back... Life is like this... U choose the role... Then u have to play it till it is over... No returning... No changing... No regret... Accept the life that u have chosen... And try to finish it...

SUprIseS...fRoM yAnk...

2007-06-12T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hem... Mulai dr mn yak... Brp hr ini si Jisang zmzan ma ak... Dia suka muncul tiap ak lge sedih n butuh tmn... Haha... Makasi bgtz Sang... Kmrn si Denny jablay dtg... Dia mo peyuk ak gto... Buset deh... Akhirna ak hindar... Hahaha... Tao ga, kmrn mlm ayank epon... Duh duh duh... Suprise bgtz gto lho... Ak jd seneng bgtz... Dia tanya ak... : " Mo bo2 brg ga??? " Ak blg : " Blh aja... tp gmn bo2 na??? " Dia blg : " Ya, km dtg, masuk ke kmr trz kt bo2 brg deh... " Dengan ngmng ini ak uda tao ito dia... Tp ak tetep tanya sapa dia... Akhirna dia tanya ak : " Mank sapa lge yg brani ngajak km bo2 brg??? " Mrh gto... Hahaha... Ak blg cumen ayank ak... Hahaha... Akhirna ketaoan deh... Hahaha... Ak mah ga bs ngmng apa2... Hahaha... Trz kt ngobrol bntr... Ak kangen bgtz ma dia... Akhirna pas uda mo abiz wkt epon na, dia bnyk pesen... Buset deh... Hahaha... Bnrn deh tu anak... Saking khwtr ma ak... Pesenan na setumpuk... Hahaha... Trz pas dia mse lge pesen, ooopzzzz... Mati... Hahaha... Akhirna ak zmz... Biz ito dia suruh ak bo2... Dia blg dia emank mo kse ak suprise... Hehehe... Seneng bgtz deh... 1st time dia kse suprise... Hehe... Trz ak blg mank ak ga blh kangen... Trz dia blg : " Blh koq... Apa sich yg ga buat km..." Hehehe... Hahaha... Ga tao deh napa dia sweet bgtz... Hehehe... Ydah dolo yak... AK mo krj....

bOut aYank n SomEthinG maKE mE dAmn baD moOD...

2007-06-03T20:27:00.000-07:00

Semlm papa n cc ayank dtg ke rmh... Ngasi barang titipan ayank... Trz ngobrol bentar ama kt... Papa na liatin ak molo... Ak jd malu gto... Hahaha... Trz cc na blg klo dizmz, dia ga blz... Tp aneh na, zmz ak diblz... Hahaha... Trz kmrn ayank ada ngobrol ama papa n cc na... Papa na ga mo ngmng lama2... Soalna atut nangis... Hahaha... Trz uda gto cc na ngobrol ma dia... Cc na blg knapa zmz na ga blz... Jwban na nomer na aneh... Hahaha... Trz cc na blg klo nomer wiwi ga aneh... Gto?? Trz dia ketawa2... Hahaha... Trz pas ak tny uda beli aqua ato blom, dia blg blom... Akhirna ak marahin... Haha... Cc na malah blg bgz... Trzin... Marahin aja... Hahaha... Trz pas uda mo tutup epon, yah... Seperti biasa... Paste say love u n miss u deh... Eh pas uda tutup epon, papa na godain ak... Dia blg : " Klo org dolo ga ada love u love u... Dolo mah I laop u... " Hahahaha... Kmrn papa na sbnrna mo dtg pas siang... Eh, kt malah ga di rmh... Akhirna papa na ga jd dtg... Mlm br dtg... Uda gto ak naek ke kmr... Ga ngantuk... Makana ak ga bo2 dolo... Ayank zmz ak... Yah... Akhirna kt zmzan deh... Bnyk bgtz... Dia tny soal email dia... Tny cara check mail... Maen friendster... Hahaha... Ayank skrg uda ga gaptek lge boo... Hahaha... Trz kmrn ak kan crita ke cc na ayank beli lap top... Mo blajar chatting... Eh, cc na n Ivana malah liatin ak... Gr2 ak gto ayank beli lap top... Hahaha... Trz ak pasang muka ga berslh... Hahaha... Jujur ayank sich berubah bnyk... Ga tao yak... Skrg uda mo pke internet... Tp... Ada tp na lho... Dia tetep aja cemburu klo ak chat ama org laen... Hahaha... Trz semlm zmzan ama ayank... Si Denny jablay malah epon... Bikin ak telat blz zmz ayank... Biz Si Jablay epon, dia zmz ak... Masa tu anak saking mabok na ampe blg dia sayang ma ak... Dia kangen ma ak... Dia pengin peyuk n tium ak... Ikh... Jijay bgtzzzz... Uwaaa... Oeeekkk... Mo muntah ak... Hahaha... Biz ito ak nonton... Nonton " The Art oF deAth... " Ga serem sich... Cumen jijay... Bnrn deh... Tp ga nonton abiz... Hahaha... Soalna ak ngantuk bgtz... Akhirna ak tutup... Ayank janji mo bgnin ak... Eh, bknna bgnin pke epon... Malah zmz doank... Akhirna ak telat bgn deh... N mama mrh2 deh... Trz ayank lge bikin bete... Dia kena pecat ama bos na... Trz dia krg plg ke LA... Tp dia mrh2 ke ak... Akhirna ak cumen bs diem... Trz berusaha buat dia ga bete... Berusaha buat dia seneng... Tenang... Biar ga emosi... Ak cape bgtz hrz kyk gini molo... Ak ga bs tahan... Lama2 bisa gila ak... Ak uda ga tao haruz gmn jagain anak org... apalge anak na lebih gede dr ak... Kyk ayank... Ga plg brp hari, papa na langsung cr ak... Trz Aliang... Aliang ga plg brp hr... Mama na jg cr ak... Skrg ayank uda di Amrik, papa na ga dpt kabar jg tetep cr ke ak... Trz si Ivana... Mama na ga trima zmz dr dia, ato hp na ga buka, mama na jg cr ak... Duh... Ak bisa gila dicriin ortu na org nich... Bnrn deh... Buset bgtz... Hem... But what can I do??? Uda ketetapan dr ATAS... Cumen bs trima... Ydah deh yak... Ga tao mo tulis apa lge... Pusing n binun... Bubye... Take care... Love u yank...

mIsS u sO muCh....

2007-05-30T18:57:00.000-07:00

Semlm ak epon ayank... Soalna uda janji ama ayank ak mo epon dia... Pas jam 11an, ak epon ayank... Ayank angkat epon... Suara na lemes bgtz... Dia blg dia ga jd ke Utah... Hr ini br ke Utah... Trz dia ngaku dia semlm minum wine... Trz ak tanya dia, ada epon papa ga... Dia blg ada... N papa nangis pas dia epon... Akhirna dia langsung tutup epon krn ga tega dgr papa nangis... Trz semlm dia jg nangis pas ngobrol ma ak... Akhirna ak jg ikut nangis... Ak cumen bs suruh dia jgn nangis lge... Papa nangis krn dia sayang ma km... Ak cumen bs nangis bareng... Trz tiba2 ak blg : " Yank... I miss u so much... " Trz dia jg blg : " Yeah babe... I miss u too... " Trz tiba2 ak nangis... Dia blg : " Babe, km jgn nangis... Klo dgr km nangis, ak bisa sedih... " ... Ak cumen diem... Trz ak blg : " Ak ga nangis koq... Km tu yg jgn nangis lage... " Trz dia blg : " Ak ga nangis koq... Cumen kluar air mata... " Hahaha... Ga nyangka dia semlm nangis gto... " Ak jadi ikut sedih dgr dia nangis... Huhuhu... Trz kt ngobrol bentar... Dia ga mo ak nangis... Hahaha... Hem... Sejujurna... Ak kangen bgtz ma dia... Sayang bgtz ma dia... Trz semlm ayank blg : " U dont be sad anymore... If u are sad, I am sad too... " Hahaha... Ak jd ga tao mo ngmng apa... Hahaha... Trz ak blg : " Ydah... Ak mo bo2 dolo... Soalna bsok mo bgn pagi... " Sebnrna ak mse mo ngmng bnyk tp ak akhirna tutup epon krn ak ga mo dia sedih dgr ak nangis... Akhirna dia blg : " Ydah... Km bo2 aja... Jgn sedih lge... " N seperti biasana... Sblum bo2, ak blg gud nite la... Swit drimz la... Love u n mizz u la... trz dia jg bls ak gto... Biz ito ak tutup epon... Ak ke sblh maen kartu... Trz ak zmz ayank... Ak blg : " Yank, dont be sad anymore... I will always love u n miss u... Yank, u must take care... " Trz ayank blz ak : " I am not sad n cry anymore... I so love u n miss u n all of u... So u must take care ok... " Trz ak blg : " Ok... I wont cry... Thanks for loving me... Love u n mizz u... Muaahhh... " N dia blz : " Ok... Km krg bo2... Soalna km bsok mo bgn pagi... Gud nite... Switz drimz... Love n mizz u... Muaahh... Bubye... " Gto deh... Hahaha... Trz ga lama kemudian ak bo2 deh... Trz td pagi ak sempet epon ke papa na... Ak critain ke papa na... Trz papa na nangis gto... Ak jd ikut2an mo nangis deh... Trz ngobrol bntr ama papa na... Biz ito si Denny dtg... trz ngobrol ama Denny... Trz ayank epon lge... Hahaha... Ayank sering epon hr ini... Bnykan ayank epon... Trz ngobrol 1 jam lebih gto... Hahaha... Ak kangen bgtz ma ayank... Yank... I love u... I miss u... Semoga km bnrn setia ma ak... Krn ak percaya ma km... Muakzzzz....

TenTanG hAri iNi daN seMlM...

2007-05-30T03:52:00.000-07:00

Semlm ak coba2 untuk epon ayank... Eh ternyata bs... tp pulsa jg abiz... Hahaha... Ak eponan ama ayank... Ada deh 20 menitan... Hehe... Abiz ak kangen ama dia... Ak jg sempet epon Ah Yong... Tmn yg di KCH... 1 tmn yg bs ngerti ak... Kt eponan ada deh 1 jam an... Hehehe... Trz biz ito ak eponan ama ayank... Hehehe... Ayank br bgn tdr... Hehehe... Ga tao napa ak kangen bgtz ama ayank... Biz eponan, ak blg ak mo bo2... Ayank ga caya... Dia blg km mn mgkn bo2 jam segini... Hahaha... Akhirna ak blg... : " Km terlalu mengerti diriku... " Hahaha... Trz pas mlm na, seblum bo2, ak zmz ayank... Eh dia bls ak n kse tao ak dia ditolak apply id... Tatian ayank ak kan... Hem... Tp mo gmn lge... Trz dia pge mam... Ak bo2 deh... Uda 2 hr ak ga zmzan ama Aliang... Hahaha... Ak sich cuek aja... Terserah dia mo zmz ak ato ga... Ak ga mo tao... Trz tadi pagi ak coba lge epon ayank pke epon rmh... Eh, ternyata bisa jg lho... Tp pas bgtz yg angkat bkn ayank malah ko Hendry... Hahaha... Pas epon ak diangkat, ak blg : " Yank.. " Trz kk malah blg : " DD... " Ak ampe kaget... Hahaha... Trz ngobrol ama kk deh... Trz pas mo tutup epon, ayank bgn... Mo ngmng ma ak... Akhirna ngmng ma ayank deh... Hehehe... Trz ayank mrh... Dia blg mending ak aja yg epon km... Hahaha... Trz tgg deh ayank epon... Tiba2 ayank epon pas ak mo zmz dia... Hehe... Trz ayank ngobrol ama ak bntr tao2 ak dipgl mama... Haha... Trz ayank lanjutin ngobrol ama Ivana... Pas ak uda turun br ngobrol ama ak lge... Ngobrol lumayan lama deh... Trz dia uda ampe di station... Dia mo ke Utah... Gto deh... Soalna dia ke Utah kerja... Di Utah dpt kerjaan... Hehehe... Trz ak seharian ini jd mikirin ayank molo deh... Hahaha... Tp mslhna hari ini bnyk kerjaan jdna ga kepikiran molo... Haha... Trz td sore tiba2 epon ak bunyi... Eh ternyata ayank epon... Hehehe... Ayank blg dia ga bs bo2... Trz dia kangen ma ak... Makana dia epon ak... Hehehe... Trz kesel na pas kt br ngobrol 2 menit, mati epon na... Soalna kartu epon na uda abiz... Hahaha... Yah... Mo gmn lge... Hahaha... Akhirna ak zmz dia... Gto deh... Oh iya... Kmrn ak epon mama na... Trz mama na seneng gto dgr suara ak... Hahaha... Trz td siang ak epon papa na... Hahaha... Papa na tanya paen ak ke Beijing... Ak blg mo sekolah ambil ijazah... Papa na takut ak sendirian disono... Dia blg dia ada temen di sono... Klo mo, knalan... Hahaha... Ydah deh... Ampe sini dolo... Soalna mo kerja neeh... Bubye... Ayank, ampe Utah haruz take care... I will always miss u... Muakz yank...

HeM...3-4 hr StlaH aYanK pGe...:((

2007-05-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

Hem... Ayank uda pge 3-4 hr... Ak kangen bgtz ama ayank... Tp mo gmn lge?? Hem... Cmn bs kangenin ayank n liat poto ayank doank... Apalge yg bs ak lakukan?? Ga ada... Klo ga tahan paling nante nangis... Huhuhu... Tp ayank mse ga lupain ak... Dia mse zmz ak... Hehehe... Trz dia crita... Dia mse lom bs beradaptasi... Trz kmrn hamburin uang 600 dolar... Beli kaca mata, tali pinggang, anduk, sepatu n laen2... Trz hr ini hamburin 40 dolar beli celana panjang... Dasar ayank kan??!! Klo suruh dia hamburin uang, dia paling bs atuh... Hahaha... Kmrn ak ama mama n anak2 yg laen ke Kedoya, rumah Ie Li Kien(ko Ie Cien)... Knalan ama dd Ko Ie Cien... Namana Ko Nico... Orgna lucu n friendly... Trz kmrn kt pge berenang... Ditraktir Ko Ie Cien... Ak ga tao... pdhal pkr na ga byr... Ko Ie Cien jg ga ngmng apa2... Akhirna kt berenang... Trz si Aliang ada zmz ak... Hem... Ga tao deh skrg hub kt apa... Trz kmrn biz berenang kt pge MM karaoke... Hehe... Ak minum... Erm... 3 botol deh klo itung2... Hehehe... Ak kse tao Aliang, dia mrh2... Dia tny ak paen minum... Trz minum brp bnyk... Hahaha... Hem... Trz kmrn ak jam 3an jam 4 br bo2... Soalna ga bs bo2... Ga ngantuk... Hahaha... Td ak epon Aliang... Ak lupa ak ngmng apa... Trz dia diem gto... Trz ga ngmng apa2... Apa ak salah ngmng?? Ak jg ga tao... Akhirna ak tutup tlp... Soalna ada mama... Dia jg ga zmz ak... Ga tlp balik... Ak ga tao deh mo gmn lge... Terserah dia aja... Suka hati dia... Hahaha... Lge bosen neeh skrg... N lge kangen ama ayank... Semlm ngmng2 soal last kiss... Hahaha... Ternyata papa na ayank tao ak ama ayank tiuman... N cc ayank tao kt peyukan... Duh... Jd malu... Hehehe... Pokokna apa yg terjadi pada hr ayank pge... Ga akan ak lupakan selamana... N smua yg ayank pesen n kse tao ke ak... Ga akan ak lupakan... Yank, ak sayang ma km... Ito yg ak tao dgn jelas tanpa dipikirkan lge... Makasi yank atas smuana... Muakzzz... Lubh u Yank...

SaDDy sAd Sad...FoR my HubBy...

2007-05-25T20:19:00.000-07:00

Hem... Kmrn ayank pge... Dan kmrn ak nangis seharian... Ak ga tahan... Walaupun uda janji ama ayank untuk ga nangis... Tp ak ingkar janji krn bnrn ga tahan untuk ga nangis... Ampe smua yg liat ak kasian... Hehe... Ampe Denny n Hiantoro blg : " udah la... Jgn nangis... Kan mase ada ak... " Hahaha... Trz kmrn ngobrol ama Sir... Dia tepuk2 tgn ak n say : " Udah lah... Jgn dipikirin lge... " Gto... Trz pas kmrn back to my office, ak nangis... Wadooh... Deras bgtz nangisna... Ampe Ivana jg ikut nangis... Bnrn... Ak rasana keilangan bgtz... Ampe Sir tiba2 masuk... Dia liat ak nangis trz dia jln ke tmpt ak n usap2 pala ak n suruh ak jgn nangis lge... Trz dia kluar... Tp ak tetep nangis... Ampe ketdrn di kantor... Haha... Trz pas mlmna, Ivana kluar... Karaoke ama anak2 laen... Ak cmn di kantor bntr trz naek ke kmr... Mandi trz tdran n zmzan... Aliang zmzan ama ak... Ji sang zmzan ama ak... Buzz zmzan ama ak... Ak ampe nangis... Ak kangen bgtz ama ayank... Trz ak zmzan ama cc na ayank... Trz ayank jg zmz ak... Dia blg dia uda di Taipei... Cc na lupa bawain handuk dia... Hahaha... Trz ak blg gpp... Beli di Amrik aja... Hehe... Ayank blg dia mikirin ak... N dia blg dia sedih bgtz... N kesepian bgtz... Mama ayank nangis lho... Ak jd sedih... Ayank... Ak kangen ama km... Ak kangen ama kehadiran km dlm hidup ak... Ak kangen ama kehadiran km dlm hidup sehari2 ak... Ak kangen ama smua yg pernah kt lalui... Ak kangen ama pelukan mu... Ak kangen ama suaramu... Yank... Ak ga tao ak hrz gmn... Ak mao minta maaf krn ak ingkar janji... Tp air mata ini ga mao berhenti... Ia bergenang dlm mata ak trz... Ak bnrn minta maaf... Yank... Ak kangen bgtz ama dirimu... Bnrn deh... Tao ga... Semlm ak nangis ampe ketdrn... Trz ak mimpiin ayank... N ito buat ak ga pengin bgn... Yank... Wkt berlalu dgn cpt bgtz... Ak ga nyangka... Seperti dlm mimpi... Tiba2 bgn n km uda ga ada... Ak kangen... Bnrn kangen ma km... Km muncul setiap detik dlm pikiran ku... I really gonna miss u so much... Thanks for ur hug... Thanks for ur care... Thanks for everything... Yank... Ak akan selalu mengingat dirimu... Ak akan selalu sayang ama km... Ak akan berusaha untuk ga menangis lage... Ak akan mengingat smua pesen km... Ak akan mengingat smua kenangan yg km berikan pada diriku... Yank, inget ama janji yg km berikan pada diriku... ok??? Yank... I love u... Muakzzz... Bubye...

LovE...lOve...lOvE...

2007-05-25T19:59:00.000-07:00

Jika kita mencintai seseorang, kita akan senantiasa mendoakannya walaupun dia tidak berada disisi kita.
Tuhan memberi kita dua kaki untuk berjalan,
dua tangan untuk memegang,
dua telinga untuk mendengar dan
duamata untuk melihat.
Tetapi mengapa tuhan menganugerahkan sekeping hati pada kita? Karena tuhan telah memberikan sekeping hati pada seseorang untuk kita mencari,
Itulah namanyaCInta!!!

Jangan sesekali mengucapkan selamat tinggal
jika kamu masih mau mencoba.
Jangan sesekali menyerah
jika kamumasih mau mencoba.
Jangan sesekali menyerah
jika kamu masih merasa sanggup.
Jangan sesekali mengatakan kamu tidak mencintainya
jika kamu masih tidak dapat melupakannya.

Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan
walaupun mereka telah dikecewakan.
Kepada mereka yang masih percaya ,
walaupun mereka telah dikhianati.
Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai
walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan
kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan
keyakinan untuk membangun kembali kepercayaan.

Jangan simpan kata-kata CINTA
pada orang yang tersayang sehingga dia meninggal dunia,
lantaran akhirnya kamu terpaksa catatkan kata-kata cinta itu pada pusara nya.

Sebaliknya ucapkan kata-kata cinta
yang tersimpan dibenakmu itu sekarang
selagi ada hayatnya.
Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita bertemu
dengan orang yang tidak tepat sebelum bertemu dengan orang yang tepat.
Kita akan tahu betapa berharganya anugerah tersebut.

Cinta dapat mengubah
pahit menjadi manis,
debu menjadi emas,
keruh menjadi bening,
sakit menjadi sembuh dan
kemarahan menjadi rahmat.
Sungguh menyakitkan mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintaimu,
Tetapi lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang dan kamu tidak pernahmemiliki keberanian untuk menyatakan cintamu kepadanya.

Hal yang paling menyedihkan dalam hidup adalah
ketika kita bertemu dengan seseorang dan
orang itu sangat berarti bagimu.
Hanya untuk menemukan bahwa
pada akhirnya menjadi tidak berarti dan
kamu harus membiarkanya pergi.
Cinta adalah keabadian dan
Kenangan adalah hal terindah yang pernah dialami.
Bercinta memang mudah.
Untuk dicintai juga memang mudah.
Tapi untuk dicintai oleh orang yang kita cintai
itulah yang sukar diperoleh.

SEANDAINYA HADIRNYA CINTA UNTUK MENGECEWAKAN LEBIH BAIK CINTA ITU TAKKAN PERNAH HADIR.

Last daY..HikzZ...ReaLLy laSt dAy..LaST hUg..LasT kIsS..I loVe u YanK...

2007-05-24T23:12:00.000-07:00

Hari ini ayank pge ke Amrik... Td pagi ayank mse ga mao pulang rmh... Ampe papa na epon ak... Huhuhu... Mrh2 gto... Hahaha... Ak cumen bs bujuk papa na biar ga marah... Hehe... Trz ak pge mandi... Biz mandi ak turun cr ayank... Cb epon ke temen dia... Trz tiba2 si Aliang zmz... Blg dia uda di rmh... Akhirna ak epon Aliang... Kt ngobrol... Trz crita2... Tiba2 Aliang tanya, : " lo nante mao kse dia apa...?? " Trz ak blg ga tao... Dia langsung blg : " Jgn kse kiss yak...Krn ito akan membuat diriku sakit hati..." Aneh kan?? Trz ak lupa ak tanya dia apa... Dia jawab ak : " Nich lge ngobrol ama cwe ak... " Gto... Wadooh... Nich anak napa yak... Trz ak tanya dia : " Sejak kpn lo mulai skt hati?? " Dia blg : " Ga tao... Sejak brp hari yg lalu liat km pelukan... "... Huhuhu... Ga tao deh mao ngmng apa lge... Trz mama mrh2... Gara2 hari ini yang maju 2 org tp mrk ga goal... N jawabna ga bgz... Trz ayank dtg na telat... Makana mama mrh2... Akhirna mama yg anter dia org... Tp ayank ga ikut... Ayank pke mobil sendiri n tgg Sir dtg... Akhirna pas ak ke sblh minum air, ayank masuk... Dia suruh ak duduk di paha na.. N dia peluk ak dr belakang... So sweet right?? Hehe... Tp ada si Aliang... Ayank peluk ak erat bgtz... Bnrn erat bgtz... Kykna dia mao nangis tp ga mao ak liat... Hehe... Trz tiba2 cc na mao masuk... Akhirna ak lepas pelukan dia... Hehehe... Trz papa na masuk jg... Papa na suka ma ak... Lucu deh... Pas pertama x salaman, papa na ga mao lepas tgn ak gto... Hehehe... Papa na baek lho... Suka canda... Hehehe... Trz biz ito dia org uda mao jln... Biz smua org tglin ruangan, ayank tiba2 berdiri n peluk ak... Erat bgtz... Ak peluk balik... Dia tiba2 tium ak... Jah... Akhirna tiuman deh... Hehe... Lumayan lama lho... Ampe rasana ga mao berhenti... Hehehe... Jd malu :"> ... Trz tiba2 papa na buka pintu dikit blg smuana uda tgg... Trz kt berhenti n pelukan... Hehehe... Kt senyum2... Hehe... Jd malu... Trz pas pelukan, tiba2 Sir masuk... Hehe... Tp ayank tetep peluk ak... Biz ito ak blg udahan... Ak suruh cptan... Nante ga keburu... Trz kt kluar dr ruangan ama Sir... Ayank pikir papa na mse di sblh... Ak blg uda di mobil... Trz sblum dia pge, dia gandeng tangan ak n peluk ak lge n tium ak... Ito di dpn kantor... Di dpn papa na n keluargana... O M G... Malu bgtz... Hehehe... Trz pas uda jln, ak epon dia... Ak ga tao napa... Ak kangen bgtz ma dia... Kt ngobrol... Dia tiba2 blg : " I'm gonna miss u so much..." Gto... Hehehe... Trz dia pesen bnyk... Suruh ak jgn telat mkn... Hrz mkn yg bnyk... Trz ak tanya dia... Mao ak dtg ato nyusul??... Dia blg : " Nyusul aja.." Ak tanya : " Nyusul ke mana?? Ke bandara ato ke Amrik?? " Dia blg : " Ke Amrik aja... " Trz ak blg : " Ok deh... Klo gto ak nyusul yak... Tgg ak yak... "... N kt diem2an... Trz tiba2 dia blg... : " Babe, I'm gonna miss u so much.. " Ak jg blg gto ke dia... N dia blg dia mao setia ama ak... Ak ga tao ito bnr ato ga... Yah, just let see... Ak ga tao mao ngmng apa lge... Ak sedih bgtz... Hem... Pas td papa na pulang, papa na mampir ke tmpt ak... Trz papa na blg jgn lupa epon ke rmh yak... Hahaha... Ydah deh yak... Sampe sini dolo... Ak lge bt n sedih... Yank, sampe sana take care yak... I will always miss u... U will always in my mind... I love u...

DayS iN sIngaPorE n AyAnk'S Laz DaY....

2007-05-23T18:47:00.000-07:00

Berapa hari ini ak ke Singapore ama student di sini... Smuana 12 org yg pge... Ada Si Sang jg lho... Pas hari Jumat, ayank anter Sang n Denny ke rmh ak... Trz pas uda mao jln ke bandara, ayank peluk n tium ak... Trz suruh ak hati2... Dulz, pas dia tium n peluk ito di depan anak2... Jd malu deh ak... Trz kt smua ke bandara deh... Sang care bgtz ma ak... Ambilin barang ak la... Pegangin barang ak la... Pokokna baek bgtz deh... Trz biz kt check in, kt pge mkn dolo... Soalna laper bgtz... Hahaha... Biz ito kt naek pesawat ke Batam... Sampe Batam kt lgsg ke Pelabuhan Ferry untuk naek ferry ke Singapore... Wah, si Sang ambilin barang2 ak... Baek bgtz deh... Tao ga sich, pas sampe di Singapore, Sang paling lama kluar soalna dia di interview... pas kluar, mukana pucat bgtz... Hahaha... Dia hampir nangis gto... Wakakaka... Lucu deh dia... Trz kt lgsg ke tmpt penginapan... Wah, kt smua mandi rebutan kamar mandi... Hahaha... Trz biz smuana uda mandi, kt ke OG mkn n belanja... Ak beli 2 baju buat ak sendiri n 1 baju buat ayank... Baek kan... Walaupun jauh, tetep inget ma dia... Mana ada yg inget ma dia lge kecuali ak??!! Hehehe... Trz biz belanja kt pge mkn... Anak2 yg laen ikut mama mkn yg mama pilih... Haha... Untungna ak, zie n Bush ga ikutan... Hahaha... Soalna mknan na ga enak... Hahaha... Trz biz mkn kt pge jln2... Eh, pas ampe pasar mlm, tao tao na kt pencar... Ak, zie, Bush n Sang jln sendiri... Yg laen ikut mama... Akhirna kt org jln sambil foto2... Ampe jam 1an baru pulang... Hehehe... Pas jln2, si Sang bnrn care ma ak lho... Dia ambilin barang ak... Trz kt sebotol minum ber2... Wah... Pokokna laen bgtz ama pas disini... Trz pas jam 1an gto ujan... Yah, kt terpaksa pulang deh... Pas pulang, smuana iri ama foto kt... Hahaha... Trz kt bo2 pas jam 2an jam 3 gto... Bsokan pagina kt smua uda siap2 mao keliling Singapore... Kt smua bgn tdr, siap2, mkn trz jln di OG bntr... Biz ito kt ke Hao Pas Villa... Kt foto2 disana... Biz ito kt lgsg ke Sentosa maen... Sentosa tmpt na enak, bnyk maenan, ada pantai... Kt smua jln di Sentosa ampe mlm... Smuana capek bgtz... Haha... Tp seru bgtz... Biz pulang dr Sentosa, pas mlm na kt mse sempetin pge mkn n cb cr tmpt foto yg enak... Hehehe... Tp aneh na ga ada tmpt foto yg bagus lage... Akhirna kt plg pas jam 12an... Trz jam 2an kt smua bo2... Soalna bsokan pagi uda mao ke Johor... Trz bsokan pagina smuana telat bgn... Ak ampe mandi di kamar cwo... Haha... Biar ga rebutan kamar madi gto... Udah gto, kt smua sarapan n naek bis ke Johor... Trz sampe Johor kt jln2 di Mall... Wah, di mall bnyk cogan... Hehehe... Liat ampe puas boo... Hahaha... Trz ak beli dvd... Ak beliin ayank jg... Trz uda gto kt smua jln... Biz jln kt pge mkn... Mkn laksa... Wah... Enak bgtz... Hahaha... Trz biz mkn, kt plg deh... Pas plg kt langsung ke Melion... Biz foto2 kt smua plg deh... Kt ke tmpt penginapan ambil bagasi trz langsung ke Pelabuhan Ferry... Kt naek ferry ke Batam... Pas di ferry ak bo2... Soalna ngantuk bgtz... Hehehe... Pas sampe Batam, ak sempet mrhan ama Sang soalna dia tuduh ak ilangin kertas boarding dia... Akhirna ak cuekin dia... N dia tao dia yg salah, akhirna dia berusaha deketin ak... Hahaha... Ambilin bagasi ak... Trz zmz ak... hahaha... Pokokna dia berusaha buat ak ga marah lge... Trz pas pagina, kt smua ke mall seberang jln2 bntr... Pas ak masuk kmr Sang, dia ga ada malu tao klo ama ak... Pipis ga tutup pintu... Trz pas ke 2 x na masuk kamar dia, dia cumen pke kolor... Tp ga malu diliat ak... Tp klo ama cwe laen, dia malu bgtz... Gila yak... Hahaha... trz dia minta ak temenin dia ke mall... Dia beli barang buat papa na... N beli oleh2 buat temen disini... Biz ito kt pulang ke hotel... Kt pesen mknan... Biz mkn kt lgsg buru2 ke airport... Di pesawat, si Sang baek bgtz... Dia suruh ak bo2... Trz dia kse ak bahuna... Bo2 di bahuna... Wah, gentle bgtz... Hahaha... Pas ampe JKT, ak zmz ayank, tp dia ga bales... Ak pikir mgkn dia ga ada pulsa... Akhirna ak ga bnyk pkr... Trz pas bsokan pagina, cc na br kse tao ak dia uda 2 hr ga plg... Gila kan si ayank... Trz ampe papa na epon ak segala... Wah, bs stress ak... hahaha... Trz ak jg berusaha cr ayank... Pas siang na, cc na epon n blg dia uda plg n lge di sidang ama mama na... Syukur deh klo uda plg... Ternyata tu anak ke Bandung... Hahaha... Trz pas mlm, kt cmn zmz 2 lembar... Hahaha... Bnykan zmzan ama Aliang...
Kmrn ayank dtg ke tmpt ak tp uda sore jam 4 gto... Si Aliang jg dtg... Ak kse oleh2 na ke ayank... Dia blg makasi... Trz pas di luar, dia rangkul ak... Pokokna aneh bgtz... Dia kmrn sweet bgtz ma ak... Trz pas lge ngob ama papa angkat ak, dia ga malu untuk pegang tgn ak... Gandeng tgn ak... Aneh kan?? Biasana mana mao dia gto... Trz pas mama kluar, dia masuk ke dlm n duduk sblh ak... Temenin ak bikin surat kuasa dia... N dia dkt2 ma ak... Dia ampe dktin mukana ke ak molo... Mao ak tium... Hehehe... trz tiba2 mama epon... Dia jg ada epon masuk... Akhirna dia kluar deh... trz ak abisin surat dia... Eh, pas kse ke dia, ada yg kurang... Hahaha... Dia minta ak tambahin lge... Trz dia rangkul ak masuk ke kntr... Pas di kntr mama, tiba2 dia berhenti... Ak jg berhenti... Trz dia taro pala na di bahu ak... Ak puter muka cumen mao tium pipi na... Tp tiba2 dia puter muka jg... Akhirna kt tiuman deh... hehehe... Uda lama ga tiuman ama dia... Pas seru tiuman, si Deny suarana tiba2 mendekat... Akhirna kt berhenti trz masuk ke kntr ak deh... Akhirna kt trsin bikin surat na... Biz ito ak kse ke dia... N dia blg uda mao ke dokter gigi... Ak anter dia kluar... Pas di kntr mama, dia tiba2 berhenti... Trz puter bdn... Liatin ak... Ak peluk dia... N dia peluk balik... Erat bgtz... Trz ak blg : " I gonna miss u so much.." Dia jg blg gto ke ak... Hehe... Trz ga tao napa pas ak uda lepas pelukan ak, dia mse ga mao lepas... Akhirna ak peluk lge deh... N guess wad, ak tiba2 nangis... Dia jg uda hampir nangis... Hahaha... Trz dia tium ak... kt tiuman deh... udah gto ak anter dia kluar, wah, ternyata di luar bnyk org... Hahaha... Jd malu deh ak... Dia rangkul ak kluar... Si Aliang di dpn... Trz dia lupa barangna ada di kntr sebelah... Dia minta ak bukain pintu... Ak bukain deh... Trz udah gto dia pge... Eh, biz dia pge, cc na epon ak tnyin dia... Hahaha... Ak blg uda pge ke dokter gigi... Hehehe... Trz ak zmz dia, suruh dia klo uda ampe rumah kabari ak... Pas ak biz mkn nasi, dia epon... Hehehe... Pas kt ngobrol, mama na tny lge ngob ama sapa... Trz dia blg ma ak... Trz papa na tiba2 triak... Blg makasi ma ak... Hahaha... Trz papa na ngob ma ak... hehehe... Biz ito ak ama ayank ngob... Tp kt ga ngob lama soalna uda jam 9an n dia lom mandi... Takut nante dia akit klo mandi mlm2... Trz pas mao tutup epon, dia blg miss u n c u tomolo... Hehehe... Berarti dia mao abisin wkt terakhirna di Indo bareng ak... Hehehe... Trz tiba2 Aliang zmz... Dia tny soal hub ak ama ayank... Ak blg ak ga tao... Tanya aja ama dia... Ak ga tao Aliang bnrn tanya ato ga, tapi dia blg ke ak ayank ngaku ak sebagai pcr na... Ak ga tao ito bnr ato ga... trz kt zmzan... Tiba2 Aliang ga seneng gto... dia blg udah akh... Jgn bahas lge... Bikin ak tambah skt ht... Gto... Aneh kan??!! Hahaha... ydah... Ak disuruh mama krj... Ampe jam 1an br abiz... Trz naek ke atas zmz ama Aliang... Eh, tao tao na ketdrn... Hahaha... Ayank uda mao pge ui... Ak ga tao hrz gmn... Sedih bgtz rasana... Ak bnrn ga tao mao gmn... Ak skt ht bgtz... Tp mao gmn lge?? Dia ke sana buat masa depan dia... Dia blg ke ak dia mao ak nyusul... Apa bnr dia akan tgg ak?? Ak jg ga tao... Ga ada yg tao... Yg ak tao, ak sayang bgtz ma dia... N ak sedih bgtz krn dia uda mao pge... Yank, ak sayang ma km...

14 mOr3 daYs tO gO...Huhuhu...

2007-05-10T21:07:00.000-07:00

Huh.... Sebel bgtz deh speedy ga bs jalan... Akhirna ga bs ol deh... Yg tambah sebel tao ga apa?? Mama tao kt smua pge nonton ampe tgh mlm ampe pagi pulang... Akhirna ak akit... Demam gto... Pdhal bkn krn plg pg... Tp akhirna mama mrh2 gto... Akhirna ak dihajar deh... Smuana kena semprot deh... Ydah la... Mo gmn lge... Ak mse akit neeh... Haiz... Ga tao napa uda minum obat tp ga sembuh2... Mse aja akit2 kyk gini... Batuk ak neeh yg ga mo sembuh... Sama kyk Buzz... Hahaha... Ayank jg lge akit... Ga tao napa tiap x kt klo akit paste sama2 akit... Hem... Bnrn deh... Pas bgtz kan..??!! Ayank 14 hr lge uda mo ke Amrik... Ak sedih bgtz tiap ak tao dia mo pge... Tiap ak keinget dia uda mo pge, ak sedih bgtz... Akit hati ak... Hem... Dia jg blg dia sedih hrz tglin ak tp mo gmn lge... Iya sich... Sama2 sedih mo gmn lge... Demi masa depan... Mo ga mo ttp hrz pge... Ak khwtr ama keadaan dia yg disana nante... Ak mo dia dpt yg terbaek... Ito aja... Ak ga mo dia ditelantarin... Ak td epon dia... Trz pas mo tutup dia mo tanya mslh Suhelni n Affandi tp dia sebut nama Herlina... Akhirna ak cemburu gto... Ampe uda tutup epon lge zmzan jg tetep bahas cemburu... N ternyata dia pernah cemburu atas kelakuan ak... hahaha... Tp ak ga pernah tao... Hahaha... Ga nyangka bgtz dia bs cemburu.... hahaha... Ak jd seneng.... Ga tao napa ak sering mimpiin dia belakangan ini... Org2 blg krn org ito kangen ama kt makana kt mimpiin org ito... Tp apa bnr dia kangen ma ak...???!!! Ak jg ga tao... Yg ak tao... Yg ak rasakan skrg... Ak sedih bgtz... Tgl 14 hr boo... N ak uda kena hukum... Ak uda ga ada kesempatan kluar ma dia lge... 1 1 na kesempatan utk berang dia adalah dia dtg ke tmpt ak... Aduh... GOD... Please teach me what should I do... Please tell me what should I do... Please guide me to the right way... I wana be with YOU... Oh GOD... YOU are almighty GOD... YOU are everything for me... Please guide me and show me the way... I surrender everything to YOUR hand... Thanks GOD...
Semua yg bs ak lakukan skrg cmn zmzan ama dia... Dgr suara dia... Liat dia... Ak bnrn sayang ma dia... Kangen bgtz ma dia... Yank, ak sayang ma km...

Ngmng2 soal mlm mgg ito... Hehehe... Seneng bgtz deh... Ak ikut dia org pge mam di Krendang... Biz mam bakso, kt plg... Ak mandi dolo... Biz mandi ak ama Buzz ikut Denny n ayank plg ke rmh ayank... hehehe... Biz ito dia org mandi... Trz kt jmpt Ivana n dd ak di rmh... Pas di mobil, ak ketdrn... Ayank sambil nyetir mobil sambil pegangin tangan ak... Hehehe... Trz pas sampe TA, ak tmnin ayank pge cuci foto... Anak2 yg laen beli tiket nonton... Biz ito dia org pge mam TEXAS.. Ak ga mo... Jd ak ama ayank pge mam PIZZA ber2... Hehe... Biz ito dia org dtg cr kt... yah... Abiz deh mknan kt... Hahaha... Biz ito mse kt kluar jln2 dolo... Keliling jakarta soalna tiketna mse lama... Ak ngantuk berat gr2 biz mnm obt... Ak tdr di mobil... Ayank sambil nyetir sambil pegangin tangan ak trz.... Biz ito ketemu tmnna... Dia org ngob... Kt yg laen bo2 di mobil... biz ito kt ke TA nonton... Pas nonton dingin bgtzzzzz.... Suer deh.... Ayank aja kedinginan... Trz kt sempet tiuman.... Hehehe... Eh ga nyangka pas uda mo abiz ak ketdrn... Ayank gaa tao ak ketdrn... hahaha... udah gto kt plg... Pas ampe di rmh, kt tiuman di mobil bentar... Hehehe... Abiz ito ak naek ke kmr n ganti baju n bo2... Stlah ito, kt ga ketemu lge ampe kmrn... Pas ketemu dia ak lgsg manja2 peyuk dia gto... hehehe... Dia jg peyuk balik... Ydah dolo yak... Ak mo kerja... Jg mo zmzan ama ayank... bubye all... Muakzzzz.... Lubh u all... Lubh u ayank...

DUno wAd Lar...

2007-05-04T07:34:00.000-07:00

Hem... Sebel deh... Berapa hari ini ga bs ol... gara2 masalah speedy... Sebel bgtz deh... Ga tao napa belakangan ini semenjak ak akit ak mulai suka bt n kesel n skt hati molo... Ak jg ga tao napa... Pucing ak... Haiz... Knapa ak hrz kyk gini... Ak jg ga tao... Kmrn dia ajak ak ke dokter... Ak ga mo tp dia paksa ak haruz... Jd ak terpaksa ikutin kata dia... Akhirna pas sampe ke dokter, kan mo daftar dolo... Eh pas ditanya nama, dia yg ngmng... Umur, dia jg yg jawab... Semuana dia yg jawab... Trz pas di dlm ruang dokter, dokter tanya akit apa... Dia jg yg jawab... Hem... Tao jg dia ak akit apa... Trz pas malam na, ampoen deh... Mama ngajak ke dokter lge... Ak tgg dokterna ampe jam 12an... Gila kan... Dokter apaan atuh... Wakakaka... Sampe ak ketdrn... Hahaha... Bnrn deh... Seumur hidup ito pertama x ak tgg doktern ampe tengah malem... Biasana ga pernah lho... Bisa gila ak tgg ampe sgto lama n malem... Wakakaka... Hem... Ga tao napa ak malem kmrn ak ngantuk bgtz... Mgkn pegaruh obat dr dokter x... Akhirna ak pas zmzan ketdrn... Ak bgn jam 4an liat hp bntr... Biz ito lanjutin bo2 lge... Wakaka... Jago bo2 kan ak... Wakaka... Ak ga tao mo tulis apa lge... Hr ini 6 org maju interview n hasilna 6 org ga dpt... Si Sang sedih bgtz... Depresi bgtz... Pas ak liat dia gto, tanpa kusadari, hatiku ikut terasa akit... Hem... Ak jg ga tao napa gto... Eh, tao ga... Ga tao napa klo ak dkt ma cwo laen, ayank ak ga bgto suka... Walaupun dia ga blg, tp dr raut mukana, keliatan bgtz dia ga seneng.... Bsok ak pengin ke TA nonton... Ak harap ayank bs ikut... Tp ga tao deh... Suer... Ak berharap dia bs ikut... Hem... Cmn bs berdoa deh... Ydah yak... Bubye.... Gud nite...

bOut SomEthiNg cOOl n FuNNy...

2007-04-30T18:49:00.000-07:00

Hai again n again... Haha... Hari ini pilek ak tmbh parah uiii... Hahaha... Kmrn mlm ayank temenin ak lho... Tp mslhna jg bnyk org yg tmnin ak... hehe... Semuana anak2 yg mo ke Amrik... hahaha... Trz kmrn kan ayank ke dokter gigi dolo ama Buzz... Pas dia pge, ak ama Ivana sembunyiin tas dia... :))... Pas dia uda mo plg dia br ngeh... haha... Trz dia cubit paha Ivana... Wakakaka... Ivana ampe triak2 minta tlg ma ak tp ak ga tlgin dia... Abiz ak atut ama ayank... Hahaha... Trz Ivana langsung buru2 naek... Wakaka... Eh, dia naek trz ga turun2... Ak yg kena deh... Trz ayank mo naek cr tas na sendiri... Ak ampe cegah2... Trz pas ampe di tangga... Ak tarik2 dia biar dia ga bs naek... Abiz cwo emank ga blh naek... ito kan tmpt cwe... Hahaha... Akhirna pas ak tarik dia, ga sengaja ak jatuh ke dia... N tiba2, ga tao knp bs... Kt tiuman... Wakakakaka... Ga lama deh... Trz ak jauhin bibirku... Wakaka... Trz untung si Ivana turun balikin tas dia... Wakakaka... Udah... Biz ito ayank ga mo kalah... Dia hrz bikin Ivana sengsara... Wakakaka... Akhirna ak ga tega liat Ivana, ak tlg dia... Eh mlh ayank cubit ak... Ayank jaat kan?? Huh... dasar ayank... Bwee... Mo nangis aja akh...:-"... Wakaka... Trz pas dia cubit ak, ak terpaksa mundur n cr kelemahan dia... Pas ito ak jatuh ke tangga n dia jg duduk... Tao ga sich... Tgn na ito uda mulai sembarangan pegang... Mulai iseng lge... Haha... Trz si Ivana tutup pintu... Ak ama ayank kecapekan trz duduk di tangga... Eh, tiba2 ayank tium ak... Kt tiuman deh akhirna... Hahaha... Ga tao napa hari2 ak ama ayank ga bs lewat tanpa tiuman:p... hahaha... Trz ga lama kemudian ayank plg... Pas ayank plg ak langsung naek mandi... Abiz ak uda capek bgtz... Biz mandi ak tdran di ranjang... Tiba2 hp ak bunyi... Eh ternyata ayank epon... Wakakaka... Kt ngob setengah jam gto deh... Trz mama na suruh dia mandi... Hahaha... Biz ito ak tggin ayank zmz... Pas tggin, ak capek bgtz... Sempet ketdran brp x... Hahaha... Trz pas zmzan, ak bnrn ketdrn... Bnrn capek bgtz... Udah ga bs buka mata lge... Akhirna ak ga bls zmz ayank deh... Sowie ayank... Ayank blg di hati na ada ak... Nyata na dia rela plg mlm cmn utk tmnin ak ngob... Hahaha... Ayank baek deh... ayank i lubh u... Hahaha... Eh tao ga sich, catty ama doi na uda baekan... haha... Ydah yak... Idung ak mulai meler lge... Bubye... Muakz...

gA boW2...nGantUk...

2007-04-29T19:18:00.000-07:00

Mlm minggu ak keluar ama anak2 lge... Trz ama ayank jg... Hehehe... Ayank nyusul tp... Kt ke TA... Rencana na mo nonton... Akhirna ga jd nonton mlh maen game di bioskop... Aneh2 kan anak2... Haha... Ak pke baju item pas mlm ito, eh ayank jg pke baju item... Pdhal ga sepakat lho... Ga ngmng2 dolo... Haha... Trz biz keluar dr bioskop uda jam 11an... Ayank br inget ada janji ama kk Daniel... Akhirna kt pge cr ko Daniel di TSS... Tmpt maen billiard... Biasa la anak2 maen billiard... Ak ga bgto seneng... Ga tao np... BT gto deh... Akhirna ak ga ngmng... Ngmng jg dikit... Pas sampe di tmpt biiliard, ayank tny mo minum apa... Ak blg buka guiness aja deh... Akhirna kt minum guiness deh... Hahaha... Semuana pd ikutan minum guiness jg... hehe... Pokokna ak minum bnyk deh... Soalna Bt bgtz sich... Biz ito sekitar jam 2an mrk br mo plg... Suer deh, ga seneng bgtz... Yah tp mo gmn lge... Akhirna ak sich cmn diem aja... Pas ayank plg dia mse zmzan ma ak bntr ampe jam 4... Biz ito br bow2... Trz ak jg bow2 soalna ngantuk bgtz... Akhirna bgn jam 10... Hahaha... Trz buru soalna mo ke gereja... Eh mlh semuana jg br bgn... Trz mo tgg anak2 yg laen lge... Biz mandi, yg laen masak mie mo mam lge... Duh akhirna pas sampe di MM uda telat... Uda jam 12... Yah, akhirna kt ga jd ke gereja deh... Kt mlh ke bioskop maen... Hahaha... Ak abisin 50rb cmn buatmaen time crisis... wakakaka... Bs bayangin ga... Wakakaka... Ayank ak ga bs ikut soalna dia blg dia ada urusan... Ydah... Akhirna kt maen sendiri... Biz maen bosen di bioskop uda jam 2an... Semuana laper akhirna kt mam di KFC...=p~...hehe... Enak lho... Pokokna di KFC kt jg yg paling heboh... Wakaka... Akhirna biz mam KFC kt pge nonton bioskop... Haha... Tp ga ada yg konsen nonton na... haha... Ga tap pd mkrn apa... Akhirna jam 4an jam 5 biz nonton kt pge cr baju baru... Hahaha... Ak beli 1 baju yg sama ama Ivana... hehe... Trz pas jam 6an jam 7 kt plg... Capek bgtz... Suer deh... Ayank ga bls zmz ak... ga angkat epon ak... Cebel bgtz... Akhirna ak epon ke rmh dia... Mama na yg angkat epon... Hiiii... :p... Mama na ternyata uda knal ma ak... Soalna ga tanya ak sapa... Hahaha... Mama na pikir dia ama ak... Pdhal kan dia kluar sendiri... Mama na mlh blg bkn dr pagi dia ama ak... Ak blg ga... hahaha... Tao ga, ayank jam 12an br zmz ak lge... pas ito ak uda ketdran... Tp krn panas, akhirna jam 2an ak bgn lge... Ak bgn ak lgsg zmz dia n epon dia... Eh ga ada respon... Tp tiba2 hp ak bunyi... Eh ayank epon... Wakaka... Akhirna dia epon jg... Wakaka... Eh pas ngmng2, dia ketdran... Ak pgl2 tp dia ga nyaut... Haha... Akhirna ak ttup deh epon na... hahaha... Trz ak bow2 lge pas jam 3... Trz jam 4 uda dibgnin ama tmn sekmr lge gara2 dia mao maju ke dubes... Yah... Terpaksa deh ak bgn n merem melek molo... Trz pas jam setgh 6, ak turun deh tmnin dia tgg mobil jmptan... Eh, ayank ak mlh bgn jg... Hahaha... Akhirna ak zmzan ama ayank... hehe... Trz jam setgh 7 tmn ak dijmpt... Ak naek deh ke kmr... Pas di kmr ak mse zmzan bntr ama ayank... Trz ak males zmzan... Ak epon dia... Eh, pulsa ak abiz... Wakakaka... Trz ayank epon balik... Trz ngobrol deh... Sekitar 1 jam an deh... Hahaha... Akhirna ak ga jd bow2 lge deh... Tmnin ayank eponan... Trz jam 8an ak blg uda... Mo mandi trz mo ke bank... Dia mase ga mo tutup epon gto... Akhirna ak blg, ayo dunkz... Km bow2 krg... nante masakin ak... akhirna dia br mo tutup epon... Hahaha... Gto deh ayank ak... Lucu deh dia... N tao ga, klo lge ngobrol ma dia, dia ga mo ngmngin org laen... Mo na ngmngin mslh kt doang... Hehehe... Ayank... I miss u deh... Muakz... Lubh u yank...

TggIn aYaNK aMpe JaM 5...MsE dImrHin AyaNK..:((

2007-04-26T20:50:00.000-07:00

Kmrn dia akit... Tp dia mse bela2in dtg ke tmpt ak... Tp ak mlh ga bs tmnin dia... Soalna kmrn kerjaan ak bnrn menumpuk... Ampe mkn aja ga sempet... Tp kmrn mse sempet liatin dia sich... Mse sempet berduaan bentar... Mse sempet tiuman... Wakaka... Trz pas jam 6.21, dia pamitan ma ak mo plg... Ydah... Dia plg deh... Tiap x dia ampe rmh, dia paste kse kbr... Ga pernah ga kse kbr... Walaupun ga ada pulsa, dia ttp cr akal untuk kse kbr ke ak... Tp semlm dia ga kse kbr... Ak bnrn khwtr... Ak khwtr bgtz... Ampe nangis... Bayangin aja... Ak epon ke rmhna, mama na blg dia ga ada... Ak zmz, dia ga bls... Ak epon, hp ga buka... Pdhal 3 hp... Bayangin aja... Gmn ga khwtr... Apalge dia lge akit... Duh... Trz ak tggin dia zmz... Ak tatut nante dia zmz ak ga baca... Akhirna ak tggin ampe jam 5... Ak sempet bow2 20 menitan deh... trz bgn tgg lge... Si Rio sempet tlp ak pas jam 1an... Haha... Tlp tmnin ak bentar... Trz ak tgg... Jam 6an si Marie zmz... Ak ga bls... Akhirna jam 5an ak uda bnrn ga tahan... Akhirna ak bow2 deh... Td pagi hampir aja telat bgn... Ak ga tao napa ak bs khwtr kyk gini... Pdhal selama ini ak ga pernah khwtr ma org ampe ga bow2 gini... Ama Chris aja ak mse cuek... Pdhal dia dr jkt ke tasik naek bis... Ak mse ga khwtr bgtz... Trz si Sang, ak jg ga khwtr bgtz... Pdhal mlm ito ujan... N dia plg naek motor... Tp ak mse ga sekhwtr semlm... Ak jg ga tao napa... Mgkn krn dia lge akit x yak... Ak ga tao deh... Ak berubah bnyk krn dia... Ak dolo ga pernah dgrin ngmngan cwo ak... Tp ngmngan dia, ak dgrin bgtz... Ak jg ga tao napa ak bs berubah kyk gini... Tp yg ak bs kse tao, setelah dia muncul dlm hidup ak, hidup ak penuh dgn tawaan... Ito aja... Brsan dia zmz ak minta maap krn ga bls zmz ak... Ak blg gpp... Ak cmn tgg ampe jam 5... Eh dia mrh2 gto... Tanya np ak hrz tgg ampe jam gto... Kan dia lge akit... Dia uda bow2... Ak cmn blg... Ak tao... Tp km ga pernah ga kse kbr ke ak... Km tao ga ak khwtr... Ak cmn ngmng gto... Ak ampe nangis gto... Dia blg dia minta maaf... Tp ak ga sehrzna tgg ampe jam 5... Gto katana... Ak cmn blg... Udahla... Ak yg slh... Udah... Ak ga mao bahas lge... Gto... Wakaka... udha deh yak... Males ketik lge... Pucing ak krg bow2... Wakaka...

HeM...MaO jUdUl aPa?? SoaL sEmlM dEH...Hehe...

2007-04-25T18:54:00.000-07:00

Kmrn dia tetep dtg ke tmpt ak walaupun uda dpt visa... Tp ak ga bs tmnin dia ngobrol ato maen... Krn kerjaan ak menumpuk... Untung mlmna ujan deras... Jd dia ga bs plg cpt... N ak jg punya alasan untuk berhenti kerja... Hehe... Akhirna ak biz mam, ak tmnin dia maen kartu... Pas ito uda jam 9 kurang 15... Pas ito jg mama mo kluar beli obat... Trz, dia jg uda mo plg... Anak2 yg laen pada maen kartu... Ak ke wc... Eh dia jg mo ke wc... Ydah... Ke wc brg... Ak tiba2 muntah... Hahaha... Trz biz kluar dr wc, dia tgg ak di dpn... N ak ke dpn cr dia... Dia tiba2 dktin dirina pd diriku... Deg2an sich... Hehehe... Tp anget jg... Tiba2 dia peyuk ak... Erat bgtz... Ya, yg bs kulakukan cmn peyuk balik... Hehehe... Ya gak?? Trz, tiba2 dia tium ak... Ak jd hanyut dlm tiuman ito deh... Hehehe... Tiuman brp lama yak... Klo ga salah itungan sich ada deh 5 menitan... Trz gara2 ada suara dr luar, kt berhenti... Ada anak2 intip... Dasar kan anak2 ito... Gangguin kt aja... Hahaha... Biz ito, ak ama dia mse ngobrol bentar... Trz kt maen.... Biasa... Maen permainan yg biasa kt maen... Touch up n down la... Hahaha... Wakakaka... Trz anak2 tiba2 masuk... Untungna pas ito kt uda berhenti n lge ngobrol... hahaha... Trz dia org ke wc... Biz ito ke sebelah lge... Akhirna ak ama dia secara ga sengaja, tiuman lge... Hahaha... Mse bnyk kejadian sich... Tp, ak ga bs kase tao... hehehe... Soalna ito private bgtz... Hahaha... Biz ito pas dia mo plg, ujan lge... Dia tetep mo pge, tp ak blg, jgn dolo... Tgg agak reda... Eh dia pasang muka cemberut... Akhirna ga ak ladenin... Cmn ak blg : " Ydah la... Terserah... Org khwtr malah mrh2..." Dia diem... Trz ga jd plg... hahaha... Akhirna tgg agak reda dia br pge... Biz dia pge, ak sempet disuruh mama kerja bentar... Akhirna pas ngobrol ama mama, ak ketdran... Hahaha... Akhirna mama blg, ydah la... Km bow2 aja... Hahaha... Trz ak naek mo mandi... Eh dia zmz laporan uda ampe rmh... Hehe... Trz biz ito ak suruh dia mandi n ak jg mandi... Biz mandi, pas lge nonton, dia epon... Ydah... Kt ngobrol bentar... Ga bentar sich... Ada deh 45 menit... Hahaha... Jujur, ak syg ma dia... Syg bgtz... Semlm zmz gud nite na ada tulis lubh me... Hahaha... telling ya all the truth, i really had fall in love with him... Liat dia zmzan ama sepupuna aja ak bs jealous... Haiz... Ga tao deh... Ak jg pucing klo mikirin dia kdg2... Bnyk mslh yg blum selesai... Sehingga ak ga bs buang stress... Dia mo knalin ak ke ortuna... Tp ak deg2an... Ak blum siap... haha... Ak ga tao mo ngmng apa nantena... Hehehe... Ydah yak... Ak rencana na hr ini mo abizin kerja ak... Biar mama ga ngomel molo... Capek ak dgrna... ydah yak... Bubye... Muakz... Lubh u my hubby dear Will... Muakz...

sHouLD be HaPPy oR SaD??

2007-04-24T23:34:00.000-07:00

Kmrn, ayank ak maju interview minta visa Amrik... Ito pertama x dia maju, makana ak siapin dokumen2 dia ampe tgh mlm... Ampe ga mam... Ampe akit maag... Ampe muntah2... Hahaha... Untungna dia goal... Ak jg ampe jam 2an jam 3an br bow2... Trz jam 4 uda dibgnin dia lge... Soalna dia berangkat interview dr rmh ak... Dia dtg rmh ak pas jam 5 lebih... Si S jg interview bareng dia... Ayank pke baju baru yg ak beli... Hehe... Cakep deh ayank pke baju ito... hehe... Ak seneng bgtz... Trz pas ito, ayank peyuk ak... Erat bgtz deh... Ak ngerasa aneh... Soalna dia biasana ga peyuk ak kyk gto... Cmn peyuk biasa... Ga seerat ito... Trz pas dia uda mo jln, dia ga lupa tium ak... Biz ito dia pge... Trz trz pas dia pge, ak naek lge ke kmr... Ak temenin ayank zmzan ampe dia masuk ke kedutaan... Ak doain dia berhasil... Pas jam 9an, ak dpt misscall dr dia... Trz jam 9.45 pas, dia epon ak... Dia ngmngna dengan nada sedih gto... Dia blg : " babe, ak capek babe... Ngantuk..." ak blg : " km uda keluar?? Hasilna gmn?? Dpt ga??" Ak khwtr bgtz... Akhirna ak dgr dia senyum2 blg : " Ak dpt babe..." Gto... Ak seneng bgtz... Hehehe... Ak ampe triak2... haha... Tp di dlm lubuk hati ak, ak cedih... Ak ampe nangis... Krn apa?? Krn ak tao bntr lge dia akan tglin ak... Haiz... Ak bnrn ga tao deh hrz gmn... Trz S kluar... Dia ga dpt... Dia kesel n cedih bgtz... Pas uda plg ke tmpt ak, ayank ak peyuk ak... Erat bgtz... Trz tium ak... Hehe... Ayank... I lubh u... Dia peyuk ak molo... Dr belakang... Dr dpn... Trz dia tium kening ak... Dia lucu deh... Dia ceneng bgtz... Ak jg ceneng buat dia... Tp, hatiku gmn jg paste skt... Ga tao deh np... Ak cedih... Haiz... Trz kmrn pas dia uda ampe rmh, ak epon dia... Eh pas bgtz dia lge ngob ama ortu na... Di dpn ortu na lge... Trz dia blg, : " Babe, mao ngmng ama papa ga??" Ak blg ga mo... Haha... Deg2an ak... Ga tao mo ngmng apa... haha... Soalna slama ini pcran, ak lom pernah ngob ama ortu pcr ak... haha... Td pg pas ak epon dia, dia jg tanya ak mo ngmng ama papa ga... haha... Haiz... Ak kangen bgtz ma dia... Ga tao deh... Pokokna ak kangen bgtzzzzzzz... Hatiku akit... Haiz... Ak ga tao hrz gmn... Ak harap ak ama dia akan ada kenangan yg bahagia sblum dia ke Amrik... Sesuatu yg bs buat ak teringat akan dia trz... Ak sayang ama dia... N ak jg tao dia uda mulai sayang ama ak... Dia bnrn sayang ama ak... Ak tao ito... Soalna brp hr ini, dia tiap x mo dkt ma ak... Dia khwtr ma ak... Dia perhatian ma ak... Dia tium ak molo... Peyuk ak molo... Ak ga tao deh yak... Yg ak tao, ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Ito aja yg bs ak pastein... Udah akh... Ngmng lge ak ga jd kerja... Ayank... SELAMAT yak... Semoga km sukses di Amrik... Lubh u yank...

PeRmaInaN giLA...aKhirNa aK bR taO gA bs KeilAngaN dIa..

2007-04-20T18:19:00.000-07:00

Hey ho Hey ho... Hahaha... Kt ketemu lge... Wktna ak crita2 lge... Hehehe... Kmrn ak bnyk kerjaan... Gila... Ampe ak masuk room tp ga chat sama se x... Ak ol cmn pajang id... Hahaha... Saking bnyk kerjaan ampe ga mkn... Akhirna pas mama uda naek, ak akit maag na kambuh... Gila... Ak ampe menciut... Ga nyangka... Trz Ivana pgl si Will masuk... Ak ga tao si Will biz trima zmz Ivana langsung buru2 masuk ke kantor... Dia liat ak menciut trz dia mrh2... Dia suruh ak cptan mkn... Trz dia mao pesenin ak mknan segala la... Trz ak blg ga usah... Trz ak berdiri... Jln ke arah dia untuk cegah dia... Si Ivana ke ruang mama trz si Will peyuk ak... Duh, berada dlm peyukan na bnran bs merasakan kehangatan dan jg ketenangan... Rasana ga pengin berhenti memeluy dirinya... Hahaha... Tao ga sih, si S ito... Tiap dia ketemu ak... Lgsg pajang muka bt gto... Apalge pas dia liat ak tiuman ama Will pas di crown... Duh ak ga tao deh... Haha... Trz trz... Ak ama Will pge pesen ayam... Ak sengaja gandeng tgn dia biar org yg jualan ga gangguin ak lge... Hehe... Kmrn dia jagain ak bgtz... Ampe ga ijinin ak mkn nase uduk, ga ijinin ak minum es, ga ijinin ak mkn santan... Hahaha... Ak bnran seneng dia bgto ama ak... Trz kmrn ak epon ko aming... Dia jg sempet ak knalin ke ko aming... Mrk ampe ketawa2 ga tao ngmngin apa... Ampe tukeran nmr segala... Weh... Trz pas ak lge ngobrol ama ko aming, si Will godain n gangguin ak... Ampe tgn na pegang2 ak segala... Akhirna ak blg ke ko aming nante ak br epon balik... Trz ak mulai deh maen ama Will jg... Ampe pegang2an deh... Suer ak ga nyangka bgtz kyk gini... Haha... Maenna gila2... Ak ga nyangka bgtz... Hahaha... Trz ak ampe jatuh... Sikut tgn n kaki ak kejeduk lantai... Akit bgtz... Si Will kaget ak ampe hampir nangis segala... Akhirna dia elus2 kaki ak... Ak lgsg berdiri and maen lge ama dia... Haha... Ampe akhirna ak mojokin dia... Eh tiba2 kt tiuman... Ga tiuman biasa cmn nempel bibir... French kiss ui... Hahahahahaha... Trz ak maen lge ma dia... Pokokna lmrn maenna ampe gila2an deh... Ga nyangka bs maen ampe kyk gto... Ampe akhirna gantian ak yg dipojokin dia... Dia tium ak... Lama lho yg x ini... Tp akhirna gr2 tgn ak iseng lge, akhirna dia berhenti tium ak n dia jg mulai iseng tgnna... Hahaha... Trz akhrina si Ivana jg ikutan maen... Akhirna dia berantem atuh ama si Ivana... Hahaha... Ivana ketawa2 ampe jongkok di lantai... Hahaha... Trz ampe lari ke dlm kantor... Pas ito ak lge ngmng epon... Biz ngmng epon br ak tolong si Ivana... Wadooh... Ak tolong Ivana ampe tgn ak digenggam si Will ampe merah2 gto... Duh... Akit bgtz... Ampe ijo biru... Duh... Capek deh... Ampe ak keluar dr kantor, si Ivana duduk disono ketawa2 br tolongin ak... Jaat kan tu anak... Trz mrk maen sendiri... Ak capek bgtz... Ak duduk di motor sono... Si Ivana ama si Will jg udahan... Haha... Akhirna Will jg udahan soalna dia mo plg... Ak isengin trz ak tanya... Km ga ngerasa kekurangan apa2?? Dia br ngeh gto... Ternyata tas na ga ada... Haha... Mulai deh... Dia cr di mn2 tp ga ada... Trz dia maen ama si Ivana... Suruh Ivana cr n keluarin... Mrk ber2 ampe ketawa2... Ak mah cmn duduk di motor ngaca sambil senyum2 sambil pencet jerawat... Wakakaka... Akhirna si Ivana blg minta tuh ama Wi... Akhirna si Will dtg ke ak... Mampos... Tgnna mulai deh iseng... Trz ak blg Ivana yg ambil koq minta ma ak... Dia ga caya gto... Akhirna ak blg minta gih ama dia... Trz dia br cr Ivana lge... Haha... Trz mrk ber2 maen... Duh... Berantem... Duh... Akit.. Soalna si Ivana jatuh ke lantai... Akhirna si Will ambil hp Ivana... Br deh Ivana ga ada pilihan laen... Dia br balikin tas na si Will... Yah, uda balikin tas, si Ivana mlh ambil helm si Will... Akhirna dia simpen di belakang... Di bwh tangga... Pas Will kelitikin si Ivana, ak pge ambil helm na trz ak taro di belakang motor... Trz ak duduk di motor... Jah, si Will liat... Dia suruh si Ivana yg ambil... Trz ak ngancem Ivana... Ak blg km pilih mo menderita skrg ato nante mlm ga bow2... Hahaha... Akhirna dia ga tao mo gmn... Si Will kelitikin dia lge... Akhirna dia ga tahan dia masuk kantor... Si Will sendiri yg dktin ak... Jah, mulai deh tgnna iseng pegang2... Trz tiba2 dia tium ak... French kiss ui... X ini lama bgtz... Bnran lama deh... Ampe ak ga tao si Ivana ngintip trz ak berhenti... Jah, si Ivana malah ngajak si Tika liat... Akhirna kt berhenti tiuman... Ak balikin helm na... Soalna uda mlm jg... Trz ak anterin dia keluar... Trz dia plg deh... Ak naek ke kmr... Wah... Bdn ak pegel bgtz... Ampe tgn ak merah2... Si Ivana mlh ketawa2... Akhirna ak mandi... Trz biz mandi ga lama kemudian Will epon blg dia uda nyampe rmh n nante isi pulsa br zmz ak... Ydah... Ak tgg zmz dia... Akhirna jam 10an kt mulai zmzan... Ampe jam 1an gto deh... Tp dia blsna lama... Ga tao yak... Dia zmzan ama si Ivana... Ga tao napa ak cemburu gto... Jah... Aneh2 aja kan ak?? Pdhal Ivana kan dd sepupu na... Haiz... Ak jg ga tao napa semlm bs nangis gto... Zmz ak ama dia... Ga tao deh yak... Bikin ak kepikiran trz... Ak ga tao napa tiba2 ngerasa aneh... Ada ganjelan gto... Ak takut keilangan dia... Bnran deh... Semlm ito ak bnran ngerasa bgto... Ak bnran ga tao napa ak bs ngerasa kyk gto... Rasana aneh bgtz... Ak jg ga tao np bs gto... Ak skrg ga bs ngerasain apa2... Ak ga bs ngelakuin apa2... Ak cmn tao, ak ga mo keilangan dia... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Sejak semlm br ak ngerasakan hal ito... Slama ini, ak ga pernah ngerasa kyk gto... Ga tao deh... Ak jg pucing... Hem... Udah la... Ak jg ga tao mo ngmng apa lge... Ak cmn bs blg, ak sayang ama dia... Tp ak ga pernah kse tao dia dgn nada serius... haha... ydah la... Ak jg binun... Udah yak... Bubye... Miss u all... Muakz... Ak semlman bow2 na ga enak... Ga tao napa... ydah deh... Bubye... Have a nice day...

SoaL sEmaLeM... EpoNan...Heheh...

2007-04-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

Hahaha... Semlm ayank epon ak 2 jam... Hahaha... Pas jam pertama kt ngobrol tiba2 putus, akhirna dia epon lge... Haha... Kt ngobrol bnyk... Ak crita soal Hikz ke dia... N dia mrh2 n emosi gto... Akhirna ak blg ga usah la terlalu dipkrn... Dia ga penting bgtz x... Apalge ga penting bgtz nyakiti diri sendiri demi ak... Eh dia malah blg km pikir km sendirian?? Km salah besar... Km ga sendirian... Km ada ak... Km ga kan sendirian... Ak jd terharu dgr kata2 ito... Hehe... Trz dia ngmng bnyk deh... Kt crita2 gto... Bnyk deh yg kt ngmngin... Kt ketawa2... Canda2... Trz diem2an... Ak jg ga tao... Ga tao apa perasaan ak ke dia... Ak ga mao taro perasaan yg bnyk krn ak ga mao nyesel n ga mao akit hati lge... Di dpn anak2 mgkn emank ak pcran ama dia... Tp di blkng anak2, ak bnrn ga tao status kt ito apa... Secara ga langsung, kt mulai gandengan tangan... Kt mulai mesraan... Kt mulai curhatan... Kt mulai tiuman... Kt mulai peyukan... Ito semua terjadi tanpa kusadari... Dan setelah kusadari, semua ito uda terjadi bgto lama... Dan ak ga tao hrz ambil langkah apa untuk selanjutna... Yg ak tao... Dlm brp hr ini ak mao dkt ama dia... Krn ak tao, suatu saat ketika ak keilangan dia, ak paste akan sangat merindukan dirina... Skrg walaupun cumen brp wkt, ak jg kangen ama dia... Ak paste pengin ketemu dia trz... AK jg ga tao apa perasaan dia ke ak... Setiap x dia blg dia sayang ama ak... Ak ragu... Jujur ak ragu... Ak ga tao napa... Dia pernah blg ke ak... Sayang ak ke km ito sedlm lautan lebih dlm sayangku... Setinggi langit, lebih tinggi sayangku... Dan ak tao, mgkn ito kejujuran hatina... Tp mgkn jg ito hanya gombalan biasa... Krn yg ak tao, dia ito agak play boy... Tp jujur, ak bs merasakan dia sayang ama ak... Dia ga pengin liat ak sedih... Ga pengin liat ak nangis... Setiap ak nangis, dia akan berusaha untuk membuat diriku tertawa... Ak sayang ama dia... Dkt dengan dia membuat ak merasa nyaman... Ak sayang bgtz ma dia... Mgkn ito aja yg bs kukatakan... Apalge yg bs kukatakan?? Ak cmn tao, pas ak keilangan dia, ak paste sedih bgtz... Ak ga brani memikirkan gmn ak ketika ak keilangan dia... Ak ga mao kyk mslh good pig lge... Dan yg bs kulakukan hanya satu... Mencoba dan berusaha untuk membuat dia tertawa dan meringankan beban pikiran dia... Makasi krn uda sayang ma ak... td ak masakin nasi goreng buat dia... O M G... ga nyangka bgtz ak bklan masakin buat dia... Soalna slama ini ak ga pernah masak untuk org... Ak ga pernah masakin untuk org laen... Apalge untuk diriku sendiri... tp skrg ak masakin untuk dia... O M G... Ak sendiri aja ga bs percaya... Hahaha... Akhirna dia ga mkn... Tmn na yg mkn... Ak sebel bgtz... Akhirna dia br mkn... Br dia abisin... hahaha... Dia tium ak di kening... Jujur, ak sayang ma dia... ito aja yg bs kukatakan... Ak sayang ama dia... Haha... Ydah la yak... Miss u all... Ayank, i lubh u... Muackz... Ak kmrn ol ama ko aming... haha... Tao ga, ak on cam tp ak ketdran... hahaha... Ga nyangka... Wakaka... Ydah la... Mse bnyk kerjaan... Bubye...

lGe tGG ayAnK dtG...kEilaNgaNZ...:((

2007-04-18T20:46:00.000-07:00

Td pagi ak epon ayank... Hehehe... Ayank br bgn suarana lucu deh... Hehehe... Kt ngobrol... Klo epon dia ga pernah deh ngomong dikit... Paste bnyk... Hahaha... Pas ngobrol, suara ak ga tao napa jd serak... Serak bgtz... Trz dia tanya ak, km knapa babe... Koq suara na gto... Ak blg mgkn kurang tdr x... Trz dia blg suara km kyk gini seksi deh... Hahaha... Dudulz kan tu anak... Haha... Dia ketawa n godain ak trz... Nyebelin bgtz kan??!! haha... Dia blg... Walaupun nyebelin, tp tetep sayang kan... haha... Klo ga nyebelin nante ga kangen... Makana hrz nyebelin biar km kangen... Hahaha... Trz pas kt ngobrol, ponakan na disuruh ama org gangguin dia... AKhirna ponakan na masuk n tanya dia ito sapa... Dia blg ini babe... Eh ponakan na malah blg babe a babe a... Gto... Hahaha... Lucu deh suara ponakan na... hahaha... Ponakan na lucu deh... Ak jd pengin ketemu... hehe... Bnran deh... Klo bs ak mao ke rmh na... Ketemu ama ponakan na... hehe... Paste gemesin... Hehehe... Pas td uda mao tutup tlp, dia minta tium... Tumben bgtz kan... trz ga mao yg pendek lge... Minta tium yg panjang... Nyebelin bgtz kan... Hahaha... Tp ga tao napa ak tetep sayang ama dia... hehehe... Ak ga tao klo nante dia dpt visa trz ke amrik ak gmn... Ak bs kangen berat... Ak bs ngerasa keilangan bgtz neeh... N mgkn hub kt ga kyk skrg lge... Jujur ak ga pengin keilangan dia...Haiz... Ak ga tao hrz gmn... Oh iya... Ak kangen jg neeh ama S.. Kmrn dia ga dtg sich... Haiz... Hahaha... Di dpn ayank ak ga blh terlalu deket ama cwo laen... Ayank ga bgto seneng... haha... Ydah la... Ak lge tgg ayank dtg... hehe... Kmrn dia ga tium ak soalna kmrn dia lge bt n capek bgtz... Ak jg kmrn ga seneng... Jd kt ga deket2... Ito hr pertama tanpa tiuman... haha... Soalna sejak dolo hr2 ak paste ada tiuman dia... Dia paste ga lupa untuk tium ak... Gto deh... haha... Ydah la yak... Bubye... Mao kerja lge... Muaxkzzzz... Miss u all....

jUduL apA yaK...hEm..Ga tAo dEh...

2007-04-17T18:50:00.000-07:00

Aiz... Blog blog blog blog... Uwaa... Ak bnran bs nangis uiiiiiii... Kmrn ak pge karaoke ama mama... Ama anak2 yg laen jg... Yah... Pas di room karaoke, ada satu cwe yg nyebelin yg pegang mic molo... Akhirna kt2 ga kebagian... Cmn dia yg nyanyi... Klo bkn dia... mama yg nyanyi... Paste yg nyanyi cmn dia org... Kt mn dipikirin... Untungna kt ke Crown... Ada diskotik... Akhirna ak ajak cwe2 yg laen pge diskotik... Ak pikir dia org ga mo... Eh nyatana dia org blg mendingan ikut ak drpd disini liatin org nyanyi... Wakakaka... Akhirna ayank ama mantan semuana jg ikut... Wakaka... Akhirna kt di luar room karaoke tgg wkt na dugem... Hahaha... Pas uda jam 10an, kt semua ke diskotik dugem... Pas kt dugem, eh mama ikutan dtg dugem... Nyebelin bgtz... Ydah... Pas mama ada, ak cmn goyang pala... Hahaha... Malez ak goyang bdn... Akhirna mama capek... Dia balik ke room karaoke... Hahaha... Trz ak ama anak2 yg laen trzin dugem lge... Wakaka... Ak goyang pala ampe pucing... Hahaha... Ayank goyang bdn seksi bgtz... Wakakaka... Tmn ak keren pas nari... Wakaka... Trz ada 1 lge tmn... Klo ga dugem, anakna baek2... Tp se x dugem, wadooh... Heboh abiz.... Wakakaka.... Pokokna kmrn yg dugem ito semua grup2 kecil kt2 deh... Ga ada org nyebelin... Wakaka... Biz ito mama suruh kumpul di room karaoke... Ydah kt kumpul... Eh grup kt pas mo nyanyi... Uda abiz wktna... Akhirna mama ngajak mkn... Ayank ga mo ikut... Cwo yg laen jg ga mo ikut... Ydah... Yg pge mkn cmn grup cwe kt ama org2 nyebelin... Wakaka... Pas di furama, grup kt 1 meja sendiri... hahaha... Jg meja yg paling heboh... Ketawa2 ngakak... Trz ada yg daging bebekna jatuh ke dlm teh... Trz ada yg crita soal td di karaoke... Pokokna grup kt heboh abiz deh... pas di mobil menuju furama, tmn2 1 mobil ak semua pd ngoceh mrh2 soal td di room karaoke ada org nyebelin yg sok pikir suarana bgz... Haha... Ak mah cmn blg, makana ak lebih milih dugem... Wakaka... Emank lebih enak dugem... Pas dugem ak inget ama alan gor2... Haha... Soalna dolo org pertama yg ngajak dugem ito alan gor2... Hahaha... Akhirna biz kt semua mkn, pas uda berdiri, meja kt heboh abiz... Sampe pke acar KANPEI segala... Hahaha... Pokokna kt ga mo kalah deh ama yg nyebelin ito... Wakaka... Biz ito kt plg... Kt 1 mobil ngmngin org nyebelin lge... Wakaka... Pas plg ak ga bs bow2... Ak khwtr ama ayank yg lom plg... Ak tggin ampe dia plg rmh br ak bow2... Ak jg uda zmzin dia blg klo dia plg n uda bow2 br ak bow2... Akhirna dia dugem ampe jam 5 br plg... Ak jg belain ampe jam 5... Tp pas dia uda plg jam 5 ito, dia zmz, ak blz... Akhirna kt zmz ampe jam 5 lebih hampir jam 6, ak malez ketik zmz lge... Akhirna ak epon dia... Kt ngobrol bentar... Trz ak lgsg suruh dia bow2... Soalna ak tao dia paste capek bgtz... Walaupun ak kesel... Tp ak mse bs gmn?? Ya gak??... Cmn bs trima la... Akhirna ak jg ketdrn.. Jam 7an dibgnin... Haha... Untung ga telat2 bgtz bgnna... Trz ak mandi n turun kerja... Mama suruh print buku bank... Eh mama tiba2 turun bw nasgor n mulai deh ngoceh... "Ini uang km tranfer ke mana?? Km jgn buat keslhan... Ma percaya ama km... Jgn krn dia anterin km molo trz dia blg pinjem uang km pinjemin lgsg... Bla bla bla..." Capek deh kuping ak dgrna... Bnrn ak capek bgtz... Pucing ak dgrna... Ga tao mao gmn lge... Udah la... Anggap aja ada burung lewat... Wakaka... Udah akh... Ak lge bt... Ga pengin tulis bnyk... Bubye... muakz...take care...

AKit2an tP m@s3 b3l@2in k3lu@r..DeMi AyaNk..

2007-04-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

Hai... Ak kemaren biz jln2 ke mega mall... Ak ke gereja... Trz sempet2in shopping... Walaupun mase akit... hehe... Ak pas ito tmnin tmn beli baju... Akhirna ak kepikiran ayank ak mao maju interview... Akhirna walaupun ak uda capek, ak tetep bela2in mao beliin dia baju... hehe... Ak pertama x beli baju buat cwo lho... Haha... Ga nyangka dia cwo pertama... Trz kemaren pas plg rmh, mbak uda kabur.... Mase brani ambil uang mama kabur... Haiz... Ga tao mao gmn lge... Trz ayank tlp ak... Kt ngobrol hampir 1 jam... hehe... Ayank baek deh... Ak tambah sayang deh ama ayank... Kt ngobrol bnyk... Biz ngobrol, ak muntah... Hehe... Ternyata akit ak ito lom sembuh... haha... yah, mao gmn sembuh... Ga ada waktu istirahat jg... Capek bgtz.... Biz ito ayank jemput papa... Pas mao jln, ayank zmz, laporan klo uda mao jln... Pas ampe bandara, ayank jg laporan uda sampe... Pas uda ketemu papa n uda mao plg, ayank jg laporan uda mao plg... Pas uda sampe rmh, ayank laporan jg... hehe... Ak yg suruh... Soalna ak khwtr bgtz ma dia... Soalna dia biz minum obat... Takut obatna ngaruh ke ngantuk... Jadi ak suruh dia haruz laporan... Biz ito kt zmzan... Tp semlm zmzan ga lama koq.. Cmn zmzan ampe jam 11an... Trz kt sama2 uda ngantuk... Akhirna bow2 bareng deh... Dia klo ak ga bow2, dia jg ikutan ga bow2... Gmn ga ngantuk ak jg ttp hrz paksain bow2... Hehe... Trz td siang pas dia uda sampe, dia zmz ak... Ak ga tao dia zmz... Akhirna dia masuk ke kantor... Ak langsung kase hadiahna ke dia... Dia malu2 gto... Lucu deh... Trz ak ajak dia ke sblh... Eh, dia tiba2 langsung tium bibir ak... hehe... Dia hari ini imoet deh... Jd tambah sayang... Haha... ydah yak... Mao beresin kerjaan... Soalna mao zmzan ama ayank... Miss u all... Ayank... I luBh U...

AkiT :(( Hicks...

2007-04-13T20:57:00.000-07:00

Hai all... Ak kmrn akit... Muntah2...Gila... Dr jam 4 pagi muntah ampe mlm... Bayangin aja... Buset... Trz kmrn abiz ke dokter ak langsung ke kamar bow2... Sampe jam 5 br bgn... haha... Biz ito ak turun ke bawah ketemu ama ayank... Hehehe... Abiz ak kangen ama ayank sich... Hehe... Ayank "dimarahin" mama dengan nada canda... Soalna mlm seblumna ayank bawa ak ama tmn pge mam di warung pinggir jalan... Dah la... Ga apa2... Cmn yah maklum la... pikiran orang tua emank gto... Untungna ayank ga marah krn ito... Ayank baek deh ama ak... Ak sayang bgtz ama ayank... Hehe... Trz... Ayank kmrn dgr ngmngan ak lho... Dia sore uda plg rmh... Org rmh paste kaget... Haha... Soalna dia tiap x plg paste pas semua org uda bow2... Bandel bgtz kan dia... Pdhal kan dia ito uda mao akit... Mase aja kyk gto... Bandel deh dia... Haha... Ak kmrn bow2 jam 12an... Sambil zmzan ama dia... Eh ak malah ketdran... Ga nyangka dia tggin zmz ak sampe jam 2.. O M G... Mampos deh ak... Tega bgtz sich ak tglin dia... Haha... Tp dia ga marah ma ak... Hehe... Baek kan ayank ak... :p... Ak kmrn bow2 sambil peyuk bear dr kk... Kmana sich kk... Koq kk ilang gto aja sich... Knapa kk gto sich... Tega bgtz sich kk ama dd... Pdhal kan dd khwtr ama kk... Kk, klo kk sayang ama dd, kk cr dd.. kk kontek dd... Dd tgg kk... Ak jd kangen ama kk... Oh iya, td ak epon ayank... Bgnin ayank gto lho... Biasa la... Eh ayank malah uda bgn cmn blom mande... Haha... trz kt ngobrol bentar... Langsung ak suruh mande... Ak tanya ke dia napa dia ga tanya napa ak epon... Dia langsung blg iya babe, napa telpon... Kangen kan ama ak... Gto... Haha... Lucu deh dia... Imoetz bgtz... Dia ga cakep... Dia ga secakep cwo laen... Ak jg ga tao napa ak bs sayang ama dia... Ak akit tp dia mase brani tium ak... Dia ga takut akit... Hehe... trz td pas mao tutup epon, guess wad... He say bye babe... Love u... Gto... Duch... Seneng deh ak... Hehe... Aduh... Ayank hr ini so sweet deh... Tp ak mase mual... Hahaha... Capek deh ak... Ayank cptan dtg dunkz... Ak uda kangen bgtz... Kmrn cmn ketemu bentar soalna... Miss u ayank... Love u too ayank...

My LovE

2007-04-10T18:51:00.000-07:00

You're the person living in my heart
and the person that I've treasured so.
Because you were so special
I couldn't hold you
because I had never given anyone happiness before

I love you who's never laughed a tease.
When I was happy or sad
you cried and laughed with meand
I want to do anything I can foryou.

Hello my love, my love I'll protect you now.
Thank you for putting up with me and
waiting for me.

Hello my love, my love I'll love you forever.
When I'm born again
I want you to be the one I love.
Let's be a lamp to each when we've
lost our way in the dark night.
Even if the rain wind drives us back,
don't let go of these two hands holding you now.
You were always by my side when I was worn and pained.
I had used "I'm sorry" in place
of "thank you".

Hello my love, my love I'll protect you now.
Thank you for putting up with me and
waiting for me.

Hello my love, my love I'll love you forever.
When I'm born again
I want you to be the one I love.
Even if I fall down and fall down
again and again,
if I have you then I know I can stand back up again.

Hello my love, my love I'll protect you now.
Thank you for putting up with me and
waiting for me.

Hello my love, my love when I call you like this
I'm so happy I could cry, I love you.

NiGhtY NigHty NiGhT...hehe..

2007-04-09T18:35:00.000-07:00

Kmrn ito ak agak bt sich... Soalna hp dia ga ada pulsa... Jd ga bls zmz ak molo... Makana pengaruh ke mood ak... hehe... Apalge pas mlmna ak epon dia, dia malah ada kerjaan... Wadooh... Bnran deh... Akhirna ak bt deh... Trz bis ito ak muntah2... Masuk angin trz dikerok ama temen sekamar ak... Sambil nonton... Agak2 bt sich but then dia epon... Hehe... Dia epon ak... Kt ngobrol 1 jam... Hahaha... Sampe2 ada epon bunyi dia ttp ga angkat... Ttp ngobrol ama ak... Hehe... Sampe koko na panggil suruh mam dia jg ga mao... Katana nante aja br mam... Haha... Bnran deh... Ak semlm seneng bgtz... Iya... Ak seneng... Rasa bt ak ilang... Dia blg kasih sayang ak diobral... Trz ak tanya lge, mank km pernah liat ak tium org laen?? Mank km pernah liat ak dkt ma org laen?? Mank km pernah liat ak perhatian ma org laen?? Hahaha... Dia jawab enggak semua... Trz ak blg km tu yg sayang na diobral... Eh dia malah tanya balik ke ak... Hahaha... Trz kt ngobrol... Wah... Pokokna ak seneng deh semlm... Ak ga nyangka dia sampe rumah biz mande langsung epon ak... hehe... Bnran deh... Trz kt janjian mlm ini mao mam mlm brg... Hehe... Tao ga kmrn sore, kan ak hrz anterin anak br ke kost belakang rmh ak, trz ak ajak dia ikut bareng... dia ikut... Trz pas jln ke belakang, dia gandeng tangan ak... Bnyk yg liatin... Hehe... Ak ga tao napa kmrn dia manis bgtz deh ama ak... Haha... Sampe2 dia tium ak molo... hehehe.... Bnran... Haha... Jujur, semenjak dia hadir dlm hidup ak, hidup ak penuh dengan tawa... Ak ga pernah nangis lage... TUHAN, makasi ANDA sudah memberikan dia kepada diriku... Ak kan selalu menghargai dia... Makasi...

TitL3??HeM...DunO wAd TitL3...

2007-04-08T20:12:00.000-07:00

Dia bnran uda ga kontek ak lage... Jg uda ga cr ak lage... Ak ga tao mao cr kemana... Jujur, ak lumayan kangen ama dia... Apalge tiap ak di kamar, peyuk bear yg diberikan oleh dia... Ak tambah kangen ama dia... Walaupun dia hadir dlm hidup ak ga lama... Tp jujur, ak sayang ma dia... Krn dia selalu ada buat ak... Dia selalu hadir ketika ak membutuhkan dia... Ketika ak sedang sedih... Tp, hal ini ga lage terjadi... Suatu saat ketika ak sedang sedih bgtz, dia ga hadir... Malahan seseorg yg laen hadir... Seseorg yg ak br kenal... Seseorg yg dkt ama ak... Seseorg yg mulai sayang ma ak and ak mulai sayang ma dia... Seseorg yg sejak hadir dlm hidup ak, ak mulai memenuhi hidupku dgn tawa dan senyum... Seseorg yg bs mengerti diriku... Seseorg yg butuh kasih sayang dan perhatian khusus... Dengan dia hadir dlm hidupku, hidupku penuh dengan tawa... Makasi bgtz... tetapi, bagaimana baekna org ito, posisi dia dlm hatiku ga bs ditempati... Dan ak hanya bs menunggu dia untuk kembali mencari ak... Dan sementara ak menunggu, ak akan membiarkan diriku untuk lebih mengenal W... Lebih deket dengan W... Ak mulai sayang ama W... ak jg ga tao sejak kapan... Tp, ak bnran mulai sayang ama dia... Ak jg ga tao napabs kyk gini... Inget kt pernah keluar bareng ama Iv... Kt pge nonton... Kt pge maen... Inget jg pertama x dia gandeng tangan ak... Gandengan dia membuat ak merasa nyaman dan aman... Ak jg ga tao... Tiap dia ada mslh, ak rela ga bow2 cmn tmnin dia ngobrol... Buat dia seneng... Buat dia ketawa... Asal dia seneng, ak jg ikut seneng... Ak ga tao knapa bs kyk gini... tp jujur, ak bahagia ketika ak bersama dia... ketika ak ngmngin dia... Makasi TUHAN telah mengirim dia kepada ak... Makasi TUHAN atas pengiriman mu... Happy Easter Day for everyone...

葉子的離開，是因為風的追求，還是樹的不挽留

2007-04-08T19:52:00.000-07:00

我很喜歡其中一句話：「葉子的離開，是因為風的追求，還是樹的不挽留。」
倘若你愛上一個人，千萬別裝作無所謂毫不在乎，愛情，玩不起心理戰呀！

趕快跟你的他表白吧 !!

樹

會叫樹的原因，是因為我擅長畫水彩畫，最愛畫樹，久而久之，我的畫作右下方索性以一棵樹來代表我。
高中三年交過五個女朋友，有一個女孩子，我很愛她，卻遲遲不敢追，她沒有美麗的面孔，沒有姣好的身材，沒有撩人的魅力，一個再平凡不過的女孩子。

我喜歡她，真的真的很喜歡她，喜歡她的單純，她的直率，她的可愛，她的智障，她的脆弱。
不追她的原因，也許是潛意識覺得平凡如她配不上我；也許是因為怕在一起後，一切的好感都會消失；
也許是怕外人的指指點點傷害了她；也許是覺得，她會是我的，不用急著為了她而放棄一切。
最後這個原因，讓她陪了我三年，讓她看著我和別的女孩子廝混了三年，讓她心痛了三年。

她很想當一個好演員，但我卻像一個嚴苛的導演。我和第二個女朋友在廁所接吻，被她撞見，她尷尬的笑笑說：「Go ~ on！」然後跑掉，第二天，她眼睛腫得像核桃一樣，我故意不去猜想是誰讓她哭成這樣，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家後，在教室哭了起來，她不知道練球回來拿東西的我，看了她一個多小時。

我的第四個女朋友，一直很不喜歡她，有次她們兩個吵了起來，我知道依她的個性不會去惹事，但我還是護著女朋友，她被我吼了一下後，愣住，眼淚滑了下來，我無視她的眼淚，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依舊嘻嘻哈哈的和我開玩笑，我知道她很難過，但她不會知道我的心不比她好受。

當我和第五個女朋友分手時，我約她出去玩，玩了一天，我對她說：「我有事要對妳說。」她說：「真巧，我也有事要對你說。」「我和她分手了。」「我和他在一起了。」我知道「他」是誰，他追她也有一陣子了，是個蠻可愛的男孩子，活潑有趣，充滿了熱情，追她追得滿城風雨。

我不能表現自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但當我回到家，心中的痛楚強烈得令我無法承受，像有個千斤重的石頭壓在我胸口，我無法呼吸，想大叫卻叫不出來，眼淚竟然滑了下來，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看著她為了那個不願承認的人掩面大哭。

畢業典禮時，我在手機上發現了一封簡訊，這是十天前，我掩面大哭時傳來的，只是我一直沒有去開過機。
「葉子的離開，是因為風的追求，還是樹的不挽留。」

葉子

高中時，喜歡蒐集葉子，why？因為我覺得，一片葉子要離開它長期依賴的樹，好勇敢哩！高中三年，我和一個男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那種好，是好朋友那種好，但是，在他交第一個女朋友時，我學會了一種不該有的感覺，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一顆檸檬可以比喻，那就像是100顆臭酸的檸檬，酸到不行，他們只在一起兩個月，當他們分手，我還得掩飾自己心中強烈的喜悅，但是一個月後，他和另一個女孩子在一起。

我喜歡他，也知道他喜歡我，可是，他為什麼總是不追我呢？明明喜歡彼此，為什麼不行動？每當他交一個女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打擊，讓我不禁懷疑，是我一廂情願嗎？不愛我，為什麼要對我那麼好？他對我的好，已經不是普通朋友可以做到。喜歡一個人，好難過，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的習慣，唯獨他對我的感覺，我猜不透，難道要我這個女孩子去開口嗎？

儘管如此，我還是想在他身邊，關心他，陪他，愛他，也許算是一種等待的行為，等待他回來愛我，就像每天晚上等他的電話，等他的簡訊，我知道，就算他再忙，也會撥出一些時間給我。這樣的等待，陪了我三年，等待是難熬的，是令人想放棄的，但等到的那一剎那，讓人第二天會繼續等下去。這樣的煎熬，這樣的痛苦，這樣的幸福，這樣的矛盾，陪了我三年。

直到三年級下學期，高二一個學弟喜歡上我，每天的熱情追求，令我從一開始的拒絕，漸漸願意挪出我心房的一些位置給他。他像一陣溫柔而持久的風，撩撥我這片搖搖欲墜的葉子，到最後，我發現我已經不想只留一點點的位置給這陣風，我知道這陣風，會帶我這片傷痕累累的葉子，到更幸福的地方。於是我離開了樹，樹只是笑笑，沒有挽留。
「葉子的離開，是因為風的追求，還是樹的不挽留。」

風

因為我喜歡的女孩子叫葉子，因為她有一棵令她依戀的樹，所以我要當一陣風，一陣呵護她的風。第一次看見她，是高二我轉來一個月後的事，個子小小的她坐在球場旁，一雙眼凝視著同和我在球場的學長，每天的社團時間，她總會坐在那裡，一個人，和朋友，她的眼光依舊凝視著他，當他和女孩子打打鬧鬧，她的眼中有淚，當他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的習慣，就像她愛看他。

有一天她沒來，我心中沒來由的焦慮與不安，我無法解釋那種感覺，除了不安，還是不安，而且那學長竟然也不在。我衝去他們教室，躲在外面，看著學長罵她，她的眼淚，他的離去。第二天，她依舊坐在場邊，看著他，我走過去，對她笑一笑，拿了張紙條給她，她先是驚訝的看著我，然後笑笑地收下。隔天，她拿著紙條出現在我面前，然後離開。
「葉子的心太沉重，風吹不動。」
「不是葉子的心太沉重，是葉子根本就不想離開樹。」

我回給她這段話後，她漸漸會和我說話，收我的禮物，接我的電話。
我知道她喜歡的不是我，但我還是有毅力一定要讓她喜歡上我，四個月內我告白了不下20次，每一次她都轉移話題，但我還是不會放棄，我決定要的人，我就一定會給它追過來！一直到不知道第幾次的告白，出了口，雖然知道她一定會又說到別的事，但還是有一絲絲希望她的答應，沒想到她都不說話，
「妳在幹嘛？怎麼不說話？」我對著話筒說。
「我在點頭。」「啊？」我不敢相信自己的耳朵。
「我在點頭！」她大聲叫。

我甩掉電話，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了機車，衝去她們家按門鈴，當她開門的那一剎那，緊緊抱住她。

「葉子的離開，是因為風的追求，還是樹的不挽留。」

DiFF3renc3 between BF and Friend..

2007-04-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。

普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生

普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。

普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。

普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。

普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。

普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。

愛上一ㄍ人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一ㄍ人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎
珍惜身旁的每一ㄍ人,不要等到失去了才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....
~※→因為你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

在此祝福全天下所以的有情人~都能夠忠誠眷屬~~

RasA K3ilaNgaN....

2007-04-02T20:02:00.000-07:00

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Lage blue... Makana tulisanna juga warna blue... Hahaha...

Dasar ulAR k3paL@ dUa...

2007-04-01T23:49:00.000-07:00

Dasar... Brp hari ini ak sebel bgtz... Bete bgtz... Skt hati bgtz... Ak sebel deh... Sebel ama si S... Dasar... Knapa sih dia berubah gto... Erkh... Sebel bgtz... tega bgtz sih dia nyakiti hatiku... Pdhal ak begto sayang ma dia... Begto dukung dia... dasar ular kepala dua... Di depan ak, dia baek bgtz ma ak... Di belakang ak, ternyata dia jelek2in ak... Apa sih hak dia untuk lakukan ito?? Apa sih...!!! Ak sebel deh... Bkn cumen ito... Dia jg boongin ak... Ak paling benci deh... Erkh..... Apa sih salah ak sampe dia tega gto ama ak... Apa sih salah ak... Cemburu krn ak dkt ma cwo laen?? Gto?? Tp kan bkn gini carana... Huh... Bkn cumen dpn org... Tp dpn sohib ak sendiri... ternyata ak salah nilai org... Salah besar.... Ga kan ak percaya ama dia lage... Di saat ak uda sakit hati, dia br minta maaf... Apa gunana penyesalan setelah semua sudah berlaku?? !!! Sebel bgtz deh... Ga kan ak percaya ma dia... Ga akan... Ak maafin dia... tp kykna klo mao ak dkt lge ma dia, kykna cumen bs say sorry deh... Dia skrg br tao rasana keilangan ak apa... Apa sih hak dia untuk nyakitin ak kyk gini... Dia ito uda bkn pcr ak... Jd dia ga berhak nyakitin hati ak... Ak sebel bgtz ma dia... Huh... Dia mase tanya lge napa ak ga pernah zmz dia doloan... Wek... Sapa yg mao zmz org kyk dia... Wek... Ydah yak... MAo kerja...bye...

Mati Lampu... Busyettttttttttt!!

2007-03-28T22:16:00.000-07:00

Semalem terjd sesuatu yg gile... Suer deh... Hal yg paling gile yg pernah terjd pd diriku... Kan semlm dr sore sampe tengah mlm mati lampu... Ak pas lage mam lge.. Huh... Untungna mata ak klo liat mknan mase bs liat... Wakakaka.... Jd mase bs mam... hahaha... Abiz ito ak mandi... Biz mandi ak naek ke kamar... Wah... Minta ampoen deh... Puanas buangetz... Trz ak duduk di atas teres... Sambil dgr lagu sambil zmzan sambil ngmng tlp... hahaha.... Biz ito krn digigit nyamuk, ak masuk ke dlm kamar... Pas ito uda jam 9an... Bayangin aja... Uda selama ito lom ada lampu... Panasna minta ampoen deh... Akhirna ak hampir ketiduran di kamar... Krn sesak napas... Akhirna ak buka BH:">... Pas ito uda hampir nyenyak bow2 na ketika tiba2 tmn ak zmz suruh ak turun soalna mama mao ngajak pge mam es krim... Ak lupa pke BH...Wakakaka.... Sampe uda di mobil uda di tengah jln br sadar.... Bayangin aja... Pge mam es krim nona di pangeran jayakarta tanpa pke BH... O M G... Malu abiz deh.... hahaha.... Gile bgtz kan... Ak pke baju tanpa lengan lge... Weh... Tambah seksi deh ak... Wakakaka.... Gile kan... Hahaha... Trz jam 10an jam 11 an kt plg... Pas plg mase mati lampu... Huh... Ak sampe kepanasan... Sampe marah2 sendiri di kamar.... Wakaka.... Trz pas ito ak lge zmzan ama Alim... Dia jg br sampe rmh... Pas lge tlpnan ama dia, mama masuk... Ydah... Ga jd ngmng tlp deh... Trz lanjut dgn zmzan... Wakaka... Udah akh... Ak semlm sebel bgtz... Digigit nyamuk sampe bentol2... Pdhal selama ak tdr di kmr ito ga pernah digigit nyamuk... Huh... Ampoen deh... Ydah yak... Mao ketemu doi dolo:">... Bye...

HaPPy Ev3n1nG.. :">

2007-03-27T21:11:00.000-07:00

Kemaren ak kerja ampe mlm lage... capek deh... Tp ak ditemenin ama TTM... Hehe... Mama ke gereja trz TTM temenin ak ngobrol and maen... Haha... Kita liat poto2 yg ada di komputer ak... Trz dia liatin ak chatting trz ak on cam... Kase liat ke anak2 room TTM ak... haha... Trz ak suruh TTM ak pura2 jd cwo ak biar anak2 room kaget ak uda punya pcr... Haha... Eh semuana percaya... Hahaha... Ydah... TTM ak jg ga ngmng apa2... Dia ok2 aja jd cwo ak... hehe... Trz ak ceritain cerita antu ke TTM ama tmn ak... Haha... Tmn ak takut ama antu... Hahaha... Lucu deh... Trz ak opp tutup kantor and temenin dia org duduk di depan ngobrol... Kt cerita antu lge... Haha... Temen ak si Aden takut... Haha... Trz TTM ak si Alim bantuin ak godain si Aden... Haha... Kita pura2 ke belakang bareng... Ceritana mao pipis bareng... Hahaha... Eh si Aden malah loncatin meja trz teriak : " Dont leave me alone!" Hahaha... Syukurin... Mao kt cerita antu tp dia sendiri yg takut... Hahaha... Akhirna kt godain dia trz... Wakakaka... Trz kt poto2... Ak ama Alim dipoto... Hehe... Mesra deh kt... Ak tium Alim... Alim jg tium ak... Haha... Trz ada poto mesraan lage... hehe... Jadi malu... Ak pas liat poto2 ito ak jd ketawa sendiri... Lucu deh... Soalna si Aden jg ada pake video... Haha... Makana lucu pas ak liat kembali lage... haha... 1 malam ak ketawa sendiri krn liatin video sama poto2 ito.... hahaha... Bnran lucu deh... Minta ampun... Hahaha... Ydah yak... Mao intip Alim lage... hehehe... Bye....

HaPPy DufaN...

2007-03-26T19:26:00.000-07:00

Hahaha... Kemaren kt semua maen ke DUFAN... Mumpung ada diskon... Hehe... Pdhal kt mao jalan jam 10 tp gara2 nunggu temen2 yg laen akhirna jam 11an br jalan deh...rese bgtz kan ??!! Hahaha... Kt pge ber10an deh... Cwe 1 mobil n cwo 1 mobil but krn ga cukup tmpt akhirna ak ikut mobil cwo... haha... Enak jg sih soalna ga usah dempet2an... Haha.. Kan ak duduk dpn... Hehe... Trz pas sampe sono, kt tgg yg laen maen Ramashita... Huh... Tgg molo... Sampe kena ujan... Haha... Akhirna kt pge maen Planet War... haha... Enak deh... Si Thera sampe angkat kaki ke tmpt duduk... Trz si Alim sampe teriak kyk serigala... Ak malah teriak dikit ketakutan sih... haha... Trz biz maen Planet War kt maen Halilintar... Diajak ama cwo2 tp akhirna cwo2 pd ga maen... Cumen cwe yg maen... Cwo semuana "chicken" kan... Hahaha... Pas maen Halilintar palaku kejeduk... Cakitna minta ampun.. pas didkt mata lage... huh... Trz pas turun kt tgg si Alim jmpt Asang... Trz yg laen pge mam MCD... Ak malah duduk di dpn sendirian... Sambil zmzan and tlpnan tentuna... haha... Trz pas liat mereka, eh semuana pd foto ga ngajak2... Ydah... Akhirna ak ga ikut... Haha... Trz bis ito kt maen Bumper Car... Ampeon deh tabrakanna... Akit bgtz... Ak ditabrak ama si Alim sampe pinggangku akit... Trz ak tabrak balik dia... Trz cr sasaran laen..Haha.... Akhirna ak tabrak Asang... haha... Semuana maen sampe teriak2... Seru deh soalna 1 Bumper Car kt2 yg maen doang... Haha... Trz kt maen Kura2.... Wah... Ampoen deh seru na... Group kt teriak kyk org gila... Haha... Kt teriakin si Aden "chicken"... Soalna dia duduk tengah sih... pdhal kt cwe2 brani duduk belakang.... Huh... haha... Suer deh... Ak maen Kura2 enak sih tp suer...Takut bgtz... haha... Bayangin aja ak sampe peluk si Asang... haha... Trz sambil teriak2 gto... Si Asang malah ketawain ak... Muka ak sampe merah... Haha... Biz ito kt maen Mirror Room... Eh si Asang ketemu jalan keluar malah tglin kt semua... dasar kan tu anak... Haha... Biz keluar dr Mirror Room, kt poto2... Ak poto ama Alim, Aden n Asang... haha... Biasala... Cwe kan suka poto2... hehe... Trz kt naek Niagara... Eh yg cwo pd pge... Cumen Sir yg ikut kt... Pas naek Niagara, kt cwe2 teriak2... Haha... Yg cwo dibwh liatin malah ketawain kt... Trz pas perahuna turun kt semua basah... Ampoen deh... Trz ak langsung peyuk si Alim... Biar dia ikutan basah jg... haha... Lucu deh... Dia malah peyuk ak jg... haha... Trz kt masuk ke Istana Boneka... Pas didlm rombongan kt plg gila and bnyk tingkah deh... Ak sampe maen air n siram si Alim... haha... Biz ito kt maen Arung Jeram... Cwe 1 perahu n cwo 1 perahu tp yg cwe malah tglin ak akhirna ak 1 perahu ama cwo... Ampoen deh ama cwo2... Mrk semua ga mao duduk... Berdiri... Akhirna ak jg ikut berdiri sambil dipeyuk ama si Alim biar ga jatuh... Haha... Tp ak jg kena basahna... Gara2 si ALim tiba2 berdiri... Hem... haha... Trz bis ito kt jalan ke Ancol... Mam di tengah lautan... Wah... Romantis deh klo bkn ama rombongan gila kt... Hahaha.... Si Alim mam spagehetti... Akhirna ak "curi" dikit jg... haha... Trz kt biz mam langsung pulang... Eh si Alim malah jd mesum... hahaha... Sampe di mobil dia jg mase mesum... Sampe ak pulang rmh... Di tengah jalan ak ama dia ga tao deh ngmngin apa sampe ketawa2... haha... Yg laen dibelakang ga tao ketawain apa... pdhal 1 mobil tp hal yg diketawain beda2... Hahaha... Yg diketawain Alim ama ak kan cumen kt ber2 yg tao... Haha... Pokokna kemaren seru abiz deh... ga nyesel ak pge ma dia org... Walo dikit capek... haha... Bnran deh... Klo bs ak pengin pge lge... haha... Ydah yak... Cerita DUFAN sampe sini... Mao kerja... Wakakaka... Bubye....

Kej@d1aN S3n3nG and LucU..!!

2007-03-20T19:02:00.000-07:00

Haha... Dia uda pulang... \:d/\:d/\:d/... Haha... Ga tao napa... Pas kemaren ak bgn jam 6 lebih, ak liat hp... wadoooh... Bnyk misscall... Bnyk zmz... Salah satu dr dia... Wakaka... Dia uda pulang... Ga tao napa ak langsung seneng gto trz langsung bgn zmz dia... Akhirna dia epon.. Wakaka... Duh... Seneng bgtz deh... Hehe... Ga tap napa kehadiran dia bs bikin ak seneng... Dia jg pengertian... Klo ak ga angkat tlp dia ato ga bls zmz dia, dia ga marah... Hehe... Dia baek bgtz... Kemaren ak jg seneng krn doi ku suapin ak mam di dpn bnyk org... Pdhal dolo doi ga berani... Trz doi jg suapin ak mam permen... Hehe... Mase ada lho... Doi jg minum air 1 gelas ama ak... Hehe... Pdhal bnyk yg liatin tp doi cuek aja... Haha... Tapi mase ada yg bikin kaget... TTM ak... Dia hampir tium ak di dpn bnyk org... Dia hampir tium ak... Bnran bikin ak kaget deh... Ga bs dipercaya... Di dpn doi ku lge... O M G... Haha... Trz dia gandeng tgn ak... Hehe... Gandeng tgnku ke arah doi ku... Pas doi ku suapin ak, ito pas di dpn TTM ku... TTM ku liatin sampe melongo... Hahaha... Pokokna kmrn seneng n lucu2 deh kejadianna... Haha... Ydah la... Juga ga bs tulis panjang2... Uda wktna kerja... Take care semuana... Bubye... Lubh u all...

P3ras@aN yG m3mbInUnk@N..!!!

2007-03-15T18:43:00.000-07:00

Hem... Berapa hari ini ak ga mood bgtz... Sakit hati... Sedih... Kalian yg baca blog ini paste ngerasa aneh.. Inget ak pernah tulis ak uda dapat pcr yg baek... Yg pengertian... Yg baek hati... Tp tao ga?? Emang bnr dia baek... Emang bnr dia pengertian... Emang bnr dia penyayang... Tp skrg pas ak uda bnr2 mulai syg ama dia, dia malah blg ga mao pcran dolo... Ak bnr2 ga ngerti deh... Klo emang dia maona gto, knapa dia ga blg dr awal?? Knapa dia mase memberikan ak harapan?? Knapa dia tega lakukan ito ke ak?? Ak bnr2 ga tao hrz gmn... Klo liat ak deket ma cwo laen, muka dia mulai cemberut... Huh... Ak bnr2 ga tao hrz gmn... Ak capek sakit hati molo... Ak capek... Ga ada tmpt curhat lage... Huh... Tao ga apa... Ak cumen merasakan kasih sayang yg tulus dr seseorg yg kini ga di sisi ak... Kasih syg yg diberikan oleh dia bnr2 tulus... Dia org yg sering ak ungkit dlm semua blog ak... Tp ak ama dia tetep ada jarak dan ga mgkn jarak ito bs dilangkahi... Jujur... Ak syg ama cwo ak yg 1 ini... Nama na Sang... Huh... Tp dia malah tega nyakiti hati ak truz... Suer deh... Ak ga tao hrz gmn... Berapa hari ini ak sering ga cukup tdr... Ak sering nangis... Ak sering ga mood kerja... Sejak hari minggu lalu dia mulai berubah... Ak bnr2 ga tao hrz gmn... Ak capek bgtz... Apakah ak hrz berhenti menyayangi dia?? Dia aneh bgtz deh... Uda blg ga mao pcran, tp mase aja mao ak syg ama dia... Katana dia syg ma ak... Tp dia ga mao pcran dolo... Huh... Kdg dia nyebelin bgtz... Tp gmn nyebelin jg ak tetep syg ma dia... Apa ak emang hrz berhenti menyayangi dia?? Ak ga tao apa yg hrz ak lakukan... Klo ada yg tao, kase ak saran dunkz... Lama2 ak bs trauma jatuh cinta neeh... Walaupun uda 16x pcran, tp ak ga pernah sebinun ini... Huh... Capek deh... Udah la... Ak ga mao mikirin dia lage... Pusing ak skrg... Mao kerja dolo... Yg ada saran, kase tao ak yak... Thanks... Bye....

Wh@t5 Fr13ndzzz

2007-03-13T22:39:00.000-07:00

Friends do things for one another

They understand

They go a million miles out of theirway

They hold your hand

They bring you smiles
when a smile is exactly what youneeded.

They listen and they hear
what is said in the spaces between
thewords

They careand they let you know
you're in their prayers.

A friend can guide you,
inspire you,comfort you,
or light up your life with laughter.

A friend understands your mood
sand nurtures your needs.

A friend lovingly knows just what
you're after.

When good news come
as friend is the first one you turn to
When feelings overflow
and tears need to fall
friends help you through it all.

Friends bring sunlight into your life
They warm your life with their presence
whether they are far awayor close by your side.

A friend is a gift
that brings happiness
and a treasure that money can't buy.

Thanks for being my friend

WhY Wom3n @lwaY5 CrY....( FoR my d3ar35T Mom.)

2007-03-11T18:43:00.000-07:00

A little boy asked his mother "Why are you crying？"
　
一個男孩問他的媽媽：『你為甚麼要哭呢？』
　
　
　
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
　
媽媽說：『因為我是女人啊。』
　

　
"I don't understand," he said.
　
男孩說：『我不懂。』
　
　
　
His mum just hugged him and said, "And you never will"
　
他媽媽抱起他說：『你永遠不會懂得。』
　
　
　
Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
　
後來小男孩就問他爸爸：『媽媽為甚麼毫無理由的哭呢？』
　
　
　
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
　
『所有女人都這樣。』他爸爸回答。
　

　
The little boy grew up and became a man,
still wondering why women cry.
　
小男孩長成了一個男人，但仍舊不懂女人為甚麼哭泣。

Finally he put in a call to God;
and when God got on the phone,
he asked, "God, why do women cry so! easily?"
　
最後，他打電話給上帝；當上帝拿起電話時，
他問道：『上帝，女人為甚麼那麼容易哭泣呢？』
　
　
　
God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world;
yet, gentle enough to give comfort"
　
上帝回答說：
　
『當我創造女人時，讓她很特別。
我使她的肩膀能挑起整個世界的重擔；並且，又柔情似水。』
　

　
"I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth
and the rejection that many times comes from her children"
　
『我讓她的內心很堅強，
能夠承受分娩的痛苦和忍受自己孩子多次的拒絕。』
　

　
"I gave her a hardness that allows
her to keep going when everyone else gives up,
and take care of her family through sickness
and fatigue without complaining "
　
『我賦予她耐心，使她在別人放棄的時候繼續堅持，
並且無怨無悔的照顧自己的家人，渡過疾病和疲勞。』
　

　
"I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any
and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly"
　
『我賦予她在任何情況下，都會愛孩子的感情，
即使她的孩子傷害了她。』
　
　
　
"I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults
and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart"
　
『我賦予她包容她丈夫過錯的堅強
和用他的勒骨塑成她來保護他的心。』
　

　
"I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife,
but sometimes tests her strengths
and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly"
　
『我賦予她智慧，讓她知道一個好丈夫是絕不會傷害他的妻子的，
但有時我也會考驗她支持自己丈夫的決心和堅強。』
　
　
　
"And finally, I gave her a tear to shed.
This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
　
『最後，我讓她可以流淚。只要她願意。這是她所獨有的。』
"You see: The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair."!
　
『你看，女人的漂亮不是因為她穿的衣服、
她保持的體型或者她梳頭的方式。』
　
"The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes,
because that is the doorway to her heart
* the place where love resides."
　
『女人的漂亮，必須從她的眼睛中去看，
因為那是她心靈的窗戶和愛居住的地方。』

用平静的心去面对不平静的事；
用成熟的心胸去选择自己的未来；
Made with.... 缘分是找到包容自己的人。。。

每一个女人都很漂亮。。。
Every Women Is Beautiful...

When I read this, I cried... Now I realized how much my mom means to me... How great my mom is... How special she is... No matter what I do, she always forgive me... Now matter how hurt I made her feels, she always forgive me... Since young, I never have the chance to tell her that I LOVE HER... Since young I never have the chance to get her attention... Only with making her angry so I can get her attention... SInce young I never meet my mom often even we stay in a roof... Because she is busy working... When I woke ip in the morning, she havent wake up.. When I went to bed at nite, she havent got home... Since this half year, I just started to stay with her again after I have stay with my dad for 2 years... Now I am 17... I am getting adult... But yet I stil always make her angry... But after reading this, I just realized how strong my mom is... Without my dad around her, she stil can survive... I am really proud of her... I never have the confidence to tell my mom that I love her... I am a type of girl that cant say I LOVE U so easily to anyone... Include my famiie... Hem... But now, I will learn how to say that 3 words... Mom, I LOVE U... Thanks for everything u give me... Thanks for what u have taught me...

Wh3n tH3re Wa5 u & m3

2007-03-08T18:03:00.000-08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

45 tHinGs a G@l w@ntS frOm Th3iR bOyfri3nD..!!

2007-03-07T17:47:00.000-08:00

FoR3vEr LovE

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly

are you remembering this?

6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends

keep reading

11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!

..20 u need to show her you mean it too

21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. You buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still help

we might deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to get us things

26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school/work, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

are you still reading this u better be its important

31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she’s upset, comfort her remember this next time you are with her
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you love her. You’ll never know when she needs just a lil more love

This are 45 Things A Gal wants from their boyfriend... So sweet right??!! Hehe... If my boyfriend do all of this to me, for sure I will love him very much... haha... Hem... For boys who got Girlfriend, Cia you o... Good luck..!!

g@ tA0 m@o kAs3 JudUl aP@...

2007-03-06T17:40:00.000-08:00

Hem... Ak ga tao mao kase status apa... Hem... Cumen pengin tulis blog aja... Mengatakan mood and perasaan ak hari ini... Ak ga tao napa perasaan ak hari ini campur aduk... Sedih, seneng, marah... Bnyk deh... Ak jg ga tao mao gmn... Hari ini ak bgn jam 4am... Rencana mao tgg tlp dr org yg kusygi... Tp akhirna krn ak akit... Ak ketdran lage... Ak sebel... Pas dia tlp, ak ga tao... Pas ak tao, uda terlambat... Hem... Ak bnr2 nyesel deh... Knapa sih ak ga bgn... Duh duh duh... Pdhal kan ito kesempatan terakhir buat dgr suara dia... Ak bego bgtz sih... Huh... Sebel deh... Skrg ak cmn bs bersabar n tgg dia plg... Hem... Bear yg dia kase bnr2 bermakna buat ak... Tiap ak kangen n mengenang dia, ak peluk bear ito... Dan ito membuat ak merasa sedikit lebih nyaman... Semlm ak zmzan ama pcrku... Dia ga tao mao gmn... N ga tao mao anggap status kt apa... Jd ak ngambek... Trz dia tiba2 blg klo ak skrg suruh dia plg dr rmh tmnna, dia langsung plg... Ak jawab, ak bkn sapa2 km... Jd ak ga berhak atur hidup km... Dia jawab... Km berhak... Tanpa km atur hidup ak, hdp ak berantakan... Hem... Trz dia epon... Pas tutup dia zmz ak blg dia epon cmn mao dgr suara ak yg manja... Gto... Hem... N selama zmzan... Dia sering bgtz blg dia sayang ama ak... Cumen ak ga tao apa ito bnr... Dia blg semua yg dia lakukan ke ak, semua dia dolo ga pernah lakukan ke cwe mn pun... Ak bkn ga percaya... Cumen ak ga brani percaya... Hem.. Ak jg ga tao deh... Ak binun... Hem... Apa yg hrz ak lakukan?? Dia sampe blg ke tmn dia klo dia sayang bgtz ma ak... Dia jg mao ke amrik bersama ak... Dia blg ak adalah cwe terakhir yg dia knal di Indo... Hem... Suer deh... Ak ga tao hrz ngmng apa lage... Cumen bs biar wkt yg menjlnkan dan membuktikan... Udah yak... Mao kerja lage... Bye semuana... God Bless u all... Love u All...

P3r@saAn An3H..!!

2007-03-06T00:08:00.000-08:00

Hari ini aku merasakan sesuatu yg aneh... Aneh bgtz... Aku jg ga ngerti napa ak bs merasakan apa yg ak rasakan skrg... Td pagi ak ditlp ama seseorg... Seseorg yg penting bgt buat ak... Tp krn ak tdr jam 2 lebih, ak ga bgn angkat tlp ito... Skrg, ak sgt menyesal... Knapa ak ga bgn angkat tlp ito... Hari ini bnyk hal yg terjd... YG membuat ku ingin menangis sekuatna... Apakah ak bs mengatasi semua perasaan ku ini?? Ak jg ga paste... Ak ga tao apa yg hrz ak lakukan untuk tidak menangis... Td siang ak sempet chat ama dia... Tp dia ga blg n ngmng apa2 ke ak... Cumen blg dia kangen ma ak... Hem... Trz akhirna dia zmz ak... Kase tao ak dia mao pge... Pge Jambi untuk kerja... N ga tao kpn mao plg... Hem... Ak ga tao hrz ngmng apa lage... Dia jg ga pegang hp... Ak ga bs kontek dia... Hem... Knapa yak... Kykna hati ak skt bgtz... Ak sdh bgtz... Ak ga bs trima semua ini... Ak rasana mao nangis... Pengin bgtz nangis... Hem... Ak jg ga tao napa... Pdhal ak uda punya pcr... Pcr yg bnr2 sayang ma ak... Pcr yg bnr2 cinta ma aku... Pcr yg bnr2 perhatian ma ak... Pcr yg bnr2 pengertian ma ak... Pcr yg rela meninggalkan semua ke blkg demi ak... Pcr yg ak jg syg bgtz... Hem... Tp knapa... Dia mase membuat hatiku begitu kacau?? Sehingga ak bs nangis hanya krn dia mao pge?? Ak jg gak ngerti... Ak tambah ga ngerti ama diriku sendiri... Apa sih yg terjd pd diriku?? Apakah bnr tanpa ak sadari klo ak suka ama dia?? Ak sayang ama dia?? Ak jg ga tao... Yg ak tao, semenjak ak mengenal dia, kehidupan ak berubah... Ak jd lebih ceria... Mgkn krn ada dia yg mao berbagi suka dan duka dgn ku... Hem... Jujur, ak ga rela kalo hrz keilangan dia... Tp, ak jg gak mao keilangan pcrku ini... Hem... Ak ga mao memilih... Jgn biarkan ak memilih... Ak sayang ama mereka ber2... Udah la... Ak jg ga tao mao ngmng apa lage... Ak pusing... Pusing bgtz... Tambah tulis tambah mao nangis... Udah yak... bye...:-h... Semua yg baca, doain ak yak... Semoga semua yg ak lalui bs lancar2 aja... Love u all...

LovE aNd MaRriAgE...

2007-02-27T21:40:00.000-08:00

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him.Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regreted !!!! So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person....""What is marriage then?" the student asked.The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

This is story about love and marriage... U have to choose all ur life... Everything is depend on urself... Love who u wan to love before tis too late... Life is simple... But sometimes its hard... U have to choose between this n that... He and she... Here n there... So... Make a right choice... Don regret after choosing it...

Uwa@...LagE SeDiH...patAh HatI

2007-02-25T03:31:00.000-08:00

Hari ini minggu...Aku abiz ke gereja langsung plg... Soalna sendirian... Semlm pge nonton ama dd n pcr... Tp ini pcr br... Bkn yg lama... Pergi ama dia enak bgtz... Dd aku seneng punya "kaka ipar" kyk dia... Soalna klo keluar ditraktir truz... Haha... Trz kita jln.. N pge beli karcis nonton... Masuk ke bioskop kt duduk di paling ujung... Nonton... Dia kase aku pake jaketna... Bwin brg aku... Trz... Kita nonton... N aku ama dia maen hp sms... Hehe... Soalna ga enak ngmng... Dia perhatian bgtz ama aku... Pdhal aku bs minum sendiri tp dia malah mao suapin aku minum... N dia mao lho minum dr botol yg abis aku minum... Haha... Pokokna dia baek... Pas kt keluar dr mall, ternyata ujan... :o... haha... Akhirna kt tgg... Ada sejam x... Ujan makin kecil... Akhirna dia lepas jaketna buat aku ama dd... Tapi aku ga mao dd akit... Jd jaketna kase dd pke... Kt ke dpn... Dia gandeng tangan aku erat... Kt ke taksi... Abis tu dia mao byrin taksi aku... Akhirna aku ga mao... Ydah... Dia plg... Jujur, aku mulai sayang ama dia... Ga tao napa yak... Hehe... Hari ini minggu... Minggu sore ini aku epon mantan aku... Dia blg dia uda kawin... Ga tao napa... Hatiku pahit n skt... Mgkn krn mase sayang ama dia x yak... Aku jg ga tao... Hatiku skt... Sampe2 aku nangis demi dia... Bayangin aja... Klo sampe pcr aku tao... Bs gawat aku... Haha... Haiz... Ga tao deh... Belakangan ini ga ada tempat curhat... Mulai sedih neeh... Mulai bnyk pikiran... Krn koko yg biasa aku curhatin ga tao ilang kemana... Dia suka mengilangkan diri dr aku... Makana ito aku jd kesel ama dia... Bknna zmz kase kabar malah mengilang kyk gto... Capek deh... Udah lah... Capek aku... Belakangan ini bnyk pikiran... Bnyk percobaan... Cumen bs serahin ke TUHAn... Minta petunjuk... Semoga hub aku ama yg br ini lancar2 aja... Haiz... Udah yak... Lage sedih neeh... Bye semuana... Thanks for reading...

VaLeNtinE..

2007-02-13T18:47:00.000-08:00

Hari ini Valentine... Valentine taon ini agak laen... Rasana aneh... Taon-taon lalu klo valentine, ga ada pacar jg gak papa... Ya lewatin aja... Tapi taon ini laen... Uda ada pacar tp tetep aja ga bisa lewatin Valentine bareng... Kadang bnr ngerasa capek... Sedih deh Valentine taon ini tp cb tebak... Walaupun pacarku jauh, tp tetep epon lho... Selaen ito, aku jg dpt kado Valentine dr seseorg yg aku sayangi lho... Valentine taon lalu jg gini... Aku jg ga bs lewatin bareng pacar aku tapi dia ada epon n suruh temenna bawain hadiah ke rumah aku... Hehe... tapi pas ito, aku diepon ama mantan aku yg di Singapore... Kt ngobrol bareng selama 1 jam lebih boo... Bayangin aja... Jujur aku sayang ama dia... Bnran... Mungkin krn dia pacar g yg pertama x yak... Haha... G jg ga tao... Tapi lama2 g bs koq lupain dia... Cumen agak susah aja... Soalna dia mase suka epon n sms... Yah... Begto lah... Tapi gmn jg aku tetep seneng koq Valentine ini... Bnyk yg ucapin met Valentine... tadi pagi aku khusus bangun pagi jam 06:30 buat epon seseorg... Ngobrol ampe setengah jam... OMIGOSH... Sampe keabisan pulsa... Sekarang lge sekarat... Kagak ada uang isi pulsa... Sedih deh... hahaha... Tapi ga nyesel koq epon dia soalna seru sih ngobrol ama dia... N buat ilangin rasa kangen aku ke dia... hahaha... Aku tadi jg sempet epon pacarku... Dia blg imlek mungkin mao plg... Yah aku sih ok ok aja... Hahaha... Aku jg ga bs maksa dia mao plg ato ga... Hehehe... Udah yak... Mao nyambung chat n kerja...Wakakaka... N sekalian tgg kado dr tayank aku... Hahaha... Bye:-h... MET VALENTINE SEMUANA:*:X>:D<

2007-02-08T19:13:00.000-08:00

Hari ini... Saat ini... Aku bingung... Aku sedih... Mungkin krn ga lama lge aku akan pergi dr Jkt x yach... Aku bnran ga tao hrz gmn... Aku ga mao tinggalin tmn2 yg udah aku dptkan selama di sini... Aku bnr2 ga mao... Aku ga tao hrz gmn... Apalge aku di sini uda punya org yg aku sayangi... Aku capek klo mikirin ini... Aku pengin lari dr semua ini... Jalani kehidupan yg aku mao... Kehidupan yg selama ini aku impikan...Kehidupan yg penuh kasih sayang... Kesabaran... Dan bkn kehidupan yg penuh dgn kebencian n kemarahan... Tapi siapa yg tao akan semua ini?? Cumen aku... Hatiku... Blogku yg tao akan semua kesedihan hatiku... Aku ga tao hrz gmn... Terhadap doi, aku uda capek... Kadang au ga ngerasa klo dia sayang ama aku... Aku ga bs merasakan ito... Mungkin krn kt jauh... Aku jd bosen... Tp yg aku tao... Ini semua terjd krn dia ga bs kase g rasa aman... Bnyk kejelekan tentang dia yg muncul ditelinga ku... Apakah bnr dia bkn pilihan aku?? Aku capek ama dia... Ga tao hrz gmn... Tp aku mase sayang ama dia... Mase ga bs terima klo hrz keilangan dia... Aku ga tao hrz gmn... Haiz... Capek... Erm... Untungna ada satu org yg suka bikin aku tertawa... Dia baekkkkkkk bgtz... Ga pernah bikin aku kesel... Perhatian ma aku... Sayang aku... Pengertian... Dia selalu ada kerika aku memerlukan dia... Dia selalu memberikan aku dukungan... Aku jg sayang ama dia... Makana ito, aku mao dia bahagia... Kebahagiaan dia adalah kebahagiaan aku jg... Krn selama ini ga ada org yg kyk dia... Jujur, dr lubuk hatiku, aku rela buat apa aja untuk melihat dia bahagia... Aku mao liat dia bahagia... Jd, aku akan berusaha untuk membuatnya ketawa trz... Ito janji aku kepadanya... Hiduplah dgn bahagia... Miss u... GOD BLESS U...

Dear koko,

Kasih sayang yg diberikan oleh mu ito sgt berarti bagiku... Mungkin krn selama ini yg ku cari adalah kasih sayang yg kyk gini yak... Oleh ito aku bnr2 sayang ama koko... Aku jg mao liat koko bahagia... Koko janji ama aku yak... Hrz bahagia... Gak kira kapan... Dimana... Hrz tetep bahagia... ok?? Miss u ko...

Dr may yg paling imoetz...

Kelanjutan Kehidupann...!!!

2007-02-07T17:27:00.000-08:00

Selama ini... Hidup aku penuh dgn percobaan... Pernah aku meninggalkan TUHAN dengan alasan yg banyak... Tapi,akhirna aku tahu bahwa hanya TUHAN yg dpt mengubah hidup aku menjadi lebih baik... Tp kadang aku merasa bnr2 putus asa.. Apa yg bisa aku lakukan?? Aku hanya bisa pasrah menerima hdpku dan menjlni nya dengan kelerihan yg tidak diketahui org laen.. Org menganggap bahwa aku ini anak yg ceria tanpa haruz memusingkan hdp aku... Tp apakah mereka tahu bahwa hatiku sebenarnya sedang terluka n sakit??!! Aku bersikap ceria di hadapan org laen krn aku ga mao merela sedih.. Aku tao.. Yg aku mao adalah membuat n melihat org di sekeliling ku bahagia.. Asalkan mereka bisa bahagia.. Hdpku sudah bermakna.. Makanya ito aku sering pasrah dgn kehdpan aku.. Pasrah.. Pasrah.. N berusaha membuat org disekelilingku bahagia.. Menurut aku, asal bisa melihat org yg kita sayangi ito bahagia,maka ito sudah cukup.. Aku rela mengorbankan kebahagiaan ku hanya untuk membahagiakan org yg aku sayangi.. Mungkin org yg membaca ini akan berpikir bahwa aku ini bodoh.. Menukar kebahagiaan sendiri demi org yg disayangi??!! Gak mungkin bgtz.. Tp jujur aku pernah begto.. Makana aku berani ngmng kalo aku rela memberikan kebahagiaan ku kepada org yg aku sayangi supaya dia bahagia... Walaupun aku sendiri ga mungkin bahagia, tp menurutku, asal bisa melihat org yg aku sayangi ito bahagia, semuana aku pasrah.. Aku akan berusaha untuk bahagia... Kehidupan yg dijalani emang susah untuk ditebak.. Yang bisa kita lakukan hanyalah berdoa dan meminta kepadaNYA.. Karna DIA maha pengasih dan maha pengampun... Ketika sedih, carilah DIA krn DIA adalah pendengar yg paling setia.. Kehidupan ini... Jalanilah sesuai perintahNYA.. Jalanilah dengan penuh kesabaran... Aku hanya sebagai manusia biasa yg membawa pesan dariNYA... Kalau perlu teman, carilah aku.. Aku akan berusaha menjd pendengar yg setia...

Dear Koko,

KO, thanks bgtz atas dukungan koko... Mungkin dd cumen bisa mendukung koko lewat via hp.. Tp dd sayang ama koko... Dd berdoa untuk kk setiap mlm... Dd harap hubungan kt akan selamanya.. Dd bnr2 seneng punya kk kayak kk... Krn dd ngerasa dimanjain... Disayangin... Dikasihi... Makasi bgtz kk... Dan kalo kk perlu dd, kase tao dd langsung... dd akan berusaha untuk menolong kk... Kk, jalanilah hidup kk sesuai perintahNYA... Sabar dan tabah atas segala percobaan... Jgn pernah putus asa... Krn kk mase ada dd..!! Memintalah maka akan diberikan... Ketuklah make akan dibukakan... TUHAN maha pengampun... Datanglah padaNYA... Maka DIA akan mengampuni segala dosa kk... GOD BLESS U...!!

Dari dd yg paling sayang ama kk...

Kehidupannn.....!!!!

2007-02-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

Haiz...apa sih salah g sampe g hrz nanggung semua ini??G capek bgtz ama kehdpan g... Bnran capek... Hidup g uda diatur and ditetapkan dr dulu... G gak pernah punya kesempatan memilih jalan hidup sendiri... G bnr2 uda capek... Kapan g br bisa memilih?? Kenapa haruz kayak gini?? Apa emang g ga ada hak untuk memilih hidup sendiri?? Kenapa g haruz nanggung kesalahan org?? Mereka yg buat salah n g yg kena... Apa sih kehidupan?? Kenapa g ga pernah bisa merasakan kehidupan enak.. Bisa memilih jalan hidup sendiri?? Kadang g bnr pikir apakah ini adil?? G bnr pengin pergi dr semua ini... G pengin hidup sendirian... Alangkah enaknya kalo ada org yg bisa bawa g pergi dr segala ini... Memberi aku kehidupan yg baru... Dengan makna hidup yg baru... Kalau emang kamu org ito, datanglah padaku... Bawalah aku pergi dari semua ini... Berilah aku kekuatan... Krn hidup aku ini... Aku menjadi anak yg selalu mencari kasih sayang dr org laen... HAiz.... Udah la...capek g ngmng...laen x sambung...bye....

Duno wad Title to Give.. Just read On.. 3 language blog..

2007-01-31T17:54:00.000-08:00

几天都没UPDATE BLOG了。。哈哈。。因为我太忙了。。但我还是会找时间UPDATE我的BLOG。。我认识了一个人。。他很好。。他很疼我。。他很关心我。。他是我干哥哥。。他会每天打给我。。给我信息。。陪我聊天。。逗我开心。。在我伤心时，陪伴我。。在我需要朋友时，他会陪伴我。。我说一，他就会尽力听我。。好幸福有他这位哥哥。。我说闷，他会打给我。。陪我。。让我不会闷。。哈哈。。真的。。真的很幸福认识他。。

Didnt UPDATE BLOG for so long.. haha.. Because this few days very busy.. But dont worry.. Will still find a time to update my BLOG.. Hehe.. I've known a guy.. He is so good.. He is so cheerish to me.. He is so caring to me.. He is my foster brother lor.. But not the one in KCH o.. Its in INDO.. He owes call me.. Give me msg.. Chat with me.. Make me happy.. Whenever I am sad, he will accompany me.. Whenever I need friends, he will accompany me.. When I say yes, he will do his best to say yes too.. So proud to have brother like him.. When I say I'm bored, he will accompany me.. He will call me.. So that I am not bored.. Haha.. really.. Really proud to have him as brother.. He owes joke wif me.. So that I am not sad.. Haha.. Good rite??

Wah.. Udah lama ga UPDATE BLOG yak.. Haha.. Karna berapa hari ini sibuk bgtz.. Tp jgn takut.. Paste cari waktu Update BLOG koq.. Hehe.. Berapa hari ini g kenal ama 1 cwo.. Dia buaek bgtz.. Dia sayang bgtz ma g.. Dia koko angkat g.. Dia sering epon g.. Smsan ma g.. Ngobrol ma g.. Bikin g seneng.. Klo g sedih, dia paste hibur g.. Klo g butuh tmn, dia paste tmnin g.. Klo g blg 1, dia kan cb turutin g.. Seneng bgtz punya koko kayak dia.. Klo g blg bosen, dia paste tmnin g.. Epon g.. Biar g kagak bosen.. Haha.. Suer deh.. G seneng bgtz punya koko kayak dia.. Sering canda ma g.. Biar g kagak sedih molo.. Haha.. Bueak buanggettt kan?? Mase rela jd bel pagi g lge.. Biar g kagak telat bgn tdr.. haha.. Buaek bgtz deh orgna..

Buat koko :
Ko, thanks yak uda sayang bgtz ama dd.. Dd jg sayang bgtz ama koko.. Thanks uda hibur dd.. Thanks uda care ama dd.. Thanks uda hibur dd.. Thanks bgtz ko.. Dd ga bakalan lupain koko koq.. Gak kira dd di mana.. Dd paste sayang ama koko.. hehe.. Mgkn krn koko dewasa and bs ngertiin dd.. Makana dd ngerasa seneng bareng ama koko.. Dd ngerasa safe.. Dd ngerasa dimanja.. Suer, dd seneng bgtz ko.. Seneng bgtz.. Thanks GOD he let me met up with u.. Take care yak ko.. Bye..

Dari Dd mu yg pualing imoetz.. Hehe..

朋友。。。

2007-01-21T20:07:00.000-08:00

今天，这一天，我觉得好开心。。我和一个好久没沟通的人聊了很多。。一个我已经认识几年的人但没聊天过的人。。一个我没谈过心事的人。。今天，我们聊了很多。。他说了很多安慰我的话。。我没想到会聊那么多。。聊那么有意的东西。。说真，我很喜欢和他聊天。。也许因为他很成熟吧！！又或许因为他有和我一样的心痛感觉吧！！我也不懂。。只知道这次的谈话让我想回以前所发生的事。。在古晋。。在少团。。对每个人的回忆。。我现在要从新来过。。我不要再想那么多。。我的人生。。我的全部。。一切在古晋所发生的事，我都要忘记。。忘记那些让我心痛难过的回忆。。让我后悔的回忆。。算了。。我只能把它当做一个教训。。我现在最好的朋友是电脑。。只有电脑最了解我。。最痴心。。最好的朋友。。我的心事只有BLOG知道。。我的感受只有BLOG知道。。只有BLOG是我的谈心地方。。曾经被朋友出卖。。曾经被朋友伤害。。曾经因为朋友而哭泣。。曾经为朋友付出一切。。曾经因为朋友而出卖自己。。曾经因为朋友而失去一切。。朋友。。朋友。。什么是朋友？？我不知道。。我为朋友付出一切但却得到了伤痛。。好难受哦。。什么是友情？？被朋友出卖。。我受够了。。真的好难受。。我已经不能再相信朋友了。。朋友让我的心真的很痛。。朋友。。哈哈。。好美的词。。但却很会伤人的心。。我对朋友，只能以平时的感觉对待。。我不要再伤心了。。我觉得我应该多爱自己。。而不是爱别人。。这是我的人生。。我不会再为朋友而伤心。。大家，谢谢你们看了我的BLOG。。要找朋友，我是最好的朋友。。我会痴心的听你们诉苦。。大家要开心哦！！多疼自己！！

他！！他！！他！！我爱的人！！

2007-01-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

好想他！！他是谁？？我也不知道。。他是一个我很爱的人。。他在去年走进了我的人生。。开始陪伴我渡过每一天。。他开始成为我心中最重要的人了。。他的人很好。。很关心我。。很疼我。。很在乎我。。但我却伤害了他。。伤了他的心。。等到我快失去他后，我才后悔我所做的一切。。想很多办法去挽回我们的感情。。结果，我成功挽回我们的感情。。我们又开始交往了。。那种交往的感觉，真的好爽哦。。好开心。。好温暖。。好幸福。。因为有人关心。。有人爱护。。我好喜欢那种感觉。。尤其是来自他。。因为他，我学会了不要伤害自己爱的人。。开始学会真正爱一个人。。我好喜欢他哦。。好疼他。。我不想再失去他。。不想要再伤害他。。爱上他，我应该不会后悔。。因为我能感觉到他爱我。。他真的很疼我。。他愿意见我eventhough只是几分钟。。从老远的家，来到我的补习，见我。。我真的好喜欢他。。好爱他。。嘻嘻。。和他渡过了两个月多的感情。。每天晚上都会玩信息。。我以为他不爱我了，但是他还会每天给我信息。。生气如果我没给他信息。。如果我叫他打电话给我，他会立刻打给我。。好喜欢他哦。。我真的希望我能够和他永远在一起。。因为我爱他。。我喜欢他。。不想再次失去他。。不想再失去我爱的人。。因为那种感觉很心痛。。很难受。。我不想再失去他。。失去自己爱的人。。好了啦。。我要做工了。。爱自己爱的人。。不要等到失去后才后悔。。

About Him...!!!

2007-01-17T18:48:00.000-08:00

He..!! He..!! He..!! He is someone I just know for few months.. Someone that I really feel thanksful cos I can know him.. Someone that I care for.. Someone that I love.. He..!! I never see him in reality before.. I just saw him through webcam.. When I first know him, he is in Arizona.. He will online every day.. He is kind.. He is friendly.. He is my "cousin".. A "cousin" that I never know before.. Hehe.. Sometimes when I feel depressed or sad or even lonely, he is always there for me.. To support me.. To comfort me.. I am really happy to know him.. To have him as my brother.. He really show me whats love mean to be.. He make me feel that there is love in this world.. I am not all alone.. He's background is a bit same like me.. He went to Los Angeles few months ago.. He went to LA to work.. To make assylum.. But yet, he havent done it.. Because he dun wana make it anymore.. He wana come back.. I also duno y.. But I am going there.. N I wish when I am there, he is still there.. Stil there to pick me up, to bring me walk n to meet me.. Tats all I wish.. hehe.. Actually I write this blog just for fun...haha..K la.. Wana do other things.. Hehe.. Bubye.. I miss u Koko Jeff.. Take care..

永远的爱！！

2007-01-09T17:15:00.000-08:00

曾经爱上一个很爱我的人，他是我在三年前所认识的一个人。。认识他，让我感觉到温暖。。我们由朋友开始做起，他是我前男友的朋友。。认识他时，并没有任何特别的感觉，只是觉得他人很好。。每一次和男友出去，他都会在。。不久后，我和男友分手了，因为他要去JOHOR做工，我也不勉强要他留下，也许因为我对他的感觉并没有太深吧？？！！他就这样去了。。我有点难过，毕竟他是我的初恋。。他走了之后，他的朋友还会陪伴我。。在我难过，伤心，快乐，他都会陪伴我。。直到有一天他开口对我说他喜欢上我了，其实他对我的感觉早在我还有男友时，就已经有了，只是他不敢告诉我，直到现在才有勇气告诉我。。其实，我也有点喜欢上他。。我就这样接受了他。。自从我接受他后，我的世界开始变得很美。。我觉得好开心。。我觉得好温暖。。我多么不想失去他。。和他一起渡过中秋节。。和他一起玩灯笼。。真的好开心。。但好事永远都不会留。。我爸知道我们的感情后，好生气。。说要报警等等。。要我和他分手。。否着他就不在是我爸爸。。我在没有选择的情况下和他分手。。我好心痛。。好难过。。在和他分手的那时刻，我在他眼中找到了眼泪。。我的心更痛了。。我在不知不觉的情况下掉下了泪水。。我真的好爱他。。我那时才知道什么是心痛。。我才知道失去自己所爱的人的感觉。。那天下午，他打电话给我，告诉我说，他不要分手，他要我们从新开始，其实我也想要，但我真的没有办法。。就这样，我失去了他。。他也去了JOHOR做工。。离开了他，我觉得世界好暗。。我没办法把灯亮起来。。失去他的感觉真的好痛。。就这样我们失去联络。。直到有一天，他打了一通电话给我。。对我说生日快乐。。我真的好快乐哦！！他给了我他的电话号码。。我留了起来。。那一次后，他再也没有打给我了。。时间就这样过去了。。我也换了很多男友。。但我还是无法忘记他。。无法放下他。。直到了我见到我第九个男友后，我慢慢能够忘记他，慢慢的放弃他。。但就在那时后，他又出现。。打电话给我。。在情人节那天，他打电话给我。。和我聊了一个钟头多。。那时我很开心，我们聊了很多。。从以前的事到现在的事。。他也说他其实还喜欢我只是我和他不可能在一起了。。和他讲完电话后，我男友打来，叫我下去因为阿豪来找我。。过后我就下去勒。。他已经在外面等我。。他把情人节礼物那给我。。说是我男友送的。。我拿了礼物就上去。。自从那天起，我和他一直通信息。。就这样通了一年。。不久他突然又失踪了。。我也没找他了。。直到去年的CHRISTMAS。。他给了我信息。。自从那天就没有信息了。。我和他。。我们的过去。。我们的回忆。。我都会好好的把它留住。。。成为我有过最美好的回忆。。GOOD PIG，你永远是我有过最好的男友。。我最爱的男友。。记得，要幸福哦！！我的祝福永远陪伴你。。我也不后悔爱上你。。不管以后怎样，我都会一直爱你。。只是我的爱并没有以前那么深。。再见了GOOD PIG。。

Tentang Aku Dan Dia...

2007-01-03T01:25:00.000-08:00

Hehehe.. Selama ini g tulis n edit blog pake bahasa english.. Jadi skrg mao ganti pake bahasa Indo.. Biar tmn Indo g ngerti isi blog g.. Hehe.. G pertama x plg ke Indo pas bln Agustus.. Kl g gak inget salah yak.. Hehe.. G dari Jawa ke Jkt naek pesawat.. Sendirian lho.. Hebat kan??!! Hehe.. G dijemput ama nyokap n 1 co lge.. Student nyokap g.. Namana Norman.. Orgna agak banci.. Hehe.. Tp suer, dia baek lho ma g.. Pertama x ketemu g, dia uda bs bercanda2 ama g.. Trz pas mao masuk mobil, g ga kuat angkat koper g, akhirna dia jg yg tlg angkat.. Pdhal berat bgtz lho.. Hehe.. Trz qta sampe rmh jam 6an deh kl g gak inget salah.. Dia tdr di rmh g jg.. Abiz mande g disuruh briefing dia soalna dia besok pagina uda mao maju ke embassy.. Ya, g turuti n tlg dia deh.. Dia orgna rajin belajar.. G hrz akui ito.. Hehe.. Akhirna g briefing dia brp x.. Trz dia uda bs.. Pagina, dia maju ke embassy.. Eh, pas plgna, ternyata dia GOAL.. Wah.. Seneng bgtz dia.. Haha.. Sampe senyum2 trz lho.. Hehe.. Abiz dia GOAL, dia ngobrol bentar ma qta org.. N plg deh dia ke Kalimantan.. G ngerasa keilangan tmn soalna g br plg dr Malaysia n Jawa.. Di Jkt lom ada tmn, n dia 1 1 na tmn g.. Apalge di rmh g gak ada org yg bs diajak ngobrol.. Semua sibuk dgn kerjaan masing2.. Yah.. Tp akhirna dia kembali ke Jkt jg.. Tp cmn nginep 1 hari trz langsung ke Jogja.. Yah.. G jd ngerasa keilangan lge deh.. Kasian kan g.. Hehe.. Tp dia bake lho.. Tiap hari mase epon g.. Hehe.. Dia jg beliin g baju lho.. Kado gto lho.. Hehe.. Gak nyangka.. Soalna qta kan br kenal.. Hehe.. Trz pas dia plg dr Jogja, g pas di rmh cicik g.. jd gak ketemu ama dia selama dia di Jkt.. Tp g ada ajak dia ke TA maen ice-skating.. Eh dia malah nolak.. Ydah.. Akhirna dia ke Amerika deh.. G ngerasa bersalah krn g gak anterin dia.. Hehe.. Pas dia uda di Amrik ( gak tao brp lama kemudian ), dia ol.. Haha.. Seneng bgtz liat dia ol tp dia lama blsna.. Jd males deh ol.. Gak lama kemudian, dia gak ol lge.. Sampe brp bln br mulai ol lge.. Pas dia ol ito, dia blg ke g kl dia sayang ama g.. G kaget bgt.. Krn g gak nyangka bgt n gak berani percaya.. Pdhal g br kenal dia.. N g jg tao pas dia di Amrik, dia ada cewek.. Jd g pikir dia cmn joking.. Udah deh.. G cuekin.. Tp gak tao napa, dia brp hari kemudian ngmngin mslh yg sama.. Blg ke g kl dia bnr2 sayang ama g n harap g terima dia.. G gak ngmng apa2.. Krn g gak tao mao ngmng apa.. Suer, g bkn gak mao terima dia.. Pas wkt ito, g br putus ama co g.. N g gak pengin pcran.. Tp dia malah sedih.. G jd bengong deh n binun gak tao mao ngmng apa.. G tanya dia, lo sejak kpn suka ma g.. Dia jawab sejak ketemu g dolo.. G skrg br sadar napa dia selama ito baek bgtz ma g.. Tp suer, walaupun g sayang ama dia, tp g gak bs terima dia.. Krn g ama dia jauh bgt.. G 2 taon kemudian br bs ke sono.. G suka ama dia.. G sayang ama dia.. Cmn g gak bs terima dia.. G gak pernah kase tao dia kl g jg sayang ama dia.. Krn g paling gak bs ngmng ke org ito kl g sayang dia.. Gak kira sebrp sayangna g ke dia.. G tetep aja gak b ngmng.. G kadang diblg bego.. Diblg badung.. Bnyk deh yg marahin g krn sikap g yg 1 ini.. Tp dr kecil sampe gede, g gak bs ngmng ke org laen kl g sayang ama dia.. Termasuk bonyok g sendiri.. Paling cmn lewat msg.. Tp g gak bs face to face ngmng.. Gak tao napa g bs kayak gto.. G bnr2 bego yak.. Selama ini g pacaran.. Di Malaysia, jujur g pacaran selama 13 x, tp g gak pernah ngmng ke mereka kl g sayang ama mereka.. Mgkn krn g takut g bs keilangan mereka setelah g kase tao ke mereka x yak.. G jg gak ngerti ama diri g sendiri.. Itolah g.. G sayang ama Norman.. Tp g gak bs terima dia.. N gak bs ngmng ke dia.. Krn g gak tao mao ngmng apa.. G mao n pengin bgt terima dia.. Krn dia baek bgt ma g.. N g tao dia sayang bgt ma g.. Tp qta skrg berjauhan.. Apa g bnr2 hrz terima dia?? Tp yg g tao, g gak mao keilangan dia.. Ito yg g paling paste.. Thats all I wana say bout.. Blog ini g kase khusus buat lo Nor..

Christmas...

2006-12-29T21:22:00.000-08:00

Christmas just past.. I celebrated this year's Christmas with my famiie.. And some of my friends.. That nite actually oso celebrated for my friends who are going to America.. That nite was so happy but oso feel wif sadness.. My niece and nephew come to my house oso.. We have shau-shabu party.. My nephew so funny.. He want to drink what I drink, by that time, I am drinking alchohol.. When I ask to my nephew's dad, he say just let him drink.. Then I really let him drink.. Haha.. After he drink, his face turn red.. So funny.. Guess wad, he is just 2 years old kid.. Haha.. We all laugh till stomache.. If I have time to take the pic, sure I let u all c.. Haha.. After that, all my friends spent their Christmas nite having karaoke in my house.. While they are having karaoke, I went up to my room by taking few tin of alchohol and drink them myself at top of my house.. Place like balcony and roof lor.. I am so happy when I saw a Christmas msg from a friend who have been lost contact wif me for so long.. He wish me Merry Christmas.. Really miss him.. Haha.. So sad that I cant celebrate my Christmas wif my bf.. But nvm lar.. At least we got play sms.. I am really drunk that nite till I cant even walk back to my room.. Haha.. At last my friends carried me back to my room.. Luckily my room is not far from where I get drunk.. Hehe.. O M G rite??!! Actually I have been long time din drink alchohol.. And never get drunk.. But duno why tis time its easy for me to get drunk.. I m so headache after that nite.. I wake up late for the next morning.. Haha.. Luckily not late for work.. The next morning, my 2 friends who are going to America come to my house.. We take few photo together.. They almost cry when they are leaving.. I miss them so much.. Even I just noe them for few months, but they are really good friends.. They are friendly.. Kind.. Caring.. I really hope they are fine in America.. I will catch up for them to America soon.. That's mean I am going America soon.. Haiz.. I have left my "home sweet home" in KCH n now I have to leave my other "home sweet home" in Indonesia.. Wad la.. So sad.. Anyway, just wana say that I miss those 2.. Got to work liao..

I love u Forever...I promise...

2006-12-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

那年他十九歲，在阿姨家裡度過唯一一次南方假期。她是鄰居的女孩，繼母對她不好。他第一次見到她，她穿著一條髒髒的白色棉布裙子，臉上有紅腫的手指印，滿臉淚水卻神情冷漠。他蹲在她的面前說：「你喜歡小狗嗎﹖」他把自己撿來的一條白色小狗放在竹籃裡給她看。他說：「你笑一笑！我就把它送給你。」他給了她一段快樂溫暖的時光，帶她去釣魚、捉蝴蝶、看著她的笑容爛漫無邪。她生日的那天，他帶她去逛夜市，送給她一枚紅色的蝴蝶髮夾。他說：「你要相信自己，有一天，你會像一只蝴蝶一樣，飛　　　　到自己想去的地方。」一個月後，他動身去北方。在火車站裡，她抱著小狗不肯離開。喧囂的站台上，他把頭探到車窗外向她揮手。她踮著腳，認真地問他：「如果我長大以後，我可不可以嫁你？」火車已經開動。他微笑著哄她高興，他說：「可以。」火車駛出了南方的小站，她孤單地跟著火車奔跑，終於追不上。那一年，她是八歲。一直到他大學畢業，開始上班，他沒有再回過南方。她始終寫信給他。從小學生的稚嫩字體開始，一筆一划地告訴他，她和小狗的生活。他從來不回信，只在她生日和新年的時候，寄給她漂亮的卡片，上面寫著祝小乖和小藍健康快樂。小乖是狗的名字，藍是她的名字。三年以後，小乖生病死去。她在信裡對他說：「小乖已經離開我，但我心裡的希望還在。雖然我知道我不　會有蝴蝶的翅膀，可是一定會去自己想去的地方。」初中畢業的假期，她告訴他要去北京。他們整整七年沒有相見。他在火車站裡等她。從擁擠人群裡出現的十五歲女孩，穿著白色的棉布裙子，黑色的眼睛灼熱明亮。他帶她去酒店吃飯，同行的是祺，他的未婚妻。他陪她去故宮，在幽暗的城牆角落里，他問她：「你喜不喜歡祺？」　她說：「祺美麗優雅，是個好女孩。」然後在明亮的陽光下，她微笑著看著他。她平靜地在北京過了一個星期，準備回南方繼續高中學業。臨行的前夜，她的眼淚溫暖地掉落在他的手心上。黑暗中，他看不清楚她的表情，只聽見她輕聲的詢問他﹕ 「如果你以後離婚，我可不可以嫁你？」他迷糊地說：「可以。」清晨，她不告而別，獨自南下。婚後的日子平淡如水。祺兩年後去美國讀書，準備不久把他也接出去。他也辭退了公職，開了一家小小的酒吧，準備打發掉在國內的最後日子。他把自己的酒吧叫做BLUE。他還是不斷地收到她的信。她說她很快要畢業了，如果考不上北京的大學，就準備放棄學業，來北京工作。他說：「我過一兩年就要走的。」她說：「沒關係！只要還有剩下的時間。」再次見面的時候，她十九歲，而他三十歲了。他們同居了一年，直到他的簽証下來，準備出國和祺相聚。他把BLUE留給了她。他說：「你可以在北京嫁人，以後我還會回來看你。」她說：「我會在北京等你，但不嫁人。」她依然寫信給他﹐一封又一封。而他也依然只在她生日和新年的時候，寄美麗的卡片給她。他一去就是五年。直到和祺離異，事業也開始受挫，才準備回國發展。在BLUE門口，看到吧台後的女孩，依然穿一襲簡朴的白裙。她看上去蒼白而清瘦。她淡淡地微笑：「你終於回來了，可是我生病了。」她的病已經不可治。他陪著她，每日每夜。他讀聖經給她聽。在她睡覺的時候﹐讓她輕輕地握著他的手指。有陽光的日子，他把她抱到病房的陽台上去晒太陽。她說：「如果我病好了，我可不可以嫁你？」她的心裡依然有希望。他別過臉去，忍著眼淚回答她：「可以。」拖了半年左右，她的生命力耗到了盡頭。那一天早上，她突然顯得似乎好轉。她一定要他去買假髮。因為化療，她所有的頭髮都掉光了。她給自己扎了麻花辮子，那是她童年時的樣子。然後，她要他把家裡的一個絲緞盒子搬到病房，裡面有他從她八歲開始寄給她的卡片。每年兩張，已經十七年。她一張張地撫摸著已經發黃的卡片，和上面模糊不清的字跡。這是他離開她的漫長日子裡，她所有的財富。終於她累了。她躺下來的時候，叫他把紅色的蝴蝶發夾別到她的頭髮上。她問他：「如果還有來生，我可不可以嫁你？」他輕輕地親吻她說：「可以。」他曾經用一條白色的小狗來交換她的笑容。然後，她用了一生的等待來交換他無法實現的諾言.

FrienDshIpS!!!!

2006-12-22T23:36:00.000-08:00

阿拉伯传说中有两个朋友在沙漠中旅行，在旅途中的某点他们吵架了，一个还给了另外一个一记耳光。被打的觉得受辱，一言不语，在沙子上写下："今天我的好朋友打了我一巴掌。"他们继续往前走。直到到了沃野，他们就决定停下。被打巴掌的那位差点淹死，幸好被朋友救起来了。被救起後，他拿了一把小剑在石头上刻了："今天我的好朋友救了我一命。"
一旁好奇的朋友问说：为什麽我打了你以後，你要写在沙子上，而现在要刻在石头上呢？另个笑笑的回答说：当被一个朋友伤害时，要写在易忘的地方，风会负责抹去它；相反的如果被帮助，我们要把它刻在心里的深处，那里任何风都不能抹灭它。朋友的相处伤害往往是无心的，帮助却是真心的，忘记那些无心的伤害；铭记那些对你真心帮助，你会发现这世上你有很多真心的朋友...
俗语说:只需要花一分钟注意到一个人；一小时内变成朋友：一天让你爱上他；一但真心上 . . .你却需要花上一生的时间将他遗忘，直至喝下那孟婆汤...
朋友呀！当你到这里，你是否有一点启示呢？在日常生活中，就算最要好的朋友也会有磨擦，我们也许会因这些磨擦而分开。但每当夜阑人静时，我们望向星空，总会看到过去美好回忆。不知为何，一些锁碎的回忆，却为我寂寞的心来无限的震撼！
就是这感觉，令我更明白你对我的重要！在此，我希望你能更珍惜你的朋友。最后愿你和朋友有一个难忘的圣诞。#^_^#

A Friend... is a tissue when you can't
stop crying
A Friend... is a shoulder when you feel
like dying
A Friend... always listens when you have
something to say
A Friend... is a week when you need
a day
A Friend... is a crutch when you have
a brokenheart
A Friend... is some glue when everything
falls apart
A Friend... is a sun when the rain just
won't stop
A Friend... is your'mom when you run
into a cop
A Friend... is a phone call when you can't
leave your home
A Friend... is a hand when you feel
all alone
A Friend... is a wing if you want
to fly
A Friend... understands without
knowing why
A Friend... is an ear for a secret
to tell
A Friend... is an aspirin when your head
hurts like hell
A Friend... is a love that can never
let go
A Friend... is you,
and i wanted you to know!!
**** i hope the FRIENDSHIP betweenyou 'n' me
is more than forever and neverends ****

My Christmas Hope..

2006-12-17T18:54:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry, I love u... Tis few words are really meaningful to me.. I oso dunno why it's meaningful.. Juz feel that it's meaningful lor.. Nothing much I can say.. Christmas coming soon.. Really hope I can celebrate Christmas wif someone I love.. I really hope can celebrate Christmas wif Jos and Den.. And him.. Someone who is really important and meaningful to me.. My bf said he will give me another chance if only I can go to Tasik Malaya and find him..Celebrate Christmas and his birthday with him.. I dont even know whether I can go o not.. Wad to do?? Bside that, I am still new in Jakarta, Indonesia.. How I know how to go there?? I dont even know wad kind of place it is.. I only heard bout tat place.. I only know that tat place is nice and beautiful.. But I dont know where exactly the place is.. And I dont know how to go.. He said that I can bring friends to go there wif me.. But who will go wif me?? No one!!!! Cos all of them are stress.. They won go wif me.. No matter how much I wan them to go wif me.. Hope I can celebrate my tis year Christmas wif Jos, Den and My BF.. Thats all I hope.. I dont even know wad to do.. I just can pray hard for it.. Really pray hard.. Tats the only way I hav.. Pray hard to GOD.. Hope GOD will answer my prayer.. Really.. Christmas is the only way I can back wif Bf.. I dont even know when I can celebrate Christmas again.. I dont even know when I can see Jos and Den again.. Haiz.. Really hope everything will come true.. Forget something.. I oso hope Krawx will celebrate Christmas wif me.. But I know its impossible.. Even I wan Alan and Phin gor celebrate wif me, its also impossible.. Now, I only can pray hard to GOD.. Only tat I can do.. So wad I hope will be possible.. I really hope I can celebrate tis year Christmas wif Alan, Phin, Krawx, Jos, Den and My BF.. Really hope so.. GOD, Please listen to your prayer's pray.. I hope that I can celebrate my 2006 CHRISTMAS wif Alan, Phin, Kraw, Jos, Den and my BF.. And hope my mom will hav a nice and good CHRISTMAS wif her friends in MALAYSIA.. Really hope mom will go MALAYSIA wif her friends.. So I can celebrate CHRISTMAS wif all my friends.. And hope I can really celebrate CHRISTMAS wif ALAN,PHIN,KRAWX,JOS,DEN n BF.. Thanks GOD for listening to my pray.. On the name of Jesus Christ I pray.. Amen..

I'm Sorry everyone...Laz blog..

2006-12-16T00:20:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone...How r u all??Dunno u all got read my blogs o not but juz wanna say tat tis mayb is my laz blog..duno next time still got chance to write blogs o not.. bcos I have told my doctor tat I cant stand with the wash blood pain..Its really pain.. I stop it.. So I dunno wad will happen to me..My kidney really damaged liao.. I duno till when I can survive.. Duno I stil got chance to see u all o not... Dunno wad will happen to me.. But I really will miss u all.. I really sorry to u all.. Sorry tat I cant keep my promiz that I made to u all.. Especially Krawx and Dennis... I m so so so sorry... Anyway.. I will owes put u all in my mind n heart.. I will owes remember u.. Take care u all.. Bye.. See u all when I got chance.. If I stil in this world lor.. Hehe.. GBU = God Bless U... Bye guys and gals.. Bye didi and mui mui... Bye gor gor and jie jie..

爱不一定要拥有

2006-12-13T17:58:00.000-08:00

Last nite, many things turn into my mind.. I play sms wif my fren, but the other side, I m thinking of my past.. Ever I love someone.. Someone tat who is really meant to be my love one forever.. But something happen n we broke.. I love him with all my heart.. I love him with all my mind.. first when I love him, I din tell him,bcoz I m scare tat my love is not responding.. But guess wad, my love is responding.. After all, its only my thinking.. He love me.. He love me with all his heart too.. He treat me very good.. For me, he is everything.. He really treat me very good.. N I started to depends on him.. But my love is still like before.. Never ends up happily.. Mayb bcos I never tell him that I love him.. He is busy.. He always go out town.. He said tat he is going there to do business.. But wad I heard from his friend is he go there play.. N tis friend of his, suddenly appear n said he like me.. He treat me good.. In an accident, I accept him.. The other hand I know that I just feel pity to him.. But I dont want to hurt him.. Not long after tat, my bf realize bout it.. He is so angry.. He is so so sad.. He sms me n angry to me.. I explained to him.. But he said he is angry to me.. He is dissappointed with me.. I really duno wad to do.. He is the second boy who I cry for.. I din sleep for whole nite.. Till 4am then I sleep.. Really duno wad to do.. Actually I really dun wan to lost him.. I cant stop thinking why am I so stupid.. I just realize that I really love him.. I just realize that how much he meant to me.. I just realize that he is everything to me.. I just realize that my love only meant to him.. This few days, I cant stop thinking of him.. Cant take him out of my mind.. Wad should I do?? I broke up with his friend.. The friend that cause all tis problems.. Now I just feel that I am so stupid to believe what his friend said.. I duno why his friend is so selfish.. He talk bad things bout my bf just to let me broke with my bf so that he can get me.. I really hate this kind of man.. Damn it.. I really duno why is it like this.. He is so stupid.. He is so selfish.. I m so regret tat I listen to him.. Really regret.. I won believe anyone who say bad things bout my bf anymore.. Bcos it just destroy my relationship wif him.. I hate them who say bad things bout my bf without any prove.. Really hate.. Dunno why there are people like this.. Damaged people's relationship just to make themselves happy.. So selfish.. Selfish.. Hate.. Hate.. Hate.. My bf said tat he is dissappointed with me.. He is so sad.. His heart so pain.. He said that he just wana b friend with me.. This is the first time my bf say he wan broke wif me.. No bf ever say tat to me.. So for me, that feels very pain.. Cant stand the pain.. My heart like bleeding.. OmG.. Haiz.. But if he really wana broke, then broke lor.. Cos I knew tat I love him.. So for me, the most important not to have him.. But to see him happy.. If he is happy, then I will be happy too.. I dont wan much.. Just want to see him happy.. Just wan him to be happy.. Thats all.. This time I really love him, and I dont know whether I can forget him o not.. But as I noe, I never forget everyone who ever come in my world.. No matter how much space they are in my world, I won n never forget them.. My life bcome colourful after he came in.. My world full of happiness.. My mind full of him.. But after this, I really duno wad to do.. I really duno wad I should.. I really dont mean to hurt him.. I really dont mean to make him sad.. I really dont noe wad to do.. I am so confused.. My life totally change after we quarrel.. Really hope everything never happen.. K la.. Really duno wad to say anymore.. So sad.. So sienz.. Feel wanna cry..

Oh yeah, today my phin gorgor got chat wif me o.. He read my blogs.. Then he scold me for not telling him.. He scold me make him read all my blog.. He said I forget him.. But to tell the truth, I din forget him.. I won and never forget him.. He said I forget him and alan.. I said, I won forget him and alan.. And will never forget him and alan.. He oso asked me not to forget didi.. Haha.. Didi in chinese is small bro rite?? But actually he is my gor gor o.. I won and never forget didi,alan n phin.. Thats my promise to him.. Bcos they are oledi someone I treat as family.. Someone that is important to me.. Someone who I won and never forget.. Ei, guess wad, phin gorgor said he miss me o.. Hahaha.. Never come out from my mind that he will say so.. Hehehe.. So happy when see him said that.. Hehe.. Thanks gor.. I miss u too..

Love someone u wanna love before its too late.. Tell them u love them before its too late.. Show them u love them before its too late.. When everything is too late, its time for u to regret.. When its time u regret, the hurt in your heart will be very pain.. Remember, tell your love ones how much u love them and how meaningful they are to u.. Dont regret when u lost them without telling them that u love them.. Guys and gals.. Jia you.. Do wad u should do..

WaD's LovE ??!!

2006-12-12T01:41:00.000-08:00

Nothing la.. Juz feel boring n nothing to do.. N feel wana wirte blog.. For everyone.. Let me hav an introduce bout myself.. I m a 17 years old gal.. I m a cheerful gal wif laughter n smile on da face all day long.. Never feel sad.. Never cry.. A happy angel.. A happy apple.. Tats wad ppl call me.. A gal who is very strong in facing any problems.. For me, mayb I m really like tat.. But do u noe wad I m before?? Before I noe bout love, I m a gal who owes get angry very fast.. Owes makes ppl get tired of me.. Owes cry.. Owes sad.. N in my thinking, wad is love?? Why is love so harmful to human being?? Why love owes makes us cry?? Why love owes makes us sad?? Why love owes wan to hurt ppl's heart?? Why love owes wan to take away my laughter?? Why love owes wan to makes my smile gone?? Why love is so selfish?? I hate love.. I never felt love in my family.. Bcos my family is a family full of hate, anger, quarrel.. No one can feel love in my family.. With parents quarrel all the time.. With brother n sister quarrel all the time.. Even between friends, I also cant feel any love.. Friends who owes betrayed me.. Friends who only noe how to pretend to b gud infront of me.. Friends who only find me when they nid me.. Friends who is selfish.. I hate those friends.. But wad can I do to them?? Nothing.. In my ex life, there is no such word as love.. No such word as friend.. No such word as family.. I duno wads love meant to b.. I m so tired.. Love owes come n go without my notice.. It plays in my life as it likes.. It comes n go like wind.. Without my notice, it plays me.. Fools me.. Make fun of me.. It comes n go like wind.. Shhuuuuuuhhhh.. Here love comes.. After a moment, u will heard Shuuuuuuhhhh.. Here love goes.. Fast rite?? U must keep ur heart quite so tat u can listen to the sound.. Grab it when u can.. Love will come.. But it also will go.. It depends to u whether u can listen to it n grabbed it o not.. Now, I can listen to the sound.. I can grabbed it.. I won let it plays in my life as it like anymore.. I won let it juz come n go as it likes.. Since I noe how to love, my face full with laughter n smile.. Bcos only with laughter I can stand with my life.. Only with laughter I can survive.. Only with laughter I hav friends.. Only with laughter my life full of colour.. Only with laughter.. All the laughter come from love.. Love tat makes my life full of happiness.. Happiness tat makes me happy.. Grabbed love.. Grabbed it before its look late.. Love come n go without telling.. All of u should noe bout tis.. No one can change love's attitude.. Love is something tat won tell us wad it wanna do.. So, grabbed love before it goes.. Don regret when love go.. Love anyone u wanna love.. If have problems with love, find me.. I can help.. U can leave me msg at msn - cute_bear6@dolphin.cheesecake .. or mayb in yahoo - trax_loversz89@yahoo.com .. or mayb in friendster - ahbear89@hotmail.com .. If lazy to find me there.. Dun mind if all of u wanna leave msg in my comments box.. Will be waiting for ya all.. Remember, love those u wana love before everything is too late.. Dun regret when love go, bcos love will come again when it is time.. Juz bliv in urself.. Happy always.. Laughter is best medicine for everything.. Remember my words n u won regret.. God bless ya all.. My love n support will owes b with u all..

WaD LifE meAnT ??

2006-12-11T17:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my 1nd wash blood.. Really cant stand the pain.. OmG.. But no matter wad,I will stil stand it cos I oledi promiz 2 my didi ( DennIs).. I will owes stand it.. No matter wad happen.. How hurt it is, I stil will stand it.. Yesterday I got chat with my gorgor (AlaN chEw).. He asked me bout my operation.. OmG.. How he noe bout it??!! N he said tat he noe it from Krawx.. N he is angry tat i din tell him.. Haha.. I m sorry din tell u.. Hehe.. So Pai seh.. Not dun wan tell u.. Juz dun wan u to worry bout me too much.. Coz I oledi giv u too much trouble.. Dun wan it to happen again.. Tis few days I m so tired.. So sienz.. So sad.. Not only bcos of my sickness.. But also my bf!! I noe wad I did to him is wrong but does he noe tat I m tired of him for wad he did??!! He din even giv me any news bout him for at least 2 weeks.. OmG.. Dun wana tok bout him La... Sienz...TirEd.. Sumtimes really duno y GOD plan my life like tis.. Wad is my life really meant to b?? Y I cant b wif my love one?? Y I owes hav to separate wif my love one?? Y all of tis happen to me?? Y it is owes too late when I found out tat I love Him?? Y it is owes too late when I realize how much he meant to me?? Y it is owes too late for eveything?? Y?? Y?? Y??

Below is wad I wanna tell him...

If I had to live my life without u near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With u I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now, touch me now

I dont want to live without u

Nothing's gonna change my love for u

U ought to know by now how much I love u

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for u

U ought to know by now how much I love u

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for u

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead a way for us

Like a guiding star

I'll be there for u if u should need me

U dont have to change a thing

I love u just the way u are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help u see forever too

Hold me now, touch me now

I dont want to live without u

If really can, I hope I can tell him all of tis.. But I think it's all too late.. His fren even help me to think a solution so tat we can b together again.. I really hope we can b together again.. Haiz.. Duno wad else I can do.. I m really sad.. Really duno wad to do.. Really.. Haiz.. So sad.. Feel wanna cry all the time.. Anyway.. Cant write more liao.. Have to start working.. Bye all.. Remember, appreciated your life.. Do wad u can do before its too late.. Don owes regret for wad u did.. Think before u did so.. My prayer n support will owes b wif u.. No matter where u are n wad u did, I will owes b wif u.. Remember my words..

My SurgerY...

2006-12-08T22:14:00.000-08:00

Today I am taking my surgery, my kidney surgery.. before I take my surgery, I read the blog that Krawx write about me.. I dun know that he will write that out.. when I first read it, I feel very happy and guess wad, I cry.. Because he is the 1st person who will write like that about me.. He seems to be know me very well even we juz know each other not long.. Now I am writing this blog while thinking of KRAWX.. Yesterday afternoon I play webcam wif Krawx, and we chat so much.. I took his pic from my com n our webcam.. Hehe... sound that we are crazy couple rite? But to tell the truth, I am really happy yesterday.. He even sms me to cheer me up.. Midnite, I cant even sleep.. Thinking of my surgery and bout something else.. I sms Krawx and he reply me n said he is writing a Blog about me.. Today when I look into his blog, i feel so happy and so grateful for wad he done for me.. He even curi curi take my pic thru cam.. hehe.. He is really a good friend.. A friend tat I really will appreciated.. Thats all for him...

Since I know everything bout my kidney, my life change.. I appreciated my life very much.. I treat every single day of my life as my last day, cos I duno anything bout my tomorrow.. Now, my life keep going.. Without knowing whether got tomorrow or not.. I am scare tat once I close my eyes, I cant open it anymore.. Tats y I owes appreciated my day.. No matter wad had happen to me, o wad will happen to me, I stil try my best to cheer myself up n cheer my friends up.. Not every one can b like me.. Cheerful to face every single of problems.. But I know, if I can do it, then for sure all of u oso can do it.. My life is so colourful after I know GOD n know how to appreciated everything n everyone tat ever past thru my life.. Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE if u believe tat u can do it.. Do wad ever u wan n can when u stil can do it.. Don wait anymore cos u duno when u will go away from tis world.. U won know wad will happen to u for the next second.. So, appreciated wad u have today.. appreciated wad u have now.. appreciated wad is infront of u.. Don wait till u lost them then u regret cos tat time when u regret, its too late to regret for it.. Don do anything tat u will regret it forever.. Chase who u like, do wad u wan, b who u r, Love who u wan to love cos u have the rite to do it.. So, KAMBATTE---

Me.. Now lets tok bout me myself.. I m a gal who owes cheerful no matter wad problems I am facing.. I oso won cry infront of my friends cos I don wan my friends to worry bout me.. N I don wan to see them sad because of me.. Cos I will be more sad if I see someone sad.. So, no matter how, I won cry o sad infront of myself.. Tats y whoever c me will say tat I m a happy go lucky gal.. I owes cheerful infront of them.. Even the sky fall down, I stil will smile to others n say, " dont worry, everything will be juz fine.. " I never want to make others sad.. Never wana c them sad.. Even I m facing many problems, I stil will help my friends tat really nid my help.. Will still cheer them up when they need me.. Cos for me, FRIENDS r owes 1st.. For me, FRIENDS r important.. For me, nothing can change the phrase of FRIENDS in my heart.. FRIENDS r owes everything for me cos I m from a broken family, I owes have energy to live longer.. The phrase FRIENDS is my only supportive thing so tat I can live.. Actually I have msg for Krawx..

Krawx, bear have read ur blog.. You said tat friend owes betray, friends r selfish, friends treat u as slave, friends owes refuse u n more.. but do u know tat not every single friend will do tat to u.. even only got 1 treat u as friend, u stil have to appreciated him/her.. Because one day, they will realize tat u r so important for them.. Help them when they nid u even they hurt u.. Do wad u should do.. Appreciated FRIENDS tat u have.. Even they hurt u deep, they r stil ur friend.. Mayb they did it not purposely.. So forgive wad others did to u n they will forgive wad u did to them oso.. Human owes did wrong.. No one r correct all da time.. Even one day u r hit by them, juz let it b.. Let them hit n forget it.. Do u ever heard a touching FRIENDSHIP story? Let bear tell u..

STORY START

Two friends are walking on a desert, because of some small problems, A slap B, n B just pick up a stick n write " today my friend slap me" on the sand. After tat they continue their journey. Suddenly B fell down into a deep hole, A quickly left out his hand n pull him out. When B is out from the hole, he pick up a small stone and carf some word sounds : " Today my friend save me." A felt weird so he ask B : " y u write it on sand when I slap u and now u write it on stone when I save u..??" B answered, " Because I dun wan to remember the sad things happen between us. I write it in place tat is easy to forget. The wind will b responsibility to erase wad had happen. " And after tat, A feel guilty for wad he did. He said sorry to B. And after tat they start their journey again.

STORY END

I dont know will u understand tis story o not..cos tis story really meaningful.. and as u know, tis story is told by a friend of mine who ever quarrel wif me for few weeks.. And now we r friend again.. I juz wan u to know tat, friends owes will make mistakes, but its depends on us whether we can forgive him/her o not.. So, forget every hurt tat friends gave u.. N try to forgive them even they dont know that they r wrong.. K la.. gtg.. wana go take some rest.. after surgery..

This is my 1st blog after my surgery.. I fail my surgery.. The kidney tat the doctor found stil oso damage.. So I didnt replace my kidney wif a healthy one.. My doctor said tat they stil need time to find a healthy kidney for me.. My health now is in bit problem but dont worry.. I will stil on9.. Because I stil want to see Krawx n listen to him hosting.. Krawx, thanks.. Because of your support, I dare to go in the surgery room n b strong while the doctor do the operation.. Its very painful.. Now I cant even sit straight.. So pain.. Its not worth because I din even change my kidney n I have to stand tis pain.. Really ridiculous.. But nvm la.. At least I don hav to stay in hospital.. But will owes go hospital to wash blood.. I dont know whether I dare to wash blood o not cos I know tat wash blood very pain de.. and very suffering.. Duno got energy go wash blood o not.. K la.. Take care guys.. Wana go rest liao.. Krawx, Thanks for everything.. But even I go thru my surgery today, I stil hav many days to suffer cos I stil hav to wash blood..